Disclaimer: I do not own the world of Harry Potter..

Warnings: May include torture at first...

A/N: Yey! My third Snape fan fic. I hope you like it! I dedicate this to booksquirm because we both love angst stories :P hehehehe... Enjoy reading!

He was badlybeaten. He was barely alive lying in the cold and filthy floor. It was a miracle that he's still breathing. He was covered with blood, cuts and bruises. He was now alone in the dark after their session of torture to him. Everyday, every minute, he felt pain. His body was numb and he doesn't know why he's still alive. He experienced a lot of torture. With or without magic. He doesn't know how many days he was there. There was nothing he could do to escape the reality that one of this days, he will be gone. He wanted to welcome death and he was not afraid of it. When they caught him, the only thing he was afraid of was the information they want from him about the order. There's still luck at him because until now they haven't extract the information yet. He endured all the torture as long as the order's secrets were safe inside his head. Everyday, he wished for death to come, but it never happen.

*Flash back*

He was eating peacefully at the high table after a long day. He was not in the good mood. Is there any day that he was in good mood? He was about to take a gulp in his goblet when he felt a burning sensation in his left fore arm. Compare to other days when he was summoned, it was more painful today. The goblet even slipped from his right hand and fall. The great hall erupted into silence and all eyes fall on him. He tried to control himself from holding his left arm, but failed as he felt it hurt more. The only one who knew what was happening was the old man sitting at the center of the high table. The old man looked at him with a knowing look which was full of worry. He gave him a short nod and stood up. He quickly left the great hall and soon everyone forget what happen to their potions master. Minerva, who was sitting in the right side of Albus , looked at Albus as he watched the man leave the hall. She asked him as the door was closed by the man in black.

"Excuse me Albus, do you know what is happening?" Albus gave her only a shake of his head and then resume eating. Seeing that he will not going to tell her something, also resumed eating.

The man in black walked briskly as the pain erupted more and more to him. When he reached the apparating spot, he quickly apparated to his other master and wondered what was happening. His heart was pounding but he isn't afraid or nervous. He just felt something was not right. When he arrived, he quickly went inside. He saw his master and greeted him by bowing so low as he cleared his mind.

"Good evening my lord." The dark lord only smiled menacingly at him and gestured him to sit.

"Severus, my trusted servant, it seems you're missing some thing. " He wondered what it was and looked at the other death eaters in the room. He didn't know what to say so he remained silent, still thinking of what his master was referring to. Finally, after seconds of silence, the dark lord finally spoke.

"Its too silent isn't Severus?" He stood up and made his way slowly to Severus. Severus never experienced this kind of meeting. There was really something not right. When the dark lord finally came to a stop behind his back he spoke again as he laid a hand in his shoulders. He tried to stop him self from flinching.

"It comes to my notice that some one is spying among us." 'Damn! Busted! He said to him self. 'Do they discover him so soon?' The other death eaters whispered among them selves. Beads of sweat start to form in his forehead and he felt the temperature in the room start to fall. The dark lords quickly removed his hands from his shoulder and started to walk again. He breathed a sighed of relief but he know that he will be damn soon if what he thought is right. But at least, knowing the dark lord was not in his back his nervousness lessens. When the dark lord started to talk again, silence enveloped the whole room and he listened intently to what he was really saying.

"Yesterday, one of my servants delivered a message to me that some one is a traitor here. He gave me proofs and I was convinced that he was right. I reward him for his deeds by giving the traitor in his hands and giving him a high position among you. Lucius Malfoy." The blonde man stood up as rounds of applause was given to him. He shot him a look which he didn't know if it was a confirmation but gave him applause too. When the claps of hands died down, he return to his seat and smiled more. If he was discovered, what will he do? Are they going to kill him tonight? Or are they going to torture him as long as they live? What about the order? What will happen to the order if they caught him? His mind was racing and also his heart.

"From now on, I would like to tell you this. There won't be another situation like this. I will make sure from the very beginning that there won't be another spy to be with us. Learn from his mistake. I will make sure that tonight; he will regret ever joining to us and spying to us." He paused as he stopped in front of him. He was standing at the back of Lucius who was sitting opposite him. He raised his wand and touched it with his left point finger. The tension in the room was unbearable. The only one who was happy was Bellatrix who was smiling all the time knowing she will have another toy to play. Even though she felt jealous, she was still enjoying the night.

"My lord, please tell us who it was." Bellatrix spoke excitement evident in his voice.

"Patience, Bellatrix. We would like to play with him a bit more aren't we? Now, traitor, would you like to say something? Why don't you stand up and reveal you're self to us? There's no way out now. Maybe, if you reveal yourself, we will be able to spare you a bit." Silence. He didn't know what to do. Will he reveal himself? There was a hundred percent that they won't spare him about this. He wiped his fore head nervously. He was not afraid of what they will do to him. He was only afraid for the order. When the dark lord lose his patience, he muttered,

"Coward." He then drew his wand and aimed it at him.

"Crucio." He closed his eyed as he felt the pain. He shut his mouth tightly as he gripped the sides of the table. Gasps of shock issued from the mouth of other death eaters while Bellatrix and Lucius smiled more. The pain lasted for more than a minute.

"Stand up Severus. It wasn't fun if you're still sitting at our table. He doesn't know if he will be able to stand up and if he will have the strength to make it tonight.

"Stufefy!" Lucius shouted suddenly which sends him flying with his chair and knocks at the wall.

"Not now Lucius. I would like to play with him first. The dark lord said as he slowly moved towards him. He was now lying on the floor; blood was flowing in his forehead from the impact of banging his head in the wall. He was loosing consciousness when he closed his eyes but then, he heard the dark lord shoot him a spell,

"Rennervate." He opened his eyes as he felt another wave of pain as he heard another round of Crucio. He shut his eyes and mouth tightly. Many hours pass as the dark lord stop. His lips were bleeding because he was biting it to stop him self from shouting, but it still didn't stop his shout to escape in his lips. His wand suddenly slipped out from his robes but the dark lord was so quick, so before he reached it, the dark lord then pointed his wand at the lying wand in the ground and without saying anything, his wand was snapped into two as a light errupted from the dark lord's wand.

"Why don't you shout Severus? Enjoying the pain? Why don't you just shout so I can pass you to others? Many minutes pass and he can't bear it anymore, he finally shout and the dark lord lowered his wand, he then turned to his followers, so each one of them can have a turn to him. He was badly beaten now and he didn't know if he can last the torture of the other death eater. He knew that it was also worst.

"Each one of you can have a chance to torture him. The only rule is, no one must kill him. We will make him suffer for a very long time. Begin!" He then walked in his throne and enjoyed watching the torture. Just like the dark lord said, everyone shot a different spell to him. He was bleeding so much now. It was so late at night when the dark lord dismissed them.

"You can take him now Lucius. Make sure to make him suffer everyday."

"My pleasure my lord." Bellatrix, who was near Lucius asked him.

"My lord, can I play with him too?"

"If that's what you like. Now, dismissed." Lucius dragged Severus who felt pain in every move he made. He was still silent as he felt his sore throat from shouting. They reached the dungeon and Lucius practically throw him inside the filthy and dark cellar. It was small and smells so bad.

"Crucio!" With that last word, he drifted into blackness and he didn't felt Lucius finally walked out.
When he regained his consciousness, he was alone and he didn't know how long he was asleep. Many thoughts were running into his mind. What if he accidentally blurted out the secrets of the Order especially its where about? Will Albus going to do something? Will I survive this? Are they going to save him? He was lying on the pool of his blood on the ground and his eyes were still closed. His breathing was not normal. He was bleeding on the inside out. This was his first day in the cellar but he was already barely alive. Can he make it for weeks? For months?

*Back to the castle*

The old man wearing a weird color of robes, with while long hair and beard was pacing in his office. He was worried for his friend. He felt that there was something wrong. He started to think of different possibilities. He was busy thinking and pacing that he didn't heard a knock on his door, until the voice of Minerva can be heard behind the door.

"Headmaster? Albus? Are you inside?" He shook his head and come to reality again.

"Sorry Minerva. Please come inside." His tone was different and once inside, Minerva can see that the twinkle in his eyes were missing.

"What happen Albus? Is there something wrong?" She was becoming worried now. She never saw him in that state except if there was really a big problem.

"It's nothing Minerva. I'm just worried. What can I do for you?" He then sat down in his chair and indicated Minerva to do same. She sat down in the chair in front of the headmaster's table.

"I'm just worried about you. After Severus left it seems there was something wrong with the two of you."

"Nothing Minerva." She tried to control herself from asking but failed. She can sense that there was something wrong.

"Please Albus, tell me what's wrong. I know there was something going on." Albus thought for a while if he was going to tell the truth to Minerva. He knew that he can trust Minerva, but it was too dangerous right? So he chose to hide it from her…for now.

"I'm sorry Minerva…But it's really not a big deal." She knew it was a big deal but, if the headmaster was not ready to tell it to her, she will accept it, maybe someday, the headmaster will tell her. She sighed and looked straight in the eyes of the headmaster.

"Okay Albus. But you know I'm always here if you need someone. You can trust me."

"I know Minerva."

"Good night Albus."

"Good night Minerva." She stood up and left the room, leaving a very worried old man behind.

-One week later at Hogwarts—(present)

Albus paced at his office. Ever since Severs was gone, he was pacing at his office. He can't take it anymore. The young man was never gone for one week without notifying him. He was worried more than ever. He called Minerva first because he was ready to tell her. When Minerva reached the headmaster office, she knocked and then heard the voice of Albus. She entered and took a seat which Albus indicated to her.

"Good evening Albus. What can I do for you?"

"Good evening Mineva. I…" Before he can continue this, there was a knock at the door. He sighed and said the word enter. His eyes widen upon seeing who entered the room. His black cloak billowing behind when he entered. He gave a curt nod to the headmaster who was so shocked and to Minerva who was sitting in front of Albus' table.

"Good evening headmaster, Minerva." The headmaster was so shocked that he was speechless at first. He then stood up to greet the young man. He smiled at him, all his worry slowly dissolving.

"Good evening Severus." The headmaster greeted him. He then turned to Minerva and said,

"I'm sorry Minerva, I'm so rude to do this but, can we talk again tomorrow?" Minerva smiled at him, knowing that the problem was solved.

"It's alright Albus. I'll see the both of you tomorrow." She then smiled at Severus who gave him a curt nod again.

"Good night Minerva." Once she was gone, the headmaster quickly made his way to him and gave him a fatherly hug. Even though he didn't return the hug, the head master was so glad and relieved to see him again. He released him and looked at his eyes.

"I thought I will never see you again my boy. What happen to you?" Replying in his usual tone, he replied,

"The dark lord ordered me to stay for a week to brew a potion. If you'll excuse me Albus, I still have a lot of things to do." The headmaster frowned but then replied,

"Of course my boy, good night." The young man leaves without saying anything. Albus thought for a while that something was strange. He pushed it out of his mind. Maybe he was just so glad that his potions master was back.