Hey ya all! I am so sorry I haven't updated in so long! My gosh it has been way to long! 2 years :O. I got seriously ill and I still am. I have a chronic diease… But it will be alright! I have loads of medication and I'm going up hill again :D
I wanna write again and try to refind my passion for it. Since I have been sick, i have mostly slept all day and be on a high dose of painkillers. I wanna try to get rid of all my worries by writing. I hope you guys are still out there and understand me I am still sorry for just leaving.
This pain, why do I have it?
Why does it get worse?
My body is upset, but I don't know why.
Did I eat something wrong?
Am I not healthy enough?
I am so tired,
Not just physically, but also mentally
This pain, please make it stop
It gets worse everyday,
My painkillers don't work anymore
What is wrong with me?
I don't know.
No one can tell me.
No doctor understands,
No one that wants to help
No one who believes me
This pain, I can't take it anymore
I want it to stop!
If no one will help me
Then I…
Then I will help myself
To end this pain.
This pain, is gone
Am I finally free?
Free from all the lies and all the pain?
Free from all the suffer?
I see a road before me,
A beautifull road.
Should I follow it?
Or should I go back?
I don't know what to do
Please help me.