Pipes,
I remember the first time we meet. We just clicked in a way that i have never with anyone before. Our friendships grow and become exceptional. This was exciting yet terrifying at the same time, because things changed i don't know when or how. Still, despite us knowing it was wrong we still let ourselves fall and this scared me. That i think is why i allowed myself to push you away. Instead of fighting for us.
We have both done some stupid things recently and for my part i am so sorry. Jealousy is a toxic emotion and it made me do some crazy things. It is because every time i close my eyes i see you with Angus and it just breaks me down inside. It's killing me a little more each day. I know this is my fault for pushing you away.
I'd like to be able to say that time with you is enough for now but i don't know how long i can stick around and be just a friend. I spend all my time admiring you. I lie awake yearning to be with you. There is no hope of escape even in my dreams i can feel your warm touch as you whisper in my ear. This just confirms that my love for you was and is real and it is pure torture that i cannot bear, to be near you and see you but not hold you.
In life love is never planned as we know! However it does happen for a reason. I feel we are connected not only physically but emotionally to and it is time to take a chance of a lifetime and be with my soulmate. We need to cherish every moment and fight for our love. I want to be with heart, body and soul. I am ready to fight for our love are you?
Yours
Ty