This is just a super quick drabble I came up with after reading the Kuroshitsuji manga. Now, I know that Ciel has not come to the point that he is questioning himself to this extent...but I feel like he has the potential. *Christian and is a fan of Black Butler* Anyone else?
Disclaimer: I do not own Kuroshitsuji...or Ciel...sad day.
I have been condemned to hell, have I not? As soon as I took the paper signed by evil, I agreed to die in the cold and unforgiving hands of Lucifer. Surely now I will suffer for eternity. But until then, I will live the rest of my life for one purpose and one purpose only...
Them.
I want them to feel the same pain that I felt, I want to take everything that they have, everything. I want to plummet them into the earth, in the dirt, like they are. But am I no worse? Should I not be among the muck and the filth that these pigs lie in? No. I shouldn't. Because it seems my seat in the fiery place that's below this earth has been reserved, where the name 'Ciel Phantomhive' will burn forever.
Sometimes I find myself wondering if there was another way - some other way. Did I have to look evil in the eye and shake hands with him? Or could I have rejected him, and saved myself? I already know the answer to that. There was no other way about it, for God had forgotten me a long time ago.
Or...was I the one who forgot God?
I shouted, I begged for His mercy during my time of despair...but He never answered. He had forgotten about me, his dear child. Perhaps I was destined to meet with that blasted demon? It seems that fate is personally escorting me to my own demise.
Repentance.
Could I possibly repent? Could I redeem myself? Could I be brought back to salvation? If God really is as good as they say, then shouldn't that be an option?
Yup, and there's that :I It was a quick fanfic, but any reviews or critiques would be appreciated :) Perhaps I'll create an ACTUAL Kuroshitsuji fanfiction one of these days...anyone like LizzyxCiel?
