Bridge to Nowhere, Stand Back and Marvel
Summary: Set after Episode 313: "The Wind That Blew My Heart Away". Peyton had confessed to her mother Ellie her deep regret in letting her first love, Lucas go. After discovering her secret, Brooke finds in increasingly difficult to not feel guilty since her and Lucas are together. Drastic events lead to drastic mistakes as Brooke breaks up with Lucas although she knows she loves him more than anything. Will they be able to find their way back to each other?
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Brooke Davis sat on her best friend, Peyton's Sawyer's bed leaning against the wooden headboard resting her trigonometry textbook on her bent legs – using the long legs guys lusted for as an platform to read.
But reading was the one thing she couldn't do as she watched her best friend sitting at her desk drawing as a way of mourning for the recent lost of her birthmother. The room was filled with silence, no music played blasted from the radio.
Something which barely ever happened.
Unable to concentrate on her studies, Brooke tapped the end of her pencil on her textbook. She opened her mouth to speak but decided to not say anything for she wasn't sure if she was to break the silence. Maybe the silence was good.
Biting her lip, she finally released it and broke the stillness. "Pey, do you need anything? Chocolate? I could go back to my apartment and grab some Ben and Jerry's" She was desperate to have her golden haired friend speak; she didn't want her to think she was alone.
"No." Peyton offered a weak smile and brought her eyes back down to her drawings.
"You know you can talk to me right? Always." It was true; Brooke would always put her friends first.
Peyton gave a nod and again, returned to her drawings. Setting her textbook beside her, Brooke moved towards the end of the bed towards Peyton. Sitting at the edge of the bed, she reached out a supporting hand for her best friend to take.
"It's gonna be okay, I promise you that." Peyton took her best friend's hand and smiled. She was truly grateful for the support but it seemed as if there was so much piling on her shoulder's it was too hard to continuously say 'I'm okay'.
Tears began to stream rapidly down Peyton's cheeks as soon as she took her best friend's hand.
"Hey, talk to me. I'm here, you know that right?" Pulling her golden haired next to her. She put her arms around Peyton, letting her cry into her shoulder.
"I just, I can't take it anymore. There's so much piling up…" She let herself unravel; it had been weeks since she had found her mother dead and weeks since she let herself cry.
"It's okay." Assuring her best friend she could cry and look towards her for comfort, Brooke continued to hold Peyton letting her mourn.
"No, it's not going to be okay. Ellie…she- I shouldn't have let her walk out of the house. I should have brought her to the hospital. She had been talking about death, I should've known." Peyton said as she left Brooke's embrace. She stood up, running her hand through her golden blonde hair to keep them from her tears.
"Pey, you can't blame yourself for this." Brooke looked up at her friend; unsure of how to make her know Ellie's death was nobody's fault.
"But I do…maybe, maybe everything that's happened in my life is my fault." Peyton sniffed and fiercely wiped falling tears with the sleeve of her shirt. "I let my dad leave every year for his job even though I hate it, I let Ellie die, I let Lucas go."
Brooke's eyes quickly shot up at Peyton's. Had she just said she regretted not being with him? Had she just admitted her feelings towards him?
"Oh, no Brooke I didn't mean that...I-" Peyton scrambled for words to cover up her mistake. But she couldn't. She said it…it was finally out.
She still loved Lucas with feelings she never buried.
"Ummm..I.." Brooke's eyes gazed downward with feelings of confusion causing her to feel dizzy. Was this happening again?
Was history going to repeat itself?
"Brooke, it just came out. It was stupid and I didn't even mean it, it doesn-" Peyton wasn't even able to continue her sentence since she was cut off.
"Are you in love with him?" Her voice was soft, calm- nothing like Peyton would have imagined.
Peyton looked at Brooke and didn't answer. She closed her eyes and cringed, ready for her best friend to explode at her.
But she received something she never in the world would have expected. An embrace.
"It's gonna be okay," Brooke whispered as she held her best friend in a tight squeeze. "I gotta go but call me if you need anything ok?" She offered the blonde a tight smile and touched her arm before heading out the door,
"Brooke, wait," The brunette turned to face the blonde and it was clear to Peyton that tears were beginning to form.
"Don't worry about it." And with that, she left with a small wave. Peyton stayed where she was. Was Brooke honestly okay with what she had just said or was it tearing her up inside?
Peyton walked towards her bed and sat at the edge as tears streamed down like a waterfall. Everything wasn't going right, everything was falling apart.
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Brooke Davis walked down the familiar sidewalks of Tree Hill towards her and Haley's apartment. The wind blew her chocolate brown hair and sent shivers down her body. Rubbing her hands against her arms, she tried to find warmth.
Questions made hurricanes whirl through her mind, questions she wanted to forget.
But that wouldn't ever happen.
Had her best friend just admitted she loved her boyfriend? Would history repeat itself? Brooke retraced the past events which had shattered her hearts two years ago. Her best friend, the sister she never had, and the only boy she had ever let herself fall in love with had went behind her back to be with each other.
Her heart had shattered for the first time from their betrayal. She never even knew how she ended up piecing it back together.
But she found a way to do so, forgiving both although it was one of the hardest things she could ever do. She couldn't live without them, she knew it. They were her Peyton, her Lucas.
Lucas.
The blonde haired boy who had eyes she could lose herself in. The boy who could make her feel as if she was the only one he could ever contemplate being with.
She had finally admitted wanting to be with him after the betrayal. After mistakes, dramatic confrontations, and rainy nights, they had found each other again, found forgiveness in each other, found love again.
It had been 3 weeks and two days since the two had really made love. After finding trust in each other in a rain poured argument, they proved to each other how much they meant to each other. When they were together, she felt something she had never felt with anyone- she was deeply in love.
But could that break in a snap of a finger?
Sure she trusted Lucas and Peyton to never betray her but she questioned whether she should be in a relationship with him. Her best friend was hurting from all that was occurring in her life.
Was it fair to her if she was happy?
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Brooke reached her hand into her tan colored Coach bag searching for her keys to enter her apartment. When she finally retrieved it, she opened the door hoping to see her roommate, Haley.
But no, to her dismay no one was home. The rooms were empty.
She needed her now. Haley James Scott had through the beginning of senior year, become one of her safety nets. She was there for her when she needed her. Haley was her support. She began as just Lucas's best friend and soon became her best friend.
But she wasn't home. She never was these days. Haley was always off with her husband Nathan trying to find their way back to each other. Sure Brooke was happy for them, but sometimes she just needed Haley to talk to.
Brooke let herself fall onto her bed. It smelled of Lucas and she loved that.
A tear fell from her beautiful green eyes as she knew what she was supposed to do.
Brooke shot up from her bed when she heard the front door open and close.
"Haley, thank god you're here. I really need to talk t-"She hadn't even finished her sentence since when she walked outside she was face to face with her piercing blue eyed boyfriend.
"Sorry, it's just me." Lucas said as he kissed Brooke's cheek. God he loved her. Brooke offered Lucas a tight smile.
"So I brought fried rice and I wasn't sure if you wanted cookie dough or double chocolate chip ice cream so I just got both." He said as he set the food down on the kitchen counter. He saw his girlfriend's melancholy state when she hadn't responded at the mention of her two favorite ice cream flavors.
"Hey, is anything up? You don't look so good." He reached out an arm to touch her but once it landed, she stood up not letting him in.
"Umm..maybe we should talk." She began to fidget as she chipped nail polish off her nails.
Lucas walked over to her and took her petite into his hands. She looked up at him and he found she had tears in her eyes. Lucas looked at the brunette questionably. What had her feeling this way?
"You know Peyton…I um visited her today and-"
"Did something happen?" interrupted Lucas.
"Just let me finish ok?" Brooke looked up at her boyfriend's eyes and began to lose herself. She shook it off and forced herself to not look into him for she was afraid she wouldn't be able to finish.
"Well…with Ellie not here, she's really alone and I want to be there for her,"
"And I love you for that."
"But you see, she's been losing a lot of people lately. Her mom, her dad's never here, Jake, and now Ellie and I can't get them back but there's one person who I can."
"Who?"
"You." It was simple as that.
Another tear slid down Brooke's flawless face.
"What do you mean?" Lucas was baffled at what Brooke was saying. What had she meant by that?
"She still loves you Luke and I think it's be best if you went to her." Brooke saw as Lucas stepped back and looked at her in confusion with hints of frustration.
"But I don't want her, I want you. Don't you get that?" He had thought he had made it clear that rainy day that he had no feelings whatsoever for Peyton.
"I know…but she needs someone."
"And I can be there as a friend." His response was calm but it still had hints of anger.
"No…you don't get it. Peyton needs me but I can never be that person you were when you two were together and she needs that now."
"This is stupid Brooke and you know it. I think you just want to end us and you're looking at that as an excuse." Lucas was beginning to yell, it was as if she would never want to be with him.
"She needs you." Her voice began to rise.
"But I need you." Lucas's voice softened.
"Luke, don't make this any harder than it already is." Her heart was breaking. She just wanted to forget all this.
"I love you Brooke, don't you understand that?" Lucas stared deep into Brooke's eyes, refusing to look away.
The brunette stood on her tip toes and kissed him softly on his cheek before pulling away.
"This is bullshit Brooke." His anger level raised and he walked away, slamming the door behind him.
She turned around and stared at the closed door. Half of her wanted to run after him and just tell him it was a joke.
But she knew this was the right thing to do.
This was what she had to do.
AN: So tell me if you like it or not by clicking the review button. I worked pretty hard on this story and I'm not sure if it's good or not. And about Wishful Things, I will update- I promise you that. Things are getting hectic with all this school work and it's hard to find time to yourself. READ AND REVIEW! MUCH LOVE.