October 13

Why must I always kill? I curse my fate. I am an abomination. Vampires should not be allowed to live in this world.

Oh my dear Eliade, how can you even love a monster like me? If it wasn't for you, I would have wasted away locked up in this castle by myself forever.

October 14

I did it again... but why must I? The man was only on a walk through the woods. I could have stayed away, but the smell of his blood just called to me.

Eliade, why would you help me cover up this heinous crime? I should be imprisoned or put to death. I shouldn't be allowed to live.

October 15

Today Eliade, you brought me news from the village. Oh why am I so scared? I should make my way down and let them take me. I am oh so hungry but I dare not go outside. What if someone else makes their way into my grasp.

I can't seem to control this overwhelming desire for blood. When you let me drink from you, I am always afraid that I will go too far. And you are way to precious for me to lose.

October 16

Oh my sweet Eliade, I am so sorry. I wish I could have died right along with you. Allen and Lavi have tried to console me. They explained what I really am. My grandfather always told me I was a vampire. And I guess that isn't too far from the truth.

But my dear sweet Eliade, why did you have to be and akuma?And why did I have to have a piece of innocence?

October 17

Eliade? Do you hate me? I miss you every second of every day. Traveling with Lavi and Allen is interesting. They have told me that I am what they call an anti-akuma weapon. They are taking me to a place that will help me fit it.

October 18

We arrived at the Black Order today Eliade. Once they let me inside the building, I met some amazing people. But I wouldn't give to b back in the castle with you.

October 19

Eliade, do you hate me? I know I asked before but I worry. How I long to hear your sweet voice or gaze into your beautiful eyes. How I wish I had never met you. Then you would still be alive.

October 20

Today I received my first mission with the Order. I know I will be forced to fight more akuma. As much as I don't want to hurt anyone, I want to save innocent people from getting hurt.

October 21

Eliade, I don't know how to do this without you. I need you by my side. Please come back to me.

October 22

I miss you, my dear Eliade.

October 23

Oh, Eliade...

October 24

Eliade my sweet..

October 25

Goodbye, Eliade my love. Goodbye.