DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN GUNDAM SEED DESTINY =D
Please R&R! Thanks! I plan to turn this into a multi-chap and I hope you wait for Chapter 2!
~ Before: kairin11seiran Now: KairinKagari
The blonde princess of the ORB Union finds herself sadly looking at a pink handheld device that was given to her by a certain person. She carefully flipped the gadget and browsed its contents by tapping certain combinations of buttons. She sat down on her bed, her legs crossed. The princess took a glance at the picture gallery of the said device. She saw various pictures of a young girl, a young boy and their parents. She sighed deeply as her mind thought about the owner of the device. She saw the smiles of the four people who were mostly the ones contained in the pictures. She decided to look at the other folders in the device and opened them one by one. She first opened the 'Email' folder. She scanned and saw that most of the messages were from either the parents or from the older brother of the original owner of the pink device. It was mostly random message, like what time she's coming home from school, or if the older brother can buy her a slice of her favorite cake.
The young Lioness checked the other folders, which was to her dismay, empty. That was until she clicked on a certain folder with the label, 'Voice Recorder'. Her eyes widen as she listened to the oldest recording that was dated, October 2 CE 73.
"The date is October 2, Cosmic Era 73... I have decided to record my very first voice recording for a certain someone. I have lost my phone during the war, also the same time I lost my parents and my sister. I admit that all this time, I have been rough on you and that I can't accept the fact that I didn't understand anything at all. I was selfish, not trying to think about the things you've experienced. I was an idiot for shouting at you like that. I was angry but deep inside I felt like I have sinned to myself as well. I walked past the room you were currently using while you stayed at the Minerva. It felt like earth was thrown at me because I heard you talking to your bodyguard and that you were sobbing real head. I've decided to keep my act of 'hating' you because I've already showed my friends my rage and I didn't want them to think that it was all an act. I have admired you ever since, and I wish that I didn't have to do that to you. I was such an idiot... Oops, I hear Rey's footsteps... I better go, over and out."
Cagalli heard the recording cut off after the last statement and by that time, she didn't realize that there were tears flowing through her cheeks. Her index and middle finger touched where the tears trailed off and then wiped her eyes with the back of her right hand. She continued to listen to the remaining 4 recordings. She played the next oldest that was dated weeks after the oldest one.
"It's been a few weeks since I last recorded. Not that it's a routine or anything, but I want to do this because nobody knew who the real Shinn Asuka was. So, around this time, the Minerva has left ORB long ago. We heard that you signed a treaty with the Earth Alliance Forces. You came to the Minerva before we left and talked with Captain Gladys. I know I was rough on you yet again, and I'm really sorry. As I've said, I will continue with my act. We were attacked by ORB and the EAF. If I didn't have the resolve to protect my friends, we would've died. I was disappointed with you. I was... sad... I was thinking if I'll still continue my act or to just make the anger real. The most recent happening was Athrun Zala being assigned to the Minerva and a FAITH member at that. Who would imagine that the bastard would just appear and be my superior? I know you're probably mad at me for saying stuff against your bodyguard..."
The Princess laughed softly at Shinn's words.
"...but I never liked him that much. Oh, I almost forgot! Before that, we heard that you were getting married to a... Yuna Roma Seiran? I was devastated to hear that but who am I to act all rash when I know that you and Athrun had... something? Anyways, he's in ZAFT again so I guess something happened? He did show strong attachment to the whole crew of the Archangel and trust me; it was hard on our part. That idiot goes on and on about how 'Kira and Cagalli wouldn't do such a thing'. Bah! I hate it when he does that. Oh, sorry for ranting... We're currently docked at Carpentaria and we're re-supplying. After that, we fought the Chaos, Abyss and Gaia... I saved the slaves from a nearby base from those evil Naturals. Yoohoo!"
The voice cleared his throat as the blonde laughed once again, now, more lively.
"Oh, it slipped my mind that you're a natural... I didn't mean to say that all of the naturals are evil... Well, you get my point... Oh yeah, Athrun Zala slapped me... I just... ought to inform you..."
A soft laugh was heard from the recording and the sound of him scratching his head could be heard. The Lioness giggled at Shinn's sudden action.
"He thought that what I did was wrong... I just back talked him and said that I did what I thought was right... Uh oh... Athrun's here... Better get going!"
Again, the sound that signaled the end of the recording was heard. Cagalli moved on to the next recording that was dated a few days after the second recording.
"Hey! This is my third recording so far... I don't have the time to record every other day because we're all busy. First, we did a mission regarding a positron cannon thing... I saved more people and got another beating from Athrun. Damn that Zala! Sorry for ranting again... So, we reached Diocuia, and there we met Chairman Durandal. Captain Gladys, Rey, Athrun, Luna and I were invited to a meal and we talked about certain matters about the concept of wars. Athrun said that there was a person who told him that if we keep on killing each other, then how can we have peace or something like that...? I don't remember the exact words. I want to meet that person who told him that and I want to personally thank him or her for knocking some sense to Athrun. I doubt it was effective though..."
A carefree laugh echoed through the room of the Chief Representative as the laugh of the owner of the voice made her laugh.
"...because he's still an idiot... A night after that, I met an Natural named Stella Loussier. I just saved her from drowning and pretty much stayed inside a cave because our clothes were wet and we had to stay put for a while. I felt so helpless because she was so afraid of dying. It was like imagining that I killed her parents and that she grew up with a trauma that she might be next. After a while, our respective groups found us and we were finally back. She was back with her brothers and I was back at the Minerva. Then... I... No, we... We fought you and the Archangel at Dardanelles... That Athrun said that I really loved ORB and I denied that fact after I went out to sortie. It was the time when we believed that your intervention caused confusion to the battlefield. It's true that I charged at you but inside, I was amazed... You were out there with the Strike Rouge, the mobile suit that belongs to no one but you... You had the guts to go out there, even though you were not sure whether they'll listen to you or not. Nonetheless, I did what I was ordered to and tried to finish all of you there... "
Cagalli had to pause the recording because she heard a knock on her door. She opened the door, literally dragging her tired body and was met by a brown haired guy who she knew and loved very much. It was her twin brother, Kira Yamato. It turns out that he was checking up on her and he hugged his sister before bidding her good night. The princess yawned and waved at Kira, her eyes dropping and was on the verge of falling asleep while standing up. She closed the door, threw herself on her bed and slapped her face with both hands lightly, just enough to wake her up. She continued to listen to the recording.
"... That last minute attack on the Tannhauser really surprised me... Oh, sorry for spouting nonsense... Well, it did cause us confusion and as a result, a FAITH member died, the Gaia slicing through his GOUF. The Gaia was originally trying to hit the Freedom because the pilot was taking on all of us! Yeah, it was aggravating but I guess he just wanted both sides to stop... and you guys decided to back off and leave. I lashed out to my teammates, complaining to them about why ORB has decided to intervene. I guess, you just wanted to stop all the fighting, right? Oh... I feel that Athrun's about to open the door... better go, until the next recording, bye!"
Cagalli was reminded by that incident in Dardanelles. Indeed, an orange GOUF was sliced into half by the Gaia and it made the princess tear up. She knew very well that there were ORB soldiers fighting, ordered by ORB leader at that time, Yuna Roma Seiran. She wiped her tears with her hands and clicked on the fourth recording.
"This recording is a bit weird in my opinion compared to the last recording... and it will be short. It's already 3 in the morning and I have to wake up early so I'll just tell you right now what I want to say. We found a lab at Lodonia and learned about the Alliance's Extendeds. I was thinking that maybe Stella was an Extended, seeing as how she charged at us when we infiltrated the facility. I beat her and took her to the Minerva. I was starting to have feelings for her and I didn't realize that I might choose her over you. After a while, we fought against you again and as much as I want to destroy you, I can't get myself to do it. It felt so wrong to hurt you and I didn't want that. I heard a bit of Kira and Athrun's conversation and even though I was really angry and destroyed the Takemikazuchi, I still remember the exchange of words. It was about how you kept on crying because you didn't want it to happen, and that Athrun didn't understand that what he tried to destroy was what you tried to protect. A stab on the chest... It's so painful to think how much pain and suffering we have caused you... Anyway, I'm feeling really sleepy. I'll just go ahead, okay? Good Night."
The sound of the recording ended and once again, Cagalli was brought to tears. This time, however, she was crying real hard that she had to cover her face with both hands and began sobbing. She took a small towel from her dresser and wiped her face that was wet with tears. She slowly opened the door of her room, careful not to wake up her servants as she needed a drink of water. She tiptoed her way to the kitchen and saw a person sleeping, his head being supported by his arms that were placed on the dining table. She patted the back of his head and smiled, no one seeing her gesture. He stirred in his sleep and shrugged the feeling off unconsciously. She took a glass from the kitchen and filled it with water and soon drank every single drop and then placed it on the counter top. She went back the way she came and patted the back of the same guy's head again. She proceeded back to her room and covered herself with a blanket. She clicked on the last recording that was recorded a few days after the Second Bloody Valentine.
"Hey... Sorry if I had to wait until the end of the war to record this. It's just that, I want to record what my real intentions were, and this time, I'm not going to talk about that damn war. It's all rubbish to hear me spout random facts about what happened to us during the war... Maybe I just wanted to say something, you know? Well, now... The wars finally over, the PLANTs and ORB agreed to a truce and are now looking for a way to end the war completely. We visited ORB, Lunamaria and I were the only ones who didn't pay a visit to you at your office. Athrun and Meyrin supposedly came to see you, and I guess Kira and Lacus did the same. By then, Luna and I were already dating... I was thinking if this was the best thing to do, and the fact that my feelings towards you just kept on growing and I can't make myself tell you the truth. After all, Athrun's back to ORB as an Admiral and that you two are together again. It hurt me to see you happy with him. I was just a lowly knight and I could never match the superiority of the so called, Red Knight. Sure he was a traitor to both ZAFT and ORB, but I know how much you love him... Every time I think about ORB, I think about you, Stella and Mayu. I'd say, the most important girls in my life... Two who are dead, and the other one, alive but can't be with me. I'm planning to give this to you and I know it doesn't really say how much I love you but believe me when I say that my feelings are real and that I hope you take it to heart. Thank you, I'm sorry, and... Good bye..."
The recording ended with a 'click' sound and the princess' tears won't stop flowing. She didn't know that Shinn felt that way towards her and now she knew why all this time, no matter how much she felt that he was trying to kill her, that he really wasn't trying, finds herself lost. Never did it occur to her that Shinn tried his best to fight seriously and at the same time, not to finish her off in one swing. She knew that a single hit from the Impulse's anti-ship swords or the Destiny's sabers would kill her but he was so careful, that he was instead backed off by either the Freedom or its upgraded version, the Strike Freedom. The blonde haired Princess of the ORB Union closed the phone and placed it on top of her bedside table. She turned off her lamp and went to sleep, with tears on her eyes.