What Hurts the Most
By: Rascal Flatts
AN/ Disclaimer: I do not own Wicked, or the song "What Hurts the Most" by Rascal Flatts. This is a Gelphie story, so do not bother reading if you don't like that kind of thing. R&R. Bookverse. Galinda POV.
She put her face against Glinda's and kissed her. "Hold out, if you can," she murmured, and kissed her again. "Hold out, my sweet." -Elphaba, pg. 178
When Elphie left me that day in the carriage I never saw it coming I saw so much that we could be together, so much we had started to be already. I never thought that we would become so close. I always thought she would be the last person that I could ever fall in love with.
In the beginning we each had our opinions of each other. I thought she was too harsh, and if she would give people a chance she would have more friends. At that time I still thought she was beautiful in her own way, of course. When we became friends she told me what her first opinion of me was. She thought I was a preppy, uncaring, little rich girl, who had no brains or concern for anyone else. I guess we were both very wrong about each other.
Well another boring day with nothing to do but stay in my room and think, but all I can think about is Elphie.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
I don't mind letting out my feelings every once in a while, but sometimes I just can't take it.
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me
Yes, I do lie an pretend that I'm okay, and that I agree with them that you were evil. That's not what bothers me the most, it's definitely at the top of the list though.
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
The memories of you leaving me all alone, when all I wanted to do was be with you, are what hurt me the most. Those times when I just wanted to pull you back to me and make you stay, when I could have, no, should have made you stay with me.
For the Witch, the sky was a huge boulder pressing down on her. For Glinda it was much the same. But Glinda wheeled about, and cried out, "Oh, Elphie!"
The Witch did not turn. They never saw each other again.
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
All I wanted to do was love you, couldn't you see that? Didn't you know that I loved you? I thought you did.
In a single lumpy bed, the huddled together, for warmth and encouragement and, Glinda told herself, protection. [... Glinda would start as if from a frightful dream, and nestle in nearer to Elphaba, who seemed at night never to sleep. Daytimes, the long hours spent in poorly sprung carriages, Elphaba would nod off against Glinda's shoulder. -pg. 169
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
I just can't get away from the fact that I lost you, that you walked away from me. Everywhere there's talk about you. They all say that your wicked and evil. I see Nessa and Boq, they both wonder what happened to you. I don't think Nessa would speak to you even if you did come back. I don't think anyone wants you back.
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
I wish I would have told you how much I really cared about you sooner. Then maybe you would have stayed with me. I have to wake up and get dressed and pretend that I never loved you, that you never meant anything to me, because that what they expect of me.
I can't stand it and I wish you were here.
3rd Person POV
Galinda signed her name and folded up the letter and put it in an envelope, even though she knew she'd never see her love again, or be able to give her the letter. She just wished that some where Elphie knew how she felt. Maybe someday Elphie would come back to her.
THE END! R&R. I might make another chapter I'm not sure yet though, what do you think?