Hola! Shira here AGAIN! You know how I said I was going to do a rewrite of "Inside: Filia and Xellos"? Well, this is it! It's absolutely nothing the same as the original. None of the plot is the same, none of the ideas... the X/F concept is about the only thing the same, but I like this better than my original so far. This was inspired by an RP me and DS did. I was Xellos, and she was Filia, so I hafta give her a LOT of credit! About half, I think, for being Filia. If it weren't for her, a lot of this wouldn't have happened. Heck, none of this would have happened! So, thankies muchly to DS-chan for letting me write this ficcie!! I don't own Slayers, though I really really wish I did! We all know what I'd do if it were mine ^____^ Anyway, read on. No suggestions, please, I have it aaaaaalllll planned out. By the way, this part is sort of a preface to the actual ficcie, but it goes along really well! I wrote this on purpose!
*PREFACE*
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*LIFE*
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How do you define living? Is it just breathing and moving? Or is there something more to it? Should there be change? Life cannot be without death. It's a never-ending circle. You're born, you live your life, bring forth new life, and then die. That's the way the world went. That's what life was. But that was not the way of things for Xellos Metallium. He was alive, in a sense. He was created by the Greater Beast Zelas Metallium. He was not born. He never changed, never died. He never lived. He existed, true, but in a way apart from others. He was immortal, never changing, always there. He went on endlessly for eternity, doing foul deeds for Zelas. His purpose in life was to serve her. He got nearly everything he could need: eternal life, a high-ranking position in the mazoku hierarchy... But he could never bring new life into the world, nor could he leave the world. His greatest wish, to die, could never be granted. He was tired of "living" and wanted his time on Earth to end. But it never would. And year after year, century after century, he'd just go on existing, doing whatever little deeds Zelas had planned for him. Thus it was for over one thousand years. Then Zelas ordered him to follow Lina Inverse. Xellos assumed it was just another job, but he soon found much more than that. He finally had a reason to go on existing, so he could see how Lina-tachi ended up. After about two years of following Lina, he met Filia Ul Copt, golden dragon priestess. She constantly argued with him, teased him, and tormented him as he traveled with Lina-tachi, and he did the same to her, but there was something about her that drew him to her. Then, about a year ago, she had revoked her priestesshood after destroying Darkstar, and took up residence in a small vase and mace shop she owned. Still, Xellos visited her frequently, sometimes to tease, but mostly just to see her. Visiting her was something he could do with his time while he existed. But, still, that dream of wanting to die, and finally ending everything, never went away. The few times that he'd successfully killed himself, he had just wandered around in a pitch black space until Zelas resurrected him. He felt he couldn't keep on "living" that way, but he had no choice. His existence would never end. He'd spend the rest of eternity in service to Greater Beast Zelas Metallium, the Beastmaster. To Xellos, it was Ju-ou-sama.
Oh, in case I forgot to mention, this fic is going to have a lot of angst and some really in-depth stuff... just in case you couldn't tell by this lil preface doohickey.