Rock No Roll
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"Oh my God I don't know if I really ever want to leave this room" she gasped
"I know what you mean that was mind blowing, I think if I had a choice of ways to die this would be it, right there right then with you"
"Well we don't have a choice remember no ties, no names, and no exchange of numbers just one night" she reminded him
"Yeah I remember but I wish I hadn't agreed to that, I think it's going to be the biggest regret of my life"
"No regrets remember"
"As soon as I kissed you I regretted making that deal if I'm honest" he replied "But I'm a man of my word"
"We have maybe 40 minutes" she said looking at her phone "Before the night is officially over shall we just to imprint" she laughed
"That giggle is infectious Lady" he said grabbing her to him and kissing her ready to go again
"Well we didn't waste any time" she said 20 minutes later "I need to go home, get some sleep" she giggled "Been a while since I was kept up all night"
"Me too but it was so worth it" he said kissing her neck "does this have to end now? I need a hand" he said looking down at himself almost ready to go again
"Yep we agreed one night" she said putting on her jacket as he stood there naked, tempting and willing "Life" she rolled her eyes before kissing him, then she was gone
5 years later
Sam
"So Hon what we doing tonight for our anniversary, should we just book a hotel and stay up all night doing unmentionable things to each other?" Rachel laughed asking her husband Sam as she walked into the bathroom to him
Rachel, Italian with black, brown hair, noticeably skinny, with once perfect teeth, and small feet, was stunning once, he'd never noticed at first her irritating habit of flashing her tongue across her teeth, it made him swear every time she did it. He'd become attracted to her because she wasn't clingy, she was independent, talked about her Dad all the time, he wasn't phased, with some work he knew she'd soon be Sammy's girl, he took the challenge. He looked at her now stood there in her office blue tailored suit with white blouse and black court shoes and he was not impressed, 'she should have donned suspenders, stocking and crutch less panties for her job' he frowned
"I don't know hon, I'll decide and let you know" he said rolling his green eyes as he turned his back to her so she couldn't see his expression 'What were they actually celebrating, what marriage, it couldn't be togetherness, love, feelings, connection, what?' he asked himself, Rachel and he hadn't seen eye to eye for over 12 years they got married because she got pregnant, her mob drug pushing father, decided his grandchild was not being born out of wedlock, he marched them up the aisle, had a lavish king size reception inviting a bunch of people even Rachel didn't know, his parent refused to attend because they knew the Gravanti's were mobster type people, they'd begged him not to marry the girl, but his arms were being twisted from the other angle, there was no way he could see out alive anyway.
He hadn't been a proper husband he neglected his wife most the time mainly because she did what her father told her to do with a passion, she would sleep with Jo's to get him a deal, get young girls involved in the racket to make them mules and lure men to secluded places to get them killed. Gino; Rachel's Dad, had warned him from early on that he should do nothing unless he was told to do it and that included, it seemed, sleeping with his wife. The baby had been born still and although Rachel blamed herself for that he blamed the whole damn family, Rachel was still doing scams for her Dad even up until she was 8 months pregnant and one day he found her in the bathroom sleeping with a bag of power in her hand, so on top of everything else, she used drugs too, he'd confronted her about it, she professed to be under pressure and needed something to take the edge off
"What pressure?" he asked "Can I do anything to help?"
"Funny" she laughed in his face "What exactly do you think you can do? I work for my Dad you can't even touch me without his say so, just leave it Sam, keep the fuck out of my business it's family business"
"Okay" he held his hands up saying, in his head he left that day for good, still a prisoner in this home, he couldn't touch his wife and he couldn't stray either so he spent a lot of time in his study watching films and getting off, his only real trigger for release was his one full night of hot, X-rated sex with his mystery lady who, if he was honest about it, he'd fell in love with overnight and as he had told her that night he lived to regret making that deal with her because she was in his head constantly
"What hasn't Dad given permission?" he heard snapping him out of his memory
"No he told me not to make any plans" he told her, not turning around to look at her because she'd see in his face he didn't want to make any plans with her, she left shortly after that for her day out, he finished in the shower and went to his bedroom to get dressed as his phone rang
"Sam, Gino I'm just calling to let you know where you two need to be later"
"You do know it's our anniversary today yeah?"
"I'm not stupid we're going to lighthouse for food, drinks and party most of Rachel's friends will be there"
"Rachel has friends?" he asked but Gino ignored his question "What time?"
"7pm" he said, then the phone was down
Mercedes
"Sweetheart it's time to go grab your things" Tank said as she sat on her bedroom chair looking at her hair in the mirror "Mercy come on, I don't need to be talking to you more than once what is up with you tonight?" he asked getting agitated
"I'm coming" she said looking at him flapping
"And Sweetheart any of them tricks come to you tonight I expect you to not react, I told them to be under control but Penny she's got a habit she might flip and I apologise for that one but the rest have been warned I'm out with my wife tonight so you ready" he said grabbing her arm
"So I'm your wife and I can't flip but anyone who wants to have a go at me can come try is that it?"
"Well I'm doing a deal tonight with the Italian Job and I need a sweetener, you going to be it"
"Why can't one of your tricks do it, I'm your wife"
"Because these people need class and Honey you're class" Tank said grabbing at her butt "Or at least pretend to be class" he hissed
"So you don't mind sharing your class then?" she asked pulling away from him, 'if she was his sweetener he wouldn't risk slapping her tonight' she thought as she answered back
"Stakes would have to be mighty high for me to consider you doing anything like this Sweet" he replied, flashing her a look as he walked out of the bedroom, she didn't know what to think of it
She didn't mind if the stakes were low, Tank was an out and out crack head so he was either up or down no in between, foreplay was a thing of the past he just wanted it now, everybody out, Ike Turner style without the actual battering and then he'd sleep that off for the next twenty or so days. He was total skin and bone and at times she'd wondered how he managed to keep these other girls, although she was grateful, of course the money was flowing but that was boring as hell she needed some TLC and this brother just didn't cater. If she was really honest, her need to care about what he did left the night she slept with a blond haired green eyed, stranger in a hotel room five years ago that Daddy was still giving her electrifying orgasms almost on a nightly basis. She called him all kinds of names in her height of passion but she still wished they'd have at least told names so she had something, god if only she could find him again.
"Mercy come on man, I need to go" Tank shouted over her thoughts
"I'm ready" she said picking up her purse and following him out the door "Where we going? Is there food?" she
"Lighthouse there's both food and drinks as well as dancing" he said slapping her backside again as if she were a trick
Lighthouse
Gino pulled up in his car, his daughter in another and Sam in one behind her they never travelled together "Private party tonight people sorry it's my Daughter's wedding anniversary" Gino announced as he entered the club.
"No mention of me then?" he asked Rachel, too involved in the media hype to take any notice of what he asked, he always walked a few steps behind so the press could get photos. It was a very rare thing for him to be involved in any of this sort of drama he was very much kept in the background and even now he could have been mistaken for one of the guards
"Will your husband be joining you Miss Rachel" one of the reporters asked
"Yes he will" she replied not looking at him at all
"Must be a very lenient husband the way she puts it about" he heard one of the reporters say but he dare not comment Gino was doing tonight for a reason and he was not privy as to what that was.
They went inside immediately led to a large private room were lots of people stood around talking, the room looked almost wake like except for a few of the ladies that dressed in bright colours. Rachel scanned the room, and it up, he could lonely assume she'd seen several people she'd favoured for her Father, "Daddy I'm going to speak to Sonny" she announced stepping off
"Not today sweetheart" he halted her saying "You stay with me I have someone special for you tonight" Gino said 'so it's my wedding anniversary and for that my wife is going to sleep with someone her Father has lined up for her' he thought with a smirk on his face 'this gets better' he did a lot of that, talking to his inner self, as he observed his surroundings he opted not to move from his allocated spot, knowing the least thing to go wrong would undoubtedly be his fault. He stood looking around within his visual parameters and recognised hardly anyone, thinking 'the joke is on you Gino because I didn't want to touch your fucking daughter anyway'. Suddenly there was a big noise come through the door and an entourage of men in black suits shuffled in he was alarmed but no one else seemed to be, so he quickly checked for places to find cover and planned his route in his head while they came towards them
"Gino" the skinny man with the dreadlocks and gold teeth said hugging into him
"Tank" Gino said "Nice of you to come brother" he said coming out of the hug "This is Rachel my daughter" Gino said pushing Rachel forward and she hugged him
"This is Mercy my wife" Tank said looking around for her, his men moved to the side and she appeared at his side
Sam stood frozen to the spot 'she's here' he screamed in his head as Mercy shook hands with Gino and Rachel.
"This is Sam my husband" Rachel said, he was shocked she'd owned him and pissed that she'd chosen then to do it, as Mercy turned to look at the man she was speaking about
"Nice to meet you Sam" Tank said grabbing his hand and shaking him back to life
"You too, Tank" he squeezed a smile saying
"And this is my wife Mercy" Tank told him
"Nice to meet you… Mercy" he said
"Sam" she said, looking around at everyone else, she could see he was blown, she was too but this was not the place "Sorry I thought I knew you from some place" she looked at him saying to cover the hesitation
"He doesn't get out so you wouldn't have seen him anywhere" Rachel told her almost dismissing him
"Shall we, now we have all the pleasantries out the way" Gino said moving to the room at the end of the hall to do business, Rachel seemed to have slipped away
"Sam, can I leave you to look after my wife while we go talk money?" Tank asked
"You can" he replied pleased he was getting this opportunity, and suddenly they were left together
"Drink?" he asked taking her to a table near the bar side of the room that was hardly being used as everyone was either dancing, snorting or doing business
"Dirty Martini please" she said, she sat looking at him the whole time he was at the bar she couldn't believe the guy from her wet dreams, dreams and fantasies was standing there
He returned to the table put her drink in front of her and casually said "Do you know how many times I fucked you over the past five years in my dreams, fantasies and even my wet dreams" if Mercy had been drinking she would have chocked and given the game away
"You know I was just watching you standing at the bar thinking the exact same thing" she said smiling "Sam" she added all sexy like
"Mercy" he said giving his lop sided grin as he looked around
"So fuckable" she said looking back at him with lust "So you're the illusive husband of Miss Throw it all around, coke head"
"And you're the wife of Mr Fuck everything in his path and race you to baby mother it" he said laughing
"One and the same except I have no babies for the crack head bastard and wife is only a word" she smiled back
"I know that feeling, husband isn't even a word in my world"
"How the fuck did we get here?"
"I came in a car how did you travel?"
"In a car" she said, laughing again
"And your drink is that alright?"
"Yes thank you very much Sam, where's your lovely wife?"
"Oh here she is" he said getting up "Rachel, Mercy was just asking for you" he said as she spun round to focus on Mercy, stumbling towards the table, he steadied her and put her in the nearby chair
"Hi Mercy just had to go to the rest room you know" she slurred "has Sam been keeping you ... well I was going to say entertained, but he's not very entertaining, has he looked after you?"
"Yes he has got me a drink and everything" Mercy said, closing her eyes at the drama that everything would have sparked ructions with Tank, wishing she hadn't said the 'everything' at the end as she well and knew what was coming next from this junkie behaving bitch
"What do you mean everything, what else was he giving you?"
"Rachel I'm a married woman, my husband is in talking to your Dad, do you really think I'd be out here doing everything with your husband?" she asked but Rachel didn't answer so, Mercy, believing Rachel thought the worst of her, left the table and marched towards the room Tank was in
"Tank we need to go, Rachel just disrespected me and I'm not having it" she burst into the room saying, all eyes looked at her standing there
"Sweetheart I'm doing business please" he looked at her saying
"I want to go, now" she shouted, Tank got up and went to her took her outside for a conversation, when he returned he wasn't happy
"Gino your Daughter accused my wife of sleeping with her husband right there on the dance floor and she's not happy and if she's not happy, I'm not happy my man" his tone contradicting his words
"What you saying, you're happy for your wife to do that, just not on the dance floor?" Gino laughed
"We're willing to do what we need to do to close a deal, but that conversation needs to happen with my wife present" he replied taking another line of powder "You got nothing stronger than this?" he asked, the wife conversation already forgotten
"Tell Dino to bring the good stuff" Gino ordered as two men left the room "Tank" Gino said considering his words before he spoke again "It's my daughter's anniversary today, I'd planned on letting her sweeten the prize but because she's messed up so I wonder how you'd feel about letting her husband sweeten it with your wife. We'd be happy and my daughter would be punished for disrespecting your wife?" he asked as the two men came back with his good stuff "Put it on the table" he told them, Tank tasted it, like it
"24 hours with my wife and the deal is on" he told Gino
"My friend, this guy hasn't had any for I don't remember how long, he don't touch my girl unless I say so, because I need her for deals, business you know, give him 48 hours we got a deal"
"48 hours in Hotel Grand with my wife and the deal is done my man" Tank screamed "This shit is hot" he was so gone he didn't know how to care "Where can I buy this?"
"If the deal closes, without your wife's say, the first 20K will be free but after that you can buy from my stock" Gino informed him
Tank went out to tell his wife "Babe remember I said I needed a sweetener" he said steadying himself as he spoke "Well Gino agreed for you to be the sweetener for the deal and Honey he's giving me 20K of shit on top ain't that the shit" he laughed
"So what do I have to do" she asked, expecting the fall out after complaining about Gino's daughter
"Just 48 hours in a Hotel, come on let's go" he grabbed her saying, she just about got a smile in for Sam before she left. She couldn't lie her heart sank, she had barely got to say hello to her fantasy man before his crack head wife came and ruined the vibe, now she was having to sleep with his father-in-law for what 48 fucking hours she hated life, she hated sex and most of all she hated Tank.
Sam was standing watching her leave when Dino caught his attention "Sam, Sam Gino wants you come on what you got to think about?"
He got up and followed Dino into the room "Yes I don't want to make this a habit or anything but Rachel has disrespected our guest tonight and so I need you to close the deal for us are you up for this?" Gino asked
"I'm not gay" he told him almost laughing
"I didn't ask you if you were gay, I'm not interested in what you are, I said are you ready to do this or die" All he heard in that was die, 'why am I going to die? because I don't want to suck a man's dick? yeah I'd die for that, bite the fucker off and then die okay'
"Yeah" he said with a smile on his face, 'I'll bite that fucker off and go down smiling I might as well die I'm not living not really' he thought
"It's a 48 hour job, a long haul thing can you keep it up that long do you need something to help you?" Gino asked
"I'll be fine" he said because in his head the dick was just about going in his mouth once, then it would be off
"Okay Dino, make sure he gets to Hotel as soon as" Gino said dismissing him
He did his last walk through the club looking at people's faces, things, even smiling at some thinking I'm getting out, only he knew this was his 'Dead Man Walking' look he grinned as he left the building. He'd pictured going out in so many ways since being linked to this mob but with a dick in his mouth never came to mind before, but if that was his way out he was going to take it. He sat taking everything in, he looked up and the tall building with coloured lighting outside, flags from every nation, gold threaded marble poles leading you up the front entrance 'grand place to die' he thought as he went in Dino booked him in, gave him the card to the room and directed him to the lifts "Room service only Sam" he said before letting the lift door close
The 48 hours
He called the lift and got in calmly not wanting Dino or anyone else that might be watching him to cotton on to his plan when he got in the lift he panicked a bit, on hearing a ping he wiped the thin bead of sweat from his brow and exited the lift to find a built man wondering around up there. As he got closer he realised the man was standing outside the room door he was going into, he hadn't planned for security to be there how silly, 'am I really going to have to suck dick' he thought pushing the card in the door 'if I leave the card on the inside of the door he won't be able to get in' he thought shutting the door behind him to find that wasn't possible, 'But one thing for sure only one of us is leaving this room and it sure as hell better be me' .
Turning to look at the room, surprised it was a suit, he raised his brow, it was actually beautiful 'only to be expected of Tank' he thought, 'he's married to that beautiful looking woman, has like 600 baby Mom's, and spends his spare time getting dicked down by men, dirty bastard'. He moved cautiously from the door, he saw flowers, chocolates, champagne 'shit a bit much for a man on man thing' he thought but left it alone. He opened a door and saw a bedroom, walked into it and lay on the bed for a short while before his reason for being there popped into his head, he reckoned he had time, he took a shower and got dressed again just for the fun of it last rights and all that.
He walked around looking at the spare bedroom, turned the TV on and off again and then ventured to the kitchen, deciding on getting a drink, he saw something move as he approached, he stepped back a bit, wondering what to do next opting to take the plunge and look in "Mercy" he gasped, his eyes popping, his mouth levitating
"Sam" she said looking around for someone else "What are you doing here?"
"I've got to be with someone for 48 hours, Gino's deals" he said rolling his eyes, happy
"That's me I'm here for 48 hours to close a damn deal" she stood looking at him her eyes laughing
"Get over here" he said "I've wanted to do this since five minutes before you left the hotel room, five years ago" pulling her to him kissing her so deep she melted into his arms "48 hours, bedroom" that was the end of talking for a long while
'Kiss' he said hugging her Prince style baby" he said kissing her and doing an air punch straight after he was happy finally as they lay there just drinking in what just happened again
"42 hours left, should we order food?" she asked
"Up to you I don't want to eat food though" he moving towards her saying
"Hey that bull outside the door will be reporting everything that happens here, except in this bedroom, so we need to act as normal as possible for them"
"I'd eat maybe a sandwich and a coffee around now"
"Two sandwiches and coffees, what sandwich?"
"Whatever except egg"
She picked up the phone and ordered two bacon and cheese Sandwiches please and regular coffee with one sugar in both" she said adding her room number finding out how long before putting the phone down
"We've got twenty minutes" she said dragging him back to the bedroom 'Quickie' yeah?"
"Miguel style yeah?"
"Yeah, I wanna get addicted" she laughed
30 minutes later they left the bedroom thinking they needed to let room service in to get their food but when they went out the food was in the room already "Your guy has a card?" he asked
"He's not my guy I've never seen this one before"
"Oh" he said "I think someone's playing even more games with us"
"The jokes on them" she laughed "I feel like singing"
"You sing?"
"In my bathroom yeah"
"So we're having a bath then?" he laughed
"Yeah" she said throwing the last piece of sandwich in her mouth and getting up going towards the bedroom to jump in the on-suite bath he followed
They got undressed and in the bath him sitting against the bath with her settled between his legs with her back against his chest as he stroked her arm with his left hand and massaged her nipple with his right "You going to sing for me"
"I've never really sung in front of anyone before, it's really for my own entertainment" she said before turning her head to look at him, seeing disappointment "Okay just this once" she frowned "But don't laugh" the smile appearing back on his face, and moved his hand from her nipple to her belly button playing with the water against her skin, relaxing her
"I'm ready" he shuffling himself into yet another comfortable position saying
"Okay you asked for this remember?" started singing 'The Very Thought Of You' by Nancy Wilson looking up at him as she sung the first part
"That was the bomb Mercy you need to do something with that voice girl"
"I don't know about that, but I could definitely do something with my throat on that thing, it keeps shoving me poking in my back" she said making him laugh as he made himself jump again teasing her
"You're bullying me Sam stop it" she said playfully
"I guess we can get back to the talent conversation in a bit, right now I'm gonna be a 'Bedroom Bully'" he said stepping out of the tub drying himself off before taking her hand pulling her out and drying her off, taking her back to bed
"What? Busy Signal style, what you know about Busy?" she asked laughing as she followed him into the bedroom
"Let's find out shall we Bully the position" he told her laughing as they got on the bed
"38 hours and counting" she told him as they lay resting
"Stop counting babe just relax and enjoy the time I'm sure someone will let us know when its up"
"I love the sound of that" she giggling
"What?"
"Babe, when you say it, you really sound like you mean it"
"We need to have a talk" he said pulling her for a kiss on her forehead before jumping out the bed and pulling her up "Get dressed not much just something and meet me out there" he said nodding towards the lounge area as he pulled his trouser on and grabbed the phone to order underwear, get their clothes dry cleaned and order food, getting off the phone as she came out the bedroom
"What's so serious?" she asked sitting at the table opposite him
"I don't expect you to do anything about this but I'm putting it out there and I know the consequences if I offend you but here's where I am" he announced nervously rubbing the back of his neck "I fell in love with you back at that hotel five years ago I've spent the last five years fantasising on how life would be with a woman like you and now to find out that you belong to some drug lord kills me, but if I'm honest that doesn't even matter because I know what I want and it's you" he said looking at his hands before looking at her with his last few words
"Sam this is an impossible situation there is no way I will ever get away from Tank, and as impossible as I know that is I'm even more sure it's not even a thought in regards to you getting away from Rachel, well it's not her really it's Gino, so we can have these 48 hours and they've been amazing so far and believe me I'm memorising every moment every touch because they have to get me through the next however long with that bastard" she said looking at the table "I wish things had been different because to be honest I fell in love that night too with the sweetest person in the world, you're my king" she said touching his hand as it rest on the table
"And seriously you're my queen; so what are we saying, are we destined to live our horrible lives with people we have nothing in common with?"
"Well the other option is getting killed because I know that is the only way Tank would let me go" she said "We didn't mean for this to happen but my feelings are strong Sam I don't want to die but I want to be with you too, so how can this work?"
"Honestly, it can't because they'd kill me first then you and there's no way Gino is going to let me divorce Rachel, I know I started this but it's a thankless task trying to get it to work they'd both have to drop dead" he finished disheartened
"The way Tank's going on that crack he'll be there soon"
"I know Rachel doesn't even eat any more she just lives on snow she's so thin I don't even recognise her half the time"
"Drugs" they both said at the same time, looking at each other serious for a few seconds
"No we need to stop those thoughts, no relationship built on murder is worth having I don't want that for us" he said looking at her seriously "We get out free or not at all agreed?"
"What as opposed to secrets and lies?" she asked sarcastically
"Babe" he said sad he'd made her mad "I want to sleep with you and wake up in the morning can we do that?" he asked looking at her with sad eyes
"I'm pissed we're not killing those thugs, but I want to spend every second with you happy, so yes after we get our groove on"she smiled
"Of course" he said leaving the table "Sex in the kitchen" he said and she nodded a yes, they did everything R Kelly sings about and more before falling asleep wrapped up in each other on the couch.
When she woke up he was laying there staring at her sleeping "Stop it" she said burying her head in the cushion "I look crap first thing" she said jumping off the couch and heading to the bathroom, he jumped up and followed her
"I want you right now, and you chose the venue so it's fast 'Sex In The Bathroom' Craig David style" he said backing her up until she was almost in the shower he stretched past her and turned it on lifted her over the step, getting in with her. She was fit for bed again by the time he'd finished, mornings were definitely his time "You sleep I'll get breakfast and wake you up when it gets here" he said leaving an already sleeping Mercy in bed
He ordered breakfast for 40 minutes time and asked for a guitar to be sent up to help him relax making a joke that Mercy had finished with him saying he wasn't much good in a roundabout way. The guitar came within five minutes and as requested the food followed at exactly 40 minutes from the call, he went to the bedroom crawled quietly from the bottom of the bed and proceeded to wake her up. She opened up to him in her sleep, which pleased him as he buried his head between her legs and watched as her body woke up, reacting to his movement he wasn't sure at which point she actually woke up, but he knew at this point she was awake because of the noises eventually her body tensed, jerked a while and then relaxed and she let out a "damn"
"We're at Rocket then?" he laughed
"What?" she asked breathless
"Beyoncé's 'Rocket'"
"Why does everything have to be about music for you?"
"It's about memories"
"What do you mean?"
"It's the only way I'm going to get to remember you without them knowing, I put events to music so when I hear a tune randomly I think of you and what we were doing, everyone just thinks I like that music because it's so random"
"Okay" she laughed
"We've got 23 hours left" he looked up at her saying
"I thought you said stop counting, you're making me sad now"
"I want you sad because when you're sad you need to draw on this I'm calling it our tune" he said jumping up and fetching the guitar
"You play guitar?" she asked surprised
"Yep but I don't think even Rachel knows so hush hush" he whispered and started strumming
"For us yeah?" she smiled sitting up cross legged on the bed as he started playing and singing "Never Be Another You" by Lemar "We may never get us in this lifetime, but at least we know that an us existed her in this 48 hours and it is love"
"You're right it is love, your voice done all kinds of things to my body, I feel like 'I Just Had Sex' you should be the one on stage not me" she purred
"Akon yeah?" he laughed
"Is it?"
"Yep come on I got breakfast" he said pulling her out of bed naked, she went to grab a T-shirt but he stopped her "You're fine come on" he carried on pulling her to the dining table where they sat eating breakfast at 2 in the morning he struck up conversations and watched her body move as she spoke
She watched his mouth move as he talked and watched his hands go towards her several times but he stopped himself touching her, wondered what was going on for him "Sam how did you meet Rachel?" she asked and smiled at the flat reaction his face made as his mood changed from sex to frustration
"To be honest she was just one of the girls I was fooling around with at the time I was much younger then and, well I had game they told me, so one day the guys bet me I couldn't hit on her so I did. She got pregnant on that first hit and her Dad being who he is insisted I marry her so of course against my parent's wishes, I left Dallas; I had to, and I've sort of been on my own with this since, I long for home"
"You have a child?" she asked alarmed
"Well yes but no she had the baby, a girl but she was still born, maybe because of all the drugs she was on at the time, but I've never actually outright blamed her for it, I couldn't her Dad would kill me, and we've never tried again since, I ask God for forgiveness sometimes because I feel happy that happened, with the baby I mean, and I don't mean that in a bad way just we..." he lingered off looking for the words he needed to say to explain himself "If he can do this to Rachel, now me only God knows what use he'd have found for a grandchild you know?" he looked at her begging her to understand him, smiling when she touched his hand "I have to have protected sex with her whenever we do which isn't often, her Dad needs her fresh for deals. Yesterday was our 12 year anniversary and he was planning on giving her to your husband to close the deal I'm sure but I don't know what happened he decided to swap us"
"So you schedule sex with your wife?"
"No Gino schedules sex with my wife for me, she's too fired up for it most of those times it's just better to do without it's almost a chore to have sex with her now she's so wrecked all the time. If I'm honest I don't think I've ever made love to my wife is that sad, it is isn't it?" he sat asking himself more so than Mercy "So how did you and Tank meet?" he asked desperate to change the subject
"We weren't even in the same book let alone the same page, he's one of those guys that sees something and has to have it, he hooked my brothers on Crack so they became his yes men and then he proceeded to buy my Mom until she was so indebted to him the only thing she could say was yes and then he just took the prize right from under her nose and dropped her like a hot brick"
"What do you mean he doesn't look after your Mom?"
"Oh he looks after her alright, her house is a front for the trade, sorry did I say her house I meant his house that she now lives in I hear she's one of the women he visits on his weekly rounds to service. Once I heard he was even sleeping with my Mom, I just went right off him, I mean I wasn't really on him in the first place. He's got about 600 babies and about 400 baby Mom's scattered around that he can't control, or don't want to, so when they're ready they come up in my face talking about how I'm an old hag that can't give my husband babies. Why would I want to give him any more babies pray tell?" he could tell in her voice she was mad "He uses cover with me because I asked him to respect me that way, I always make sure I have them but he does have his time when the drugs take over and there's no telling what he will do next I just run for the hills so far" she said touching wood "he hasn't beat me yet"
"We're a sad pair yeah?"
"Well we're happy now aren't we?"
"More than happy right now I'm in love and that's way better than sex"
"Trey Songz" she laughed
"Who?"
"Sex Ain't Better Than Love' by Trey Songz keep up" she said still laughing
"Right now that's all we got so that's what's on my mind and I'm thinking we need to assume our favourite position" He said as he pulled her up and headed towards the bedroom "let's get some Pleasure P going on up in here" he said turning to her and wiggling his eyebrows making her laugh
"Lick Lick Lick" she said through her laugh "Sam Evans you are a hot mess"
"I'm your hot mess, forever" he said pulling her, kissing her as if his life depended on it "18 hours left babe" he said when her eyes opened "Time's running out and I really don't want this to end, can you call Tank and tell him you want extra time or get him to do another deal with Gino?"
"You in the habit of watching me ugly sleep babe?" she giggled "Although I'm loving waking up to your face and that hard dick every time, I love the way you want me, I want you too"
"You know we're it don't you? you know I love you don't you?" he asked his face serious
"You know I love you too right" she lifted her head up to kiss him on the cheek before jumping out of bed to freshen up "Back in a second don't lose that thought" within 2 minutes she was back "Hey I've thought of somewhere else"
"Let's hear it because I think we've done everywhere except maybe the balcony which is too small"
"Sex On the ceiling" she announced "Sevyn Streeter style" she said giggling looking up at the mirrored ceiling above the bed
"I've used that a few times already" he laughed
"I mean totally use it only see each other through the'Mirrors' you know Justin Timberlake style" she said "use it to see to remember and then every time you look in the mirror you'll smile"
"We're going all out with this music thing and in my heart I know I'll be thinking of you anyway music or not" he said laughing "Let's pick three songs, I choose Mirrors"
"We haven't done it yet" she replied
"You're standing there naked telling me to look at mirrors when I have this in front of me it's not going to happen in here but I'll definitely never look at a mirror the same way again after this conversation" he said laughing and grabbing for her but he missed
"Okay I choose maybe Rocket that was explosive and I just fucking loved waking up that way" she said letting him catch her on his second attempt, he pulled her to bed
"Mirrors is a private one, I need a public fix, I think I'll choose 'How Can You Mend A Broken Heart' by Al Green now that's coming from my soul" he said before finding the tune on his phone on repeat before adding "Now we have 18 hours left so stop talking" going in for a kiss and everything that went with it, as Al sung out
"That... was a session" she said waking up and tapping him to wake up "Babe it's 3am we only have 11 hours left" she said turning round to hug him
"Daniel de Bourg's 'Waking up with you' that's where I'm at right now babe" he replied with a smile on his face "it was wasn't it"
"What was?"
"That session was a session, thanks Al" he said lifting his head off the pillow to look at her "Are you not listening to what you're saying?"
"I am I just didn't think you were"
"I'm listening to you breathe let alone anything else" he said getting up to rest his head on the palm of his hand, turning sidewards to face her, looking down at her "I want to know everything about you, where do you shop?"
"Macy's mostly I go there every Thursday afternoon with Tank's girls"
"What the one's that he sleeps with?"
"No his two oldest girl children"
"You mean you look after the children too?"
"Stop saying it like that I feel like your judging me" she said upset
"No I'm not judging you I'm actually pissed at Tank for doing that to you, how fucking disrespectful" he told banging his feet down on the floor as he got out the bed
"Sorry Sam I didn't mean to get you mad I was just a little pissed at your tone sorry" she said springing up in the bed and pulling the sheet up to cover herself
It was that last sorry that made him turn round, the way she said it almost begging him to take it, "What's the matter?" he asked seeing the look of fear in her eyes. He jumped back on the bed, learning too late that this was a wrong move, as she dived back ducking the imaginary blow "Mercy what's the matter, I thought you said he didn't beat you" he asked hugging her, if he was angry before he was on the ceiling for real now
"He doesn't but he slaps me, a lot"
"That's beating babe the bastard hurt you and now I know this you expect me to do nothing about it don't you, don't ask that because I can't I have to deal with this, I need you to be safe"
"Sam I need you to swear on my life this stops here I don't want anything to happen to you ever I would die if anything happened to you" she said as he watched absolute panic set in, he was over thinking getting really angry and that was making her worse "Sam promise me" she shouted totally freaking out in front of his eyes
"I promise babe" he grabbed hold of her saying, she looked up at him
"What do you promise Sam?"
He rolled his eyes before answering "I won't do anything about this, or to put us in danger" he said still hugging her to his chest
"Your body says something different"
"That's because I'm still angry right now but it will calm down" he said as he lay back down she was still hugging him tight when they fell asleep again.
"Sam I don't know how we slept so long we only have 5 hours left wake up" she said he jumped up like he was being attacked
"What's up?" he shouted
"5 hours left babe" she said smiling at him making his eyes light up for seeing her "Let's have a bath" she said and pulled him out of bed and towards the bathroom as they relaxed in the bath she started the conversation "Sam" she said and waited for a response
"Yes Mercy" he said with a laugh in his voice
"What if, I mean what if they decide we're good at this and we have to be with other people"
"I'm gonna go and I'm gonna be praying like the devil it's you in that room"
"What if it's not?"
"Then she'll have some fucking work to do because I don't jump for any and every one" he said pushing her off him to get out the bath
"Sam don't be like that" she shouted after him before she heard the door bang
She sat thinking for about a minute before he re-entered the bathroom "And what are you going to do if you have to do this again?" he asked sitting on the toilet with his shorts on but his body still wet
"I'm going to protest as much as I can, then I'm going to pray it's you and then if it's not I'm going to moan about it and probably get him killed"
"You're into this killing thing aren't you?" he asked smiling
"I think I'm more into your hands all over me Mr Sam Evans" she said blowing some bubbles off the top of the bath watching them land on his feet, he pulled his wet pants down and stepped out of them
"Marques Houston" he said
"Too easy, we're already Naked" she got up saying and they went at it again for three hours
"No Sleep Babe we've only got 2 hours left we need to get dressed and wait for the cars I know Gino" he said waking her up from an exhausting 3 hour session.
"Just half an hour babe and then I'll get up I promise" she said through her sleep "I'm totally fucked" she said smiling at him with closed eyes "Sam don't shout at me but can we do this one thing, its okay if you want to say no but I just want to do something different with you to remember and because I love you" she said sitting up in the bed
"What?" he asked with a half-smile
"Can we...don't shout" she said looking at him "Can we do bare back just once and no getting off inside me just to feel you" she said looking down before looking back up at him to say "I really need to remember something, everything about you if this never happens again"
"I'd love to do that with you" he said going in to kiss her, pulling her in and taking her just as she'd asked before they went in the bath for a short while and got dressed holding hands and waiting for someone to arrive.
"Twenty minutes" she looked at her phone saying, her head down and shoulder shaking, she was sat in front of him crying
"You can't do this babe, if they know we're gone for sure, come wash your face" he told her taking her to the bathroom to freshen up before taking her back to the living room, he went and sat at the kitchen table 'Secret Lovers' by Atlantic Starr" he said laughing "That's the second song"
"Yeah" she called back still upset "Sam" she went running to the kitchen in a panic saying "Our third song "As We Lay' by Shirley Murdock I'll ask for it on the radio every morning at 10 star radio listen to it, I'm thinking of you" she said running to him to find he had tears in his eyes too "Babe" she said hugging him
"This is the hardest thing I'm ever going to have to do, we can't even exchange phone numbers or anything that's too obvious" he said "I don't know when but I'm going to get away and we will be together" he wiped his face saying
"Okay" she said
"Nancy Wilson if you hear that song just get out of there, I'll find you through our radio station in code yeah from Babe"
"The door!" she said hearing the handle move "Bye" giving him a kiss before going back to the living room to be met by Dino "Who are you"
"I'm Dino I've come for Sam" he said
"Sam your man's here" she shouted louder than she needed to in the direction of the kitchen "Tell Gino I like his style" she said very professionally, Sam wiped the lipstick off his mouth and came into the room
"Ready" Dino asked
"Yeah" he said grabbing his coat and following him out of the room glancing at her one last time but not noticeably long before he shut the door.
Mercy back home
"Sweetheart, the deals sealed then I hope you didn't enjoy yourself too much Gino said that Sam guy hadn't had any for some time" Tank laughed
"Would never have guessed that, he's so whipped with his wife she might as well have been in the room" Mercy replied "And that's the end of that conversation"
Life sort of went back to normal except she noticed, Tank was high more than low, when she'd witnessed him almost comatosed the previous night she asked the question "What are you using babe, it seems to keep you a lot longer than the usual stuff?"
"Gino's sweetener, its really good stuff I've cut most of it for the streets but the stuff I'm using is first class babe and, you know you're not getting into this so you'll have to take my word for it" Tank laughed that idiot laugh she hated
"I know"
"That wife of his is a proper bag head he needs to reign her in before something goes seriously wrong with her, she's nasty, she's offering unprotected sex now, nobody's taken that up yet I don't think, Gino would kill" he irritatingly laughed again "Anyway Sweet I'm glad you're back and thank you for doing that for me for us" Tank said
"I'm to bed I've got to get up for shopping with the girls tomorrow" she said walking towards the bedroom
"Fine for bed but its Wednesday Sweet not Thursday" he called after her. She, rolled her eyes, she knew that she just needed to be with her Sam thoughts for a while longer, she missed him already and God knows how she was going to sleep tonight and wake up in the morning without his arms around her, his dick waiting for her and his fucking eyes fucking her.
"I'll grab a shower anyway 2 days without all my stuff you know" she said trying hard to hide her cry. She went to her bathroom got in the bath and cried as she imagined Sam's hands all over her as she lay in the bath in his arms, that was all she had now, the memory.
Radio
Mercy lay in bed looking out the window "Morning Sam" she said to no one as she visited the bathroom brushed her teeth and went back to bed, stretching over the bed to the side cabinet to switch on the radio. She lay feeling the bed it was clear she'd imagined Sam being in it with her last night, she definitely looked like the cat that got the cream purring in her bed.
She picked up the house phone to call the radio station and thought better of it, she couldn't use her phone because Tank got the bills and everything was vetted "Why didn't we think of this" she said to herself jumping out of bed 'its fucking 9.50 and I have no phone' she thought quickly and called one of the girls she'd helped who had gotten themselves mixed up with Tank, she'd kept her contact number for no reason "Quinn, Can you talk" she asked
"Yes" she almost whispered
"Could you do me a big favour, I'd do it myself only I'm not in a position to do the search and everything, I want to do a dedication to Tank on Star radio anonymously. I don't know the station contact or anything and I don't want him to know it was me will you do it for me please?" she asked
"He won't like that" she warned him
"I know he's not the romantic kind but I want him to know I've got his back we still have trust issues you know since that thing with you and everything" Mercy expanded "it's got to be done for 10.00 so just call and request As we Lay by Shirley Murdock going out to the one I love, thanks Quinn"
"What you thanking that fucking Quinn for" Tank came in asking obviously in
"Oh she just called to check I was alright and I thanked her for calling" she lied as Tank jumped on the bed startling her
"So what's the plan for today?"
"Relax"
"I can do that" he said laying across the bed chilling "Oooh our Jam" he said jumping up and pulling her up as they heard the dedication 'Here's some Shirley Murdock going out as a special dedication to the one I love' pulling her up off the bed and into his arms to dance
'Just not what I envisaged' she thought and although her whole body wanted to pull away from him all she could do to stay safe was rest her head on his chest and imagine Sam breathing
Sam Back Home
"You're back, don't think that's going to be a regular occurrence it was a punishment for Rachel not that she gave a shit about your activities just that she wasn't the one getting the stick, if you know what I mean" Gino said laughing
Sam didn't reply he just waited to be dismissed. Gino took the phone up and called Tank to confirm that the deal was sealed which he did and then he nodded for Sam to leave the room via the door he was nodding at. He went to his room to get changed into his sweats and showered before going to his study his favourite place in the house, his dreams came true there. He sat thinking about the events over the past 2 days for a while before he finally decided to go to bed "Goodnight Mercy" he whispered with a smile on his face and at some point he fell asleep content with his lot.
He was woken up with hands over him and instinctively he rolled into it without opening his eyes "Dad doesn't need to know about his Sammy" he heard jerking him to reality just before he started feeling up on what he now realised was his wife
"Rachel has Gino authorised this?" he said thinking, what reason could he possibly give her for wanting to abide by the rules at this pint
"He won't know Sam, you've just spent 48 hours with the black bitch you can spend a night with your wife" she said he knew then she was angry Rachel 'so that was it she was jealous that I got dipped and it wasn't with her, well back at you bitch' he thought with a smirk
"Sorry Rachel I'm not about to start going against your Dad's wishes sorry" he said turning over and stepping out of bed back to the only place that could get him back to sleep at this hour his study as he imagined Mercy's hands all over him as he lay in bed next to her
Radio
The next morning Sam was up and in the shower before Rachel stirred "Did you come back to bed last night?" she asked through the locked shower door, to no answer before she banged on the door "I said did you come back to bed last night?"
"Yes" he lied as he dried himself off
"Did we have" she started as the door opened "Sorry did we have sex?"
"No I told you I'm doing nothing to get Gino's back up, I don't ever want to have to do that again" he said bringing a smile to her face he knew he'd given her the answer she wanted last night for one thing but for the other with that statement he wouldn't need to sleep with her to prove the point
"Move I need the bathroom" she said pushing him out the way
"I'll be in the study I have some calls to make about the extension" he lied as he quickly got dressed and went to his Study to turn on his radio to listen to Star Radio while pretending to read it was 9.50 and in ten minutes he'd get a message hopefully, at precisely 9.58 Rachel came walking into the Study
"What did you say you were hiding out in here for?"
"The extension" he replied getting agitated with her timing "Anything else" he asked before he could stop himself knowing that would only make her stay longer, sure enough she was still in the room when he heard 'Here's some Shirley Murdock going out as a special dedication to the one I love" the presenter said
"Oohh my Jam" Rachel said as she grabbed him up to dance
'This shit is not happening' he thought as she danced around with him like a fucking school girl, to his and Mercy's Jam, all he could do was dance instead of throwing her across the room violently like he wanted to.
Both eventually brought standard mobile phones just for those calls to make their usual dedication at the radio station, for the next two years that was their only form of contact