Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter but I do own the original story this is based one called The Outlaw's Princess.
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Chapter 1: The Beginning (Again)
There I was, the younger sister of James Potter, all dressed up for a mysterious man at the Christmas Party. No one knew who I was going with and I had no other plans than to find Sirius amidst all the party guests. Then off we would go to be by ourselves by nights end. That was the plan we had gone over with each other for weeks. Of course with my luck, I would end dancing with Severus before Sirius found me. For about three hours, I waited for Sirius to find me but still no luck. I was beginning to wondering if he had even come at all.
I had enjoyed my chat with Remus a bit ago. He always made me feel good about myself and right now I needed Sirius who was nowhere to be found. Determination filled me up as I stood up and made my way out of the Great Hall. I would look for Sirius in the Common Room and hopefully find him. Instead as I made my way up the first few steps, I felt a pair of strong hands pull me back. It was that Slytherin I had danced with. His blue eyes were dark and filled with lust.
"You're coming with me!" He said quickly, as he pulled me down the nearest hall and threw me into a vacant broom closet.
"What are you do—" But nothing came out after that. He pulled his tie from his neck and tied it around my mouth to prevent anyone from hearing me scream. His hands quickly found themselves at the ends of my red gown and before I knew what was fully happening, the feeling of his cold fingers rested on my inner thigh.
Mumbled cried were held back because of his tie as I attempted to kick him away with the sharp heels on my feet. For a moment, he seemed surprised by my willingness to fight back, but it was no use. He raised my fists and knocked me to the ground in a single hit. The seventh-year held my body in place while I tried to fight back more but he was stronger. Before blanking out, he continued fully undressing me and a moment later he pushed his pelvis into mine. I felt everything and knew he hadn't said the protection charm. Hell, what if I got pregnant; what if Sirius finds me and he lied saying I was enjoying this; what ifs filled my mind as he raped me.
After what seemed a few minutes, he groaned and I felt him tense up more than before.
There … I knew it… He had released himself and went to stand up as I opened my eyes to face my rapist.
"I knew you'd give in, Potter. You're nothing but a dirty little Gryffindor whore. Only I can have you now. No one wants seconds here at Hogwarts. Especially after a Slytherin." His smirk was present as he zipped up his pants up. He left me laying on the floor.
"I'm not a little whore," I cried, collecting the ribbons that had fallen from my hair. Slowly I stood up feeling all the aches that can with this act on a stone floor. My body felt disgusting and I slowly made my out of the broom closet. I wanted James in that instant more than ever. My big brother was to protect me but the thought of James and his prefect fairytale girlfriend Lily Evans made me angry. Walking up to the Common Room and hurrying to my dorm, it was here where I threw myself on my bed.
I heard my dorm mates coming up from the party several hours later and faster than I thought possible, I grabbed my bath items. Hearing Madeline calling my name behind me, I ignored her and rushed to the showers. Scrubbing myself raw trying to get rid of his smell and the feelings I felt. That Slytherin wanted me and got me in the worse way. I shouldn't have been so stupid. But I wished I could wash my heart too. Sirius had disappeared lately after James had asked to talk to him about something. Something clicked in my head,… Maybe the Slytherin would love me when Sirius didn't….
James doesn't love me that was for certain! He cares about Lily more! Why would he care that one of his own classmates and I loved each other? On school grounds during a party no less that he and Lily put so much effort? I wouldn't mention this to anyone else. I would carry this burden on my own. I wouldn't bother Sirius. He had bailed on me. Why would he care? Maybe, just maybe the Slytherin would care about me….
That night I washed myself for what seemed a hundred times. I cried in the shower because of how scared and confused I was. I really needed James or anyone that gave a damn about me. After a few days of neither seeing nor hearing from Sirius, I was seriously beginning to doubt him. He avoided my letters and, once during passing, he completely ignored me like I wasn't there.
I considered going home for Christmas, but when the memory of that Slytherin boy's face flew up in front of my eyes; all thoughts of returning home were dashed to the rocks. I didn't want anyone to ever find out, especially my parents. James and Sirius had refused to go but then we got a letter that Dad had been killed, and it forced us home.
James wasn't able to come face to face to our mother, so I was forced to accept the paper in his place. Sirius had come with me at first but I made him wait outside. I was told that he was killed by Death Eaters, but I was took concern in my own problems. Mum and Dad hadn't been there for me. Neither had James or Sirius. I left with my head high too high with Sirius trailing behind me. I ignored my family while they mourned the passing of my father.
I threw myself into my studies ignoring the boys as much as possible. Mum didn't care that I spend most of the break in my room. She was mourning the loss of her husband, I mourned the loss of my innocence. Upon our arrival at Kings Cross to return, I felt Sirius press against me to say something.
"GO AWAY!" I shouted to him as I boarded the train. Since I didn't get a reply I assumed he knew I meant what I said. Finding an empty compartment near the end, I stayed content to there until James found me and asked what was wrong.
"Nothing is wrong," I answered staring out the window.
"Clearly something is," he said, sitting down in front of me. There was worry written all over his face.
"Nothing is wrong, James," I insisted. "Besides you won't care anyway. Neither would Black."
"Sirius would. I would too. I'm your brother—"he confessed puffing his chest out.
"You're an arse. That's what you are. Go find Evans and kiss her ass!" I snapped out to him becoming angrier the more time he spent beside me. James seemed to not understand me tone because he shot up from his seat pointing his finger in my face. My eyes narrowed at him as he began to form the words of his thoughts.
"Listen to yourself! What the hell happened? What did Sirius do?" James said in a firm, stern voice which I knew meant business. My mouth almost opened to explain but I frowned wondering if he had a spell on.
"Gimme your wand," I ordered. James let his face harden a moment before a wide grin crossed his face.
"Why?" James said withdrawing his wand. "Let me have yours. I know you're mad. Here. Just don't curse me."
Before I handed my wand over, I casted a silencing charm so no one would hear us. I closed my eyes to focus my thoughts, and I began.
"Sirius and I had a deal—"
"Merlin I knew it!" He said throwing himself back in the seat.
"Shut up! Now, we had a deal that we would be boyfriend girlfriend so he would get his act together. At the Christmas party, he stood me up. That's why I've been rude to him. I apologize for it to you and Mum. But it hurt."
"So I take it that this isn't a lie then?" James said withdrawing a letter from his pocket. It had Sirius' handwriting on it.
Emmy,
I was hoping we could sneak off during the party. You know James and Lily. They are going to spend the whole night together. I know we bought our tickets together but I will arrive with James who has to be there early. I hope to see you enter but I will be leaving around 9:15 to see you at our spot.
With love Sirius
"James I never saw him. I never got this letter."
"I know. I saw him writing it. I took it to send but I never did."
James was frowning and I didn't have the faintest clue why. At least he wasn't mad at me. He got up to leave and a thought came to mine. Something I could use against Sirius.
"Douglas Luke and I … ummm… we… did something…."
"Luke? The Slytherin in my year?" I nodded and James just shook his head. "I don't want to know. You're grown up. I don't care what you do in your spare time. I still love you if you're dating him, but I won't be happy."
With that James exited the compartment and I just smiled. James wasn't mad about me, yet clearly he was pissed about Sirius' actions. I was his baby sister after all. When I went to get up to find the trolley, I heard James and Sirius screaming at each other and poor Remus was trying to stop them. Continuing on my way I grinned thinking of how I could ruin Sirius's remaining term.
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"I can't believe you did that!" I heard Severus Snape whisper harshly. "You did what?"
I turned the corner and the two Slytherins came into view fully. There stood Severus Snape and Douglas Luke. Severus wore a shocked expression and Douglas had more of a smirk than anything else. There's nothing wrong with Slytherin House really, but the sight of Douglas made me want to vomit. They were standing in the hallway near Professor McGonagall's classroom, which is where I needed to go. I knew that all the Houses in the same year attended Transfiguration at the same time.
Today, class must have gotten over early because usually I arrived ten minutes before class ended for the seventh years. I hoped that Douglas would just ignore me, but that was not in my favor. He was smiling arrogantly and when he finally caught sight of me, he walked towards me with a sort of gait that would make girls faint.
"Hey, Potter!" He yelled, calling my name in a sing song sort of way that made the hairs on the back of my neck stand up. Others around us turned at the sound of his voice.
I covered my knees with my bag as they began to shake. Trying my hardest to pretend that I didn't hear him, I looked down at my feet and gazed down at the blemish on my shoe like it was suddenly very interesting. Maybe he would go away if I didn't pay any attention to him. I bit the inside of my lip nervously as I saw his shiny, polished shoes stop beside mine. I dared not look him in the eye.
Crap! I thought. What am I supposed to do now? He wrapped his arm around my neck and grabbed my gray sweater forcing me to look up.
"I have a question," he began as I stopped just shy of the doorframe to Professor McGonagall's classroom. "Christmas. Was it fun for you?"
Is he honestly asking that? My brain tried to think of any way that I could escape his grip when, suddenly, James and Sirius walked out of the classroom. I would have cried for joy to see James, but I didn't feel too happy about Sirius seeing me too. Sirius' eyes widened at the sight of the two of us in such close quarters.
"What you are doing with Emily, Luke?" Sirius asked, quickly stepping in between us. "I thought you had Potions this period!"
"And I thought you might know your little lion better," Douglas said arrogantly, holding a lock of my hair between his fingers and twisting it. This made Sirius furious. "After all, she's quite good in bed. And here I thought you knew since you've bed nearly every girl here," he spat, turning away from us Gryffindors and back towards his Slytherin friends.
For a moment I thought that Sirius would ignore the comment, but a second after Douglas turned completely, he attacked the Slytherin. He flung his bag down and threw himself on top of Douglas, making them crash to the ground, and threw a punch square into his cheek. Their arms flew about wildly, trying to attack the other, as James tried to get a hold of Douglas' face. Remus, coming out of nowhere, grabbed my arm and pulled me away to avoid getting kicked by the conflagration of legs squirming across the floor.
"You . . . rotten . . . fucking snake! Don't ever touch . . . Emily!" screamed Sirius as punch after punch landed with sickening thuds to Douglas' face.
James had smartly moved out of the way and was standing beside Remus and I, staring around the doorframe like he had heard something. As soon as I heard the sharp clacks of high heels coming down the hall I knew it was Professor McGonagall. I knew then that was why James had stopped. Sirius and Douglas were fighting in front of her classroom after all.
When I looked back in Sirius' direction, he had pulled Douglas to his feet – the Slytherin looking rather unrecognizable – and pushed him towards the wall, slamming his back up against it. Douglas' head hit the stone as he slid down the smooth surface until he was crumpled on the floor in a heap.
Sirius was only a foot away from Douglas when I made a split second decision. I leaped in front of him right as Sirius' fist would have struck. His fist slammed into my back as I shielded Douglas from the impact. My eyes clenched closed in pain and I knew that my only choice was to collapse in Douglas' lap. Behind me I heard Professor McGonagall rounding the corner.
"Mr. Black! What in Merlin's name have you done?" She exclaimed, causing Sirius to jump away from us. "Never have I seen such behavior out of you! Report to my desk now! Black, at my desk! Now Sirius!" ordered Professor McGonagall as she stomped furiously towards the three of us.
Sirius pointed his finger, shouting that Douglas started the whole thing, but our Head didn't hear a thing. I imagine all she saw was one of her student towering over another of hers and one of Professor Slughorn's students. Douglas got up before I did and then helped me up.
"Professor, I'll take Potter to the Hospital Wing. Black hit her pretty hard," he said wrapping his arm under my arms to support me better. His expression now showed care and affection, unlike a moment ago. I could see Sirius' face contort in rage but there was nothing he could do about it. I turned with Douglas and we went toward the Infirmary. Remus had grabbed James before he had the chance to defend his best friend. I agreed that it was wise too. If Mum found out James almost got into a violent fight with someone, James would suffer greatly and wouldn't lose just his badge.
Sirius grabbed my bag from the floor and threw at me and Douglas who picked it up. As Douglas dabbed at his face, I struggled to stand straight.
"Oww oww," I cried out. Douglas turned around and simply picked me up.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done in front of your brother. I apologize," he said as he began to ascend the stairs to the fourth floor.
"I didn't have to stop Sirius. Be glad I did. He's pretty strong."
"Why did you, by the way? After what I did and all?"
We stopped and I looked Douglas in the eye. Genuinely he seemed curious, so I arched myself up and embraced him fully. His eyes opened widened and I knew that confirmed something in his mind.
"I was Sirius' girlfriend, but he abandoned me at the Christmas party. I didn't like what you did to me, but I'll forgive you if you do something for me in return." I looked up in time to see the excited face of the seventh year male.
"What? Anything!" His grip tighten around me.
"Make Sirius jealous because you'll be my boyfriend from now on."
There was his smirk again. "I'll do that with pleasure! Trust me on that!"
Douglas' words replaying over and over in my head as I was check out by Madam Pomfrey. He had gone on to Potions after dropping me off. By the looks of things there was something else going than just my back pain.
"Miss Potter, have you had intercourse recently?" Poppy asked bluntly, frowning at one of the tests that came back.
"Sorta," I answered not knowing how to answer that without getting Douglas into trouble. "Douglas and I… Umm…"
"I see. A few butterbeers came over you both. Alright well I need to get Mr. Luke. Can you stay here while I attend to another student beforehand? Please go to the Headmaster in few minutes after that. This hasn't happened at Hogwarts for fifty years."
Madam Pomfrey was shaking her head while she walked away. I stood up realize the weight of her question. Pregnancy was the only option that it could be. Great, just great, but it was also a perfect way to make Sirius jealous. At least Douglas and I weren't completely in trouble.
After dinner that evening while I was sitting in the Common Room working on my Ancient Runes assignment, I heard Sirius telling James that McGonagall gave him two months of detention because he 'ought to have known better'. His punishment was grading the fifth and sixth year's essay papers.
That means . . . he's going to be reading my essays! I thought with a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. Speaking of my stomach, I glanced at it remembering the conversation that I had with Professor Dumbledore. He was sad for us being so young, but Douglas and I made the choice to keep the baby. Professor Dumbledore seemed somehow pleased that we were in different houses. A way to create a union that no one thought possible.
We were told that if we had conceived at the party, then I was ten weeks along. Without thinking, I rubbed my belly thinking of whether Douglas and I were having a boy or girl. I hoped it was a girl.
"Are you okay?" Withdrawing my hand, I looked up seeing James. "Sirius got your back, not your front."
"Girl stuff James. Nothing you need to know about," I lied quickly, standing up and gathering my things. I tried to not think about the fact James would be an uncle. Sirius met my gaze and just as he started to walk towards me, I had gathered up all of my supplies and rushed upstairs to my dorm. I had no choice but to finish all my work sitting in bed.
Later that night as I attempted to get some sleep, I found that no matter what I did, I just couldn't. The sight of a little dark hair boy kept invading my dreams. He looked just like Douglas but there was something off about it. He had my hazel eyes. I tried to sleep but the dream kept me awake.