Disclaimer: Despite all if my hard work, I still don't own Teen Titans.

Explanation: If anyone has ever seen Trouble in Tokyo, the Teen Titans "movie" than you'll know that Starfire and Robin kiss at the end. This story is supposed to be how Raven felt about it, and I'm thinking about writing a more chapters with Robin and Raven's (hopefully) happy ending. Raven is way out of character, sorry.

Raven sighed, unable to sleep. It was utterly pointless trying, there was too much too think about, too many troubling occurrences. Robin and Starfire were now "officially" together, (1) and there was absolutely no hope for her. She had revealed she was demon spawn, (2) and look where that got her. Now she was surely an undesirable, Robin- face it anyone- would take the alien over a half demon. Even though she was the one who had started the team with him, the one who had been with him and followed him from the beginning. Raven had always followed his orders- except when he was crazy and thought Slade was back. Even though she was the one who had "married" him in their practical joke on the reporters who would not leave the' tower alone. (3) Raven understood Robin like no one else, and she thought he had understood her. She was the one who had been in his mind, (4) the one who had a mental bond (5) with him. Raven understood Robin's serious nature. She knew that sometimes he needed to be left alone, that he did not always want to have fun. Starfire was too silly, too nice for her own good, sweet like syrup, she was rather adorable, just... Raven had thought she was not well suited for Robin. They had understood each other like no one else, but Raven hadn't tried for a relationship. She had been too slow, too distant, too uncaring. She had tried to remain aloof and unattached, so she wouldn't be hurt, and now it hurt even more. Raven had worried that her emotions would go out of control, and currently she was more likely to loose control than ever. She would never know what could have been, never know if had returned her feelings in the slightest bit. She had thought he had, they had had long, quiet talks, they got along well, he had gone to hell and back to save her. He had obviously cared, but she hadn't expressed any interest, and he had found someone else. Raven had lost him, and it was all her fault. She could never have him now, even if he and Starfire broke up, dating her best friends ex-boyfriend would always feel wrong. However, Starfire was too good of a friend, too sweet, too naïve to be mad at. No, the only person Raven had to be mad at was herself. "I suppose Robin deserves some sunshine in his bitter cold life." she thought She sighed, and eventually fell into a fitful sleep, full of Robin telling her he had always hated her.

When she came downstairs for breakfast Starfire was making eyes at Robin from across the table, and it required extreme concentration for Raven to prevent her powers to cause something to explode.

"Don't loose it!" she muttered, "It's too obvious, and it would be sad if he finds out, because he evidently isn't interested."

"Hey Rae," said Robin finally, looking up from Starfires 'beautiful emerald eyes' "You're up much later than usual."

Raven bit back all her scathing replies, and simply nodded, saying, "I had a little trouble sleeping."

"We'll Friend Raven, I hope your lack of sleep does not ruin this glorious morning!"said Starfire, happy and excited as usual.

"I'll be fine, Starfire." Raven. "I'll be my usual sarcastic, creepy, demon self, all day long." she finished in her head. "I'll be on the roof, meditating." she shot behind her as she left with her tea. No one seemed to care.

After Raven had been meditating for about thirty minutes Robin came onto the roof, trying to be quiet, though he knew she could sense the presences of others. "What?" she asked, and she noticed with satisfaction that he had jumped, surprised she had noticed him.

"I wanted to know if you'd like to talk about your nightmares."

"Why do you think I had nightmares?" Raven asked.

"You usually don't sleep very well." Robin said matter-of-factly, "It usually takes a horrible nightmare for you to even admit you didn't sleep beautifully."

Raven was surprised he knew her so well. "He's a detective." she told herself, "He observes." Still, Raven was happy he knew this much, which was way, way more than anyone else knew, or even bothered to know.

"Well..." Raven started, grasping for something that didn't make her feelings obvious, "I dreamed that everyone on the team told me that I was an evil, horrible demon, and that I didn't deserve their trust." This was half true, after all she had dreamed that Robin had said that, all the while kissing Starfire.

"Raë, that's horrible, we would never, ever say that!" Robin exclaimed. "We all love you, we're your family!" Raven blushed, thinking about the time when she had revealed how she felt about her teammates.

"I know that," Raven said, "But that doesn't mean I want it to happen, people to joke about it, or to even think about it."

"It's okay." Robin said, "I understand, the team turning on me is one of my biggest fears, it's a pretty scary thought."

"It's even scarier when you're partially a demon, and in the back of most people's minds there's the little voice that tells them you're untrustworthy." Raven told him, voicing her insecurities.

Robin glanced at her, "You haven't gone all crazy over stopping a villain." he said, thinking about the time(s) he'd been obsessed over stopping Slade. (6)

"That's because I never had a reason to," Raven said, "That was always your job."

"True, true," Robin agreed, "But have you put on a mask, pretended to be a villain, then lied about it to your team." (7)

"No," confessed Raven, "But I bet you never were stupid enough to think you fell in love with a dragon, and let him loose on the world." (8)

"Raven," said Robin, "If you ever have a brief case stolen from you, only to have to win a race to get it back..." (9)

"If you ever decide not to tell your friends that you are a portal for a demon lord..." (10)

"When you start hallucinating that a villain is back, even though you know he's dead." (11)

"Robin, you've got no control over what nasty chemicals villains decide to keep in their masks, and, Slade turned out to be not dead anyways."

"Well, you have no control over your parents!"

"Now we're just arguing over who is a worse person." Raven pointed out.

"Yeah, well, the point is, you're not the terrible person you seem to think you are."

"I know..." Raven trailed off, and they sat together in silence for a while. Just then Starfire yelled that she was going to the 'moving pictures' and Robin just had to come.

"Coming!" Robin shouted, before turning back to Raven, "Just so you know, Raven, I'm always here for you." He then walked away.

"No Robin," Raven whispered after left, "You aren't here anymore."

I'm thinking about continuing this story, instead of keeping it a one-shot. Also, I might write an explanation for Robin's actions. If you want more TELL ME.

Just a few notes (from above):

1. In one issue of the comic book (#26?) Larry (Robin from dimension 8 and 3/4) yells that Robin and Starfire are officially together.

2. Raven's father is the demon, Trigon.

3. This is something I got from a different fan fiction I read, I don't remember the title or author, but basically, sick of the reporters, Robin and Raven pretend to be married by Cyborg, but instead of saying "you may kiss the bride" he said "you may take revenge on the stupid reporters who have been bugging you all week"

4. In the episode Haunted a chemical is released from the Slade mask Robin keeps in the basement, causing Robin to believe that Slade has come back, he does a fair amount of damage to himself before realizing it's fake. To try and help Robin regain his sanity, Raven performs a mind-meld, goes into Robin's mind, and nudges Robin towards understanding that Slade wasn't there.

5. It's later explained that the mind-meld Raven performed in the episode Haunted resulted in a permanent bond.

6. In the first season Robin goes near-insane over stopping Slade.

7, As part of his obsession for figuring out Slade, Robin creates a villain persona for himself known as Red-X. See the episode titled Masks.

8. In the episode Spellbound, Raven falls in love with a dragon named Malchior, who has been trapped in a book. He tell her that he was a human hero and wizard, and she eventually performs a spell to set him free, revealing his true form/nature.

9. In one episode Robin has a briefcase stolen from him with a 'secret' inside. The result is a race to win the case back. I regretfully don't remember the title to the episode. It wasn't very memorable.

10. As stated above, Raven's father is the demon lord, Trigon She also hid this piece of information from her teammates for an approximate two years.

11. See number 4