(Note: This is based on the song "Hear me now" by Framing Hanley and it can be found on deviantart as well. It is a sonadow fan fic and yes it is done from Shadow's point of view...I know he goes ooc but for story this is based on he is IC.
gallery/#/d57f4sd - this story on deviantart)
~Well, I swear that's you and god, we've been down this road before
That the guilts no good and it only shames us more
And the truths that we all tried to hide
Are so much clear when it's not our lives, we don't face the blame~
I wake up to the sun light breaking through the window. The light hurts so much like a reminder from god that I've dragged one of his angels down to my level. It's times like this that the shame of my actions makes me want to end my life so that you'll be free of me. I hate myself for forcing my sin on to you. I can't be here when you wake up...is what I tell myself as I get up and leave your bed. I ran as far as I can from you and that bed. Only when I'm fare from you do my legs fail start to fail me. I sit down on a park bench and watch as lovers walk past. They look so happy...I envy them.
~Won't you, get on your knees
Believe, have faith
In this lie with us all~
I return to my home and close the door behind me only to fall back into the metal door and slid down the door to the floor below. I most be the devil to have tainted something so pure. I try to stand only to fall to my knees and my body feels like it's breaking. Damn it! why can't my body believe me when I say I don't need you at my side? I will not show weakness I will not run to you. I must not. It is the only way you'll ever be free of me.
~Now, my body's on the floor
And I am calling
Well, I'm calling out to you~
I lay on my sofa with my arm laying over my eyes. I don't want to see because all I see is you. I just want to stop breathing. The feeling of my body screaming for your touch only makes me hate what I've become that much more, but at the same time it only makes me want you more. I'm can hear myself saying your name as my body starts to feel the same heat as it did the night before.
~Can you hear me now?~
I have to get up wan open ever window. I'm sure you can hear me calling. Please to save us both stay away form me. Let my body break. I promise I'll control myself just people don't touch me don't see you or I'll only need you more.
~Well, it's not a rebellion when you're selling out
To another fashion salesman
Our promising lives are full of empty promises
Temptation's falling and calling you home again
Well, I'm sorry if we've let you down~
I hear my door open and my body starts to scream for me to give into it's will. I have to fight it because I know you would never turn me away. I can feel you come closer. Please don't touch me please? I want to bag you to stay away to let me keep my promise but I can't speak. I feel your arms wrap around me and I feel the same temptation that I felt the night before. I fight it as best I can but your lips on my neck and your hands running over my body are slowly wearing me down. Why are you both my angel and the devil brings me this temptation every night? I'm so sorry by in your arms I'm weak and I'll repeat my sinful act from last night again tonight.
~Won't you, get on your knees
Believe, have faith
In this lie with us all~
I'll fall to my knees in fount of you tonight and make you call my name to god. I'm slowly starting to believe that the only think I can have faith in is that I'll be the one to drag you into this sin with me, but please in the morning lie to me, leave me, say you hate me...because I'm afraid of what will happen if you don't turn me away.
~Now, my body's on the floor
And I am calling
Well, I'm calling out to you
Oh, can you hear me now?~