Alex and brainy were deep in conversation in the command centre, although Alex didn't feel that Brainy was subtle enough for what she had planned he was the best placed person to talk to Lena Luthor. It was important for Alex to have someone to check out Lena as if she was the one to do this it would ruin part two of her plan. Thinking about her sister and the Luthor together was something that was difficult for Alex to start with but over the years Lena had proved herself over and over and she had shown that she was good and kind and Alex had started to think very fondly of her. Alex knew that Kara had feelings for Lena and she wouldn't admit it, she thought that after coming out herself when she fell in love with Maggie, Kara would have been able to see the parallels with Lena. She had started to think that maybe that what she was seeing with Kara was projection of her own issues until Maggie had started talking about the chemistry between the two women. They even bet on the relationship, did the bet still stand after they had broken up and would Alex interfering mean that the bet was null in void, it the plan worked Maggie could claim that she won through default. Although Maggie being in Gotham now and not really in contact meant that there would be no way to check this. "so you understand what you need to do right, no adlibbing no trying to be sneaky brainy just have the conversation and report back" Brainy looked at Alex, "I am a 12th level intellect Alex I am sure that I am more than capable of completing this mission although I have already done the calculations and there is a 96% probability that there is no need as I already know what she is going to say".
Kara approached and the conversation stopped and Alex looked around to watch her approach, she was distracted by something and had already caused two agents to flitter out of her way. Alex fell into step along side her sister and walked to the exit, on the balcony Kara stopped and looked over she seemed a little surprised to see Alex stood by her. "oh hey Alex, I didn't know you were out here, I was wondering if you were up for a sisters night tonight, Lena is busy with her experiments and I already brought the ice-cream for out movie night" Alex smiled at Kara "so I am the second choice now am I? " Alex asked playfully and nudged her sister. "I have been walking with you for the last five minutes Kara your extremely distracted today is there something wrong?" Kara pulled her brows together displaying her crinkle and looked at Alex "nothing is wrong, I am just a little worried about Lena, she split up with James over thanks giving and she has been hiding in her lab since I am unable to get through to her at all and well she was the one who brought me out of my funk when Mon-El left and I wanted to be there for her but she is avoiding me." Alex could see that this was really bothering her sister and was convinced that it was more to do with her feelings for the woman than the break up or the lack of contact. They agreed to meet a little later for a sister's night and Alex watched as Kara took to the sky and disappeared from view.
Flying over national city Kara couldn't help but dwell on thoughts of her friend, why was Lena distancing herself at this time was there more going on than just the break up with James?. The last time Lena had been so distant it was connected to Sam and her making Kryptonite, but that was supergirl more than Kara, but it felt like Lena was deliberately avoiding her. Maybe the sister's night would be just the ticket to lift her mood. She didn't want Alex to fell like second place and she never would be but at the moment, she did need a distraction and her sister was her favourite person and always had been, although Lena was also her favourite too now she sighed. There was room enough in Kara's heart for both of them she would never have to choose.
Sitting in her office Lena could feel the breeze coming through the open door to the balcony. She had been sat here for a while drinking scotch and mulling over her decisions. Breaking up with Jimmy was the right thing to do, they had no chemistry, a fact she tried to deny. They didn't share any interests or even know each other well enough to even doing well at games night let alone win. It wasn't the loss that was the problem it was the fact that Kara could answer every question. Lena sipped some more of her scotch.
Jimmy had been a mistake and a costly one, she had distanced herself from Kara, and without her sunny presence in Lena's life things felt cold and darker. Her presence a constant reminder that Jimmy was a poor substitute for something she couldn't have. Lena knew in her heart that Jimmy will be ok, he never really loved her not the real Lena, he didn't know the real her, maybe no one did. Lena shook her head that isn't true Kara knows her all too well. Her mind turned to our conversation in the car, he didn't think working with the DEO was a good idea, but every time she had teamed up in the past it made things better. Well professionally at least, saving supergirl, Sam, defeating rogue kryptonian's and even fixing ships, clearing the air and ridding the world of the daxamite invasion..
No, Lena thought stubbornly, helping give the humans at the DEO a fighting chance against aliens and other threats was a good thing. Yet her heart was still heavy, which is why she am sat here pouring another scotch. What if supergirl wants to stop her, what If this time Kara takes her side. Will Lena be able to stand against the girl of steel, not physically but in every other way yes, but could Lena stand up against the words of Kara and that sunny face, well she haddent managed it so far. If this is the wrong path to take Kara would have been the one to argue against her, Kara made Lena think and challenge her own views. She has been absent, I have been absent, I gaze over to the couch and think of times we shared. She said she would always be here for me, but I have pushed her away. Nothing good can ever come of befriending a Luthor, and Lena couldn't bear to hurt Kara, it was good they have drifted. Lena snapped her head up, Enough wallowing, broken hearts heal, and Kara although distant she hasn't left yet, so for now Lena's heart is intact, she is scared of what she will become the day it happens, loss does strange things to Lena's family, and loosing Kara may just be the thing that tips her over. She heads back to the Lab Lena needed to work, to distract herself and Brainy should be there soon with the Chemical compound to test.
Brainy had made his way over to Lena's lab and was shown in, the friends greeted each other cordially as normal and Brainy gave Lena the chemical compound that he was using to gain access to Lena. "You seem troubled Lena, are your boxes failing you?" Lena looked at Brainy he was indeed an interesting fellow and although her boxes were not actual files in her mind as his were they were robust and strong. She smiled at her friend "No brainy I am just trying to work through some issues that are causing me difficulty in order to create new boxes" Brainy listened to Lena and calculated that the break up had caused additional feelings that she was finding difficult to process. There was a 80% chance that the break up its self was causing this issue and that Lena just needed more time to process. "Well it is understandable that after breaking up with someone that you love can have a detrimental effect on ones state of mind and make the need for the itty bitty boxes more desperate."
Lena laughed at her friend, and then smiled at him, "Brainy it is not the break up that is causing a issue at this time, it is the lack of care that I have about it, I was not enjoying my time with James and was blowing him off to spend time with Kara and the rest of you and now well I am not sure about what this all means for me." Brainy thought about her answer, after some recalculations he stated "well there is a 98.4% possibility that you are more interested in Kara than you were with James and that maybe the boxes are needed to contain your feelings for Kara?" Lena looked at Brainy, she thought about what he said and it made sense on a level, she knew that there was always a leaning towards women but that wasn't something that Lena allowed other to know. "Brainy even if that was the case Kara is my best friend and that is all there is too it, now I need to get back to work" Brainy left the lab and called Alex to report in as he was told.
Brainy's report had confirmed to Alex that Lena was as much of a hopless lesbian as Kara and that the two of them defiantly needed a push in the right direction so she stopped off for food and headed to Kara's place, knowing that it was always easier to talk to the Kryptonian when she had a full belly. Alex arrived at Kara's apartment and let herself in, carrying the Chinese and pizza she had picked up. Settling the food down Alex went to the fridge and picked out a bottle of beer. Kara came out of the bathroom and headed straight for the potstickers, Alex couldn't help but laugh "hungry sis?" Alex sat opened the pizza box and took a slice smiling at Kara as she practically in hailed the potstickers. "ummmm so good, thanks Alex your my favourite" Kara gave Alex a tight squeeze and took a seat opposite her sister continuing to eat. After a while the food was finished and the sisters moved over to the couch and Kara put on a movie. Snuggling on the couch with Alex, Kara felt relaxed and happy, snuggling closer and pulling the blanket up.
Alex decided to test the waters a little, "so Kara I am a Lena substitute tonight huh? Did she cancel again?" Kara looked sad and nodded briefly before looking at her sister. "you know Alex you're not a substitute but I was supposed to be hanging out with Lena tonight and well after she cancelled I was, well I guess I was a little sad and then you were there on the balcony just after she cancelled and well I felt a little better, you always make me feel better Alex, that's why I asked if you wanted to come over" Alex smiled, she knew that Kara was upset and missing Lena, "Kara, are you missing Lena because you have feelings for her that are more than friendship?" Alex said as she gave her sister a little squeeze. Kara sat up and looked at Alex, "how many times do we have to have this conversation Alex? I have told you that Lena and I are just friends, I am just worried because she was there for me and I feel like I am letting her down." Alex smiled at her sister, "well I promise that this is the last time then, because the reason I am asking is different, I well, I have been working with Lena a lot and I, well I noticed that we have a connection and I was thinking that I might like to ask her out" Alex gave a shy smile and looked at her sister.
There was a long moment before Kara's mouth managed to catch up with her brain. "You like, like Lena?" Kara squeaked out, Kara's mind was reeling, Alex was asking for permission to ask out Lena, she had no idea why Alex was asking, Lena would have her own mind about this kind of things and Alex well Kara loved Alex and if she liked Lena she would be happy for her but there was this nagging feeling inside that she was unable to shake, if Alex and Lena got together that would mean that there was less time for Kara with both of her favourite people, that must be it, she was concerned that this would mean even less time with people that she cared about. "I do, I know that initially we didn't get on and well I was frosty but so was Lena, we have been able to let our guard down and well she has shown me who she really is and well, she is brilliant, and funny, and so beautiful Kara, I really like her, but I didn't want to ask her out, if well you had feelings for her" Kara thought for a moment or two before answering "I love you both Alex, your both important to me and if you can make each other happy then that would make me happy" Kara managed to say it with all the conviction in the world not that she was feeling it.
Kara couldn't help but feel that she was being selfish, she wanted Alex to be happy and have children and everything that her heart desired. After Maggie Alex had been so broken, then with the Sam and Ruby issue Alex had been on her own, but why Lena, Kara loved the fact that Lena made time for her, well she had up until recently. If she was splitting her time between LCorp, CatCo, the DEO and Alex there would be no time for Kara, and if they did spend time together she would be snuggled up with Alex. Not only that but it meant that sisters nights and movie nights would be different she would be the third wheel, at least when there was Maggie, Kara had Lena. If Alex has Lena what did she have. Lena deserved to be happy to and there was no better person in the world than Alex, and well if Alex could make Lena happy she should be happy for them both. Kara smiled widely, "I think that you two would make each other happy, you actually have a lot in common."
Alex didn't have time to respond as her DEO phone went off. There was an emergency, one of Lillian's minions had been spotted and there was fallout from whatever chemical weapon he had released. Cadmus was supposed to have been completely decimated but Lillian still appeared to have reach. Alex relayed the information to Kara and called Lena, who agreed to head over to the DEO and help with the situation that her mother was behind. Kara flew Alex over to the DEO where there were numerous people in containment and people in hassmat suits decontaminating the area. Alex received a full report and then the trademark heals could be heard and Alex and Kara turned to see Lena coming down the stairs. "what has mother done this time Alex, I thought that this was over" Lena looked concerned and annoyed. Alex explained that there was a bio-weapon released that seemed to be fighting any attempts to help the people effected.
Lena went straight to the lab and started to evaluate the samples that had been collected. Helping to cure the latest of Lillian's hair brained schemes, only this time Lena thought her mother may have managed to pull off something truly terrible. This bio weapon where ever it had come from, is deadly and Metamorphic, every time Lena thought she had cracked it the hazard seems to change into something else. She was so close to figuring it out she could feel it, it's like when you just have to balance that final equation to prove an entire theory but the math is just out of reach. It's late even for Lena and the number of agents wandering past have dwindled hour by hour.
Pacing in the lab waiting for the centrifuge to finish and the simulation to complete, the clicking of her heals in the stone floor is comforting in its regularity. Lena glance at the timer and there is another 3 minutes to wait, normally she love watching science unfold but this time it's frustrating although the DEO have contained the issue there are people counting on her and she need to crack this. Pulling her hair back into a pony tail in preparation Lena waited for the buzzer. The simulation shows yet another failure, 98.6% sucsess before the morphing took place and reduced the effectiveness of the antiserum to 0. Taking the latest mix out of the centrifuge Lena examined the liquid, it had split, before she could even test it, it has failed. Rubbing her eyes and pinching the bridge of my nose Lena sighed.
In a rare display of anger I throw the vial at the wall the satisfying smashing sound allowing some of my frustration to vent. I hear the door open and footsteps approach. Placing my hands on the work bench I sigh. "It was just a accident no need for concern agent I will have this cleared up in a moment." Lena was surprised by the arms wrapping them self's around her as she was pulled into a tight hug, turning to look at the Danvers sister hugging her, one hand lightly massaging my neck as the other drew circles on her back. This was defiantly not the Danvers sister she had expected this kind of attention from. Never before had Alex been so affectionate towards Lena, and the combination of soothing circles and massage removing the stress from my neck was heavenly, she wrapped her arms around Alex and enjoyed the human contact.
Alex pulled back and looked at Lena, "you have been working all night it is 7 am Lena you need to rest or at least go out for something to eat and some fresh air, maybe I could take you out for breakfast". Lena looked at Alex and smiled, "well maybe if you were to pop on a nice white lab coat and help me I would be able to afford such luxuries as time off for breakfast Alex" Lena raised her eyebrows at Alex she had not let go of Lena just loosened her grip. Alex thought that there was a little spark between them and she was enjoying the hug a little too much, she let Lena go and smiled. "I tell you what you go out and get some air and maybe a coffee and when you get back I will pop on the white coat and look at what you have been doing, a break and someone to bounce ideas off may just get that final problem solved" Alex smiled sweetly at Lena and placed her had on her shoulder, "please Lena just half a hour, just to refresh". Lena smiled and placed her hand over Alex's on her shoulder and gave it a squeeze. "maybe your right Alex a little walk and coffee may help".
Life had been so much more complicated since arriving in National City, Lena didn't have friends before let alone a whole friendship group and her feelings were getting very confused. Walking through the park to clear my head wasn't helping, since Lena's early dalliance with a woman resulted in banishment and utter disappointment from Lillian she had all but put such thoughts out of my mind. Compartmentalising any feelings towards people of the same sex to ensure that the past didn't repeat itself. Lena had managed to find happiness with Jack and although it was never quite as what movies or books had suggested it should be, intimate behaviour was satisfying to a point, although not needed frequently. More recently with James the lack of chemistry between them had made intimacy more difficult and as he didn't seem to be as happy with Lena's lack of interest as Jack was, she thought that while Jack just accepted me, she was just not sure James ever truly did.
Now Lena couldn't stop wondering if there is more to my difficulties in relationships than meets the eye. Since the introduction of not one but two Danvers sisters in her life it has been much harder to contain her feelings and desires. Kara so full of sunshine and love managed to bulldoze her way into Lena's heart immediately, showing unwavering support and kindness in every way, showing Lena that she was worth time and effort and well Kara became so very important to her. Lena often thought that without Kara in her life, Lena would truly break, truly become the very worst of her felf. Lena loved Kara, She knew that but then there was Alex. Alex was a completely different experience, like Lena she didn't give trust easily and over the years a mutual trust and friendship had been built, affording for both of them to become comfortable and trusting of one another. Now during my most difficult times Alex was the one that was there for Lena that believes in her, not blindly, not unquestioningly but through built up trust and faith. Alex was softer than Lena expected and still fierce, Alex excited Lena in a ways that she didn't think possible.
There in lies the problem, two women both different both beautiful both have found their way under Lena's skin and into her once frozen heart melting her from the very core. Lena stop at a bench and sat, looking out at the people going by, Lena just couldn't focus, did the awakening of desire that Alex produced mean that she was gay, that Lena was interested in Alex, or was there desire because Lena knew Alex was gay so it was a possibility? Was the love Lena had for Kara that of a friend or something more and was the reason Lena was unable to evaluate this because of the hurt that would inevitably be caused by the lack of reciprocity from Kara was causing her to shy away from the possibility. Whatever was happening to her right now was causing more confusion than Lena had ever felt with in her life, the two girls morphing and shifting in her mind like they were shape shifting. Lena dropped her cup, that was it, the current dilemma in her personal life was the answer, Lillian had used the shape shifting aliens to infuse the bio weapon, and the anti serums would need to be able to do the same, luckily Lena knew just where she could get her hands on a shape shifter and hurriedly made her way back to the DEO.
Arriving back at the DEO to find Alex and Supergirl both standing in the Lab, Lena entered and explained without the thought behind it the revelation that she had while out walking. Alex eyes lit up, "Lena that is pure genius, I don't know how you came up with it but that is amazing, I will get a J'onn blood sample and we can get to work on this right away" supergirl watched as the two women worked in complete sync, she couldn't help but see the chemistry between them and the way they bounced off each other as they worked. She could feel something new in her chest that she couldn't understand and it was making her angry. Being of no use in the current situation she left and went to the training room, she needed something to punch, the sounds from the training room reverberated through the DEO. Brainy entered the room, "Kara, what is wrong, you are clearly hitting that very hard I can hear you in the command centre" Her shoulders slumped forward and she looked at Brainy, "I just feel useless, I couldn't help Lena when she needed me and now there is a problem and I can't help with that, what is the point of being the strongest person on earth when there is nothing to punch". Brainy was unable to comprehend the complete situation and his calculations were failing him so instead he walked over and gave Kara a hug. "with the lack of information I calculated to a 98.3% that this was the correct action" Kara laughed at Brainy his odd way of comforting people, it made her feel a little better.
In the lab Alex and Lena had come up with a perfect serum and the simulations confirmed that it would work. The serum was successful and the remaining infected was given the antidote. They had lost a few people, human and alien, clearly Lillian had not realised that the shape shifting component would allow it to cross the barrier. Once everything was finished Alex looked at Lena and smiled "how about that breakfast?"