L'amor
L'amor chi move il sole e l'altre stelle.
[Love that moves the sun and the other stars].
Dante
You hear people speak of that intense burning passion of an instant connection with the one. I thought them all to be liars. I mean really? Who ever feels that way? Sure I've been attracted to people. Plenty, actually but to simply look at someone and suddenly need them like you need air? Ha! Lies!
Or so I thought.
I met the man I married when I was 13. I, of course had a school girl crush, and He, didn't look at me twice. We still became great friends, best friends even. We were always together. Turns out that around the time I was turning 16 he began to have feelings for me. See? No instant burning attraction here. Just slow, growing, love.
I'm vary happy don't get me wrong. He loves me with his entire being, and I absolutely adore him. He's my first and only love. Since we've been together I've never looked twice at another guy.
And here's the but to this story.
On a completely normal Wednesday morning, I was out to the store. Just doing routine grocery shopping. My husband was at work, and I had a list of errands I needed to complete before I went home. I was just looking up from my list when I saw him. Over by the fruit section looking at some apples.
Now, my husband is an attractive man. He's reasonably tall and fit, with lush copper hair, and these amazing emerald eyes. Like I said, I love him.
But mystery man here was panty dropping worthy. I Mean, I wouldn't be surprised if I had a mini puddle forming. He had to be at least 6'4 , And his body was so chiseled it made angles weep. He also had this mop of wavy sandy blond hair that was the perfect length to run you hands through. Sad to say, but I was staring, with my mouth open like an idiot. Just when I thought I could walk away, He Looked up.
You know that feeling I was talking about earlier? The one where in that moment you feel like you need that person, And can't live with out them?That instant burning attraction? Where you know You've found that person? Yeah, those are true.
The moment his honey eyes locked with my chocolate ones I knew. He looked like he knew too. The same shocked expression I was wearing made it's way across his face. Then he smiled this amazing, breath taking smile, I couldn't help but return. I watched as he dropped his eyes to slowly take in my form. When he did, this powerful feeling washed over me. I Felt...proud that I could have this instant effect one someone so...beautiful.
Then I watched as his eyes locked with my ring finger. Where my wedding band resided. This brief expression of absolute agony washed over his features. He looked back into my eyes and gave me this smile. A small sad smile like he knew exactly what I was feeling, but both of us knew we could go no further than this exchange.
And then he walked away.
I married my Husband at 18. And even though people told us that it was a mistake. I have never felt that way. He's made me nothing but happy. 7 years later and I still can't complain.
Yet here in this moment. I couldn't help but believe that maybe, if I had just waited a little longer. I could have had something truly amazing.
Like I said. I love my husband, I always have. But that instant attraction thing? Well, somethings really are worth waiting for.
