I lived in Forks, Washington my whole life. I wasn't a lonely child, I had my books and my music. But my father felt that I isolated myself to much. He wanted me to be out going, make friends. Being a single dad was so hard on him and he was worried that I was to sheltered. But lets get serious of course I was sheltered, I was the police chief's only child, his only daughter. Since I had a knack for music, my music teacher put me up for a scholarship to the Seattle Academy of Music and Performing Arts. And that is where I found my voice and the man of my dreams. Edward Cullen, he was a Guitar player that every girl at school dreamed about and all the girls always tried to get noticed by. He was shy but confident and it was so attractive. With brilliant green eyes that saw down to your soul, Copper messy hair and a sharp jaw line. He was loving, smart, compassionate and adoring. We became friends in Music history 101 when we had to do a project together. And the rest was history. I never understood why he wanted me when he could have any girl at school. I never really made sense to me. I was always worried that he would get bored with me and leave. It was hard not to notice all the girls hanging around him all the time. Emmett and Jasper were Edward's friends and I adored them. They would always reassure me not to worry, Edward's heart belong to me and his music.

I never realized how true my fears would be. He would tell me all the time that he loved me that I was all he ever wanted in life. We made plans to go to the University together both majoring in music. He was my everything and just when I was believing that I was good enough for him. He left.

2010

present day

"Jacob, You are frustrating me to know end"

"ha,ha ,ha I do that all the time Bells, whats the difference now?"

"god, Jake you are the only person that can get away with calling me that... Ang doesn't even do that."

"sure , sure,, look can we get back to the security issue at hand?" Jake said it all business like,I love how he can go from Jacob my Best friend to Jacob my Head of security..

"OK, so like I said I don't really see a problem"

"Bells, its a huge problem, Voodoo fest is a huge place and I only have Quil and Embry for it. They are more than qualified for the House of Blues but we need more bodies for Voodoo fest."

now he is rolling his eyes at me like he is talking to a 5 year old...

"look we are doing both events, this is huge for "Again" and you are just going to have to handle the job, I know you can Jake. You would never let anything happened to me and the band"

Jake was pouring himself over the map of City park. He, Quil and Embry had been doing it for days. And now with us leaving in the morning to head to New Orleans. He was just stressing , he really was a good friend, but he's got to chill out. I laughed out loud

"what? what is so funny?" Jake asked in a pissy voice

"Oh, I just think it's cute that our roles are reversed now and you are the worry wart and I am the carefree-it-will-all-work-out-in-the-end one"

Just then Ang and Nessie walked in , "that is so True, come on Jakey-kins chill out, Isabella knows what she is doing" Angela said in a sing song voice, laughing at her own joke of calling Jacob by Nessie's nick name for him.

Jake looked up with his mouth open prepared for a rude come back when his eyes fell on Nessie. He just shook his head and smiled. Then he rose up from the table and went to her, kissing her so passionately that it made me look away. PDA was really hard for me, I felt the ache in my heart burn but I couldn't be more happy for Jacob. He and Nessie were a perfect match and she was such a great friend in college. She knew my sad little history after one night when Ang just didn't know what to do to help my panic attack and she couldn't get in touch with Ben,so she got Nessie to help. And that was the night that I finally told my story to an outsider. Weeks later when Jacob came to visit and we introduced them, they became inseparable from that moment on. And then engaged and married in a year. Talk about your world wind romance. It was amazing to watch that after 4 years of marriage they were still so in love. I envied them and hurt at the same time. The ache was bearable most days but today was completely different.

Angela interrupted my depressing thoughts when she handed me a cup of hot tea. I am sure she saw the look on my face, she gave me that all knowing smile. I shook my head to clear it.

"so Isabella, I have a new outfit for you, and before you complain" she held her hands up "Its blue and you will wear it." she patted my knee and gave me the look that was don't argue with-me-honey-cause-I-am-going-to-win.

"OK" was all I could say, I adverted my eyes to my cup of tea

She whipped her head around to me, almost spilling her tea on herself, and I realized the entire room went quite. The band was in the other room just jamming out waiting for me to finish with Ben. But it was quite now too.

Marcus was standing in the door way just staring at me. He was tall, honey colored skin and a lean build, Dark brown hair that just covered his bright blue eyes. I looked up at him and he smiled. He had the most heart warming smile. He was every girls dream and yet I still couldn't bring myself to be more than friends with him. He was my co-writer, closest guy friend, ass kicker when I would put my self down and self proclaimed protector.

He knew my reason for why I wouldn't agreed to the blue. I had refused to wear blue for over the last 4 years. He was in my room that night 2 weeks ago when Ben came in to tell me that he just received a call from Voodoo Fest and that they booked us an opening group. Ben was scared to tell me at first who it was and I couldn't figure out way.

"OK, Ben spit it out we were working here, I feel like I have to get this song out of me NOW". "Isabella, the group is EC"

I looked up at him with a bewildered look "OK, should I know them?"

"No I guess not , I was just concerned..." he looked to Marcus for help.

"Isabella he was just concerned about their style ,,um bothering you. Its nothing to worry about, Beautiful, let's finish this kick ass song" he looked up to Ben trying to convey something that I just couldn't focus on. This song was eating me alive and I had to get it out. I felt like it was burning me alive. Ben left and I exploded with emotional lyrics. Marcus and I played all night.

He strolled into the room stood in front of me and offered me his hand. I took it to stand in front of him and he slowly reached around me and gave me a hug, I loved Marcus's hugs they felt like home. He released me and looked down into my eyes. "Are you ready, Beautiful?" he smiled at me "for what?" I asked confused by the question, was I ready for New Orleans or was I ready to practice. Knowing him he meant both.

"For you to lose yourself in our last jam session before we head to New Orleans?" I simply gave him a nod yes. And we walked into the living room that I turned into our practice room. This house was huge and I liked having us all under one roof. Not having to have to travel to and from a studio. Practicing when ever the hell we wanted. I loved that freedom.

I spent the next several hours lost in my new songs and the emotions were high. Excited about all the new experiences we were about to venture on but at the same time. Expose me to a much larger audience was a risk and we all knew it. But if I wanted the band to become what we all knew we had the potential to become then this was necessary. I would put on my big fucking girl pants and stuck it up. Edward Cullen was the past and No matter what he would eventually find out about AGAIN. So what if we were headed to his new hometown... New Orleans. I could do this I could act like he wasn't in my every thought, my every song, what drives my emotions to write what I write. I can do this. I am no longer the weak little girl Bella Swan from 5 years ago... I am now the sexy, strong , independent, carefree Isabella the front women and singer for AGAIN.