Okay I have never written fan fiction before so I guess you could call me a virgin here,the idea of this story was started by a friend of mine so I decided to use it as a Twilight fic with her permission of course, here is the prologue it's not much, but hey I've never written before so be nice and let me know what you think so far?. I'm afraid I wont be updating as fast as others do as all this is still new to me, but I want to do the story justice so please hang in there okay.
Memories
Prologue
He just gazed at me like I had a grown a third head.
"Why wont you let me in?",even after what we have been through the past 2 months."
What was I supposed to say?. Sure enough, I knew what I was feeling for him now I was in love with him, but at the same time I was scared of losing someone I loved. I was afraid of still letting him in,after witnessing what that fucker did to my Parents can you blame me.
He ran his hands through his bronze locks,waiting anxiously for my answer.
"Edward you know I want to let you in, but this is something I have to work out on my own,my own fucked up heart and mind needs time,I'm sorry I really am could you please just give me more time?"
"You know I'm only asking you to let me in because I care don't you?"he looked so sincere and heart broken at that moment,it was almost too hard to resist him,but my heart and mind just wasn't ready yet.
He filled the distance between us, intertwining my hands with his,
"This shit is just so fucked up Bella,what ever this is between us we cant let our pasts destroy our futures,for fuck sake."I have already let you in on my fucked up life and believe me it was fucked up till you came,I made mistakes that is unforgivable.
I know that but I'm trying for us".
I unclasped our joined hands and brought one of them up to stroke his cheek and used my other hand to bring his face level to mine.
"Look into my fucking eyes and tell me what you see in them?, I am being sincere but my heart and mind just aren't ready yet".he brought my face towards his and smashed his lips to mine ,I barely had time to register my own thoughts. This kiss was less rougher than the other ones we shared,more slower,with more emotion and passion he was trying to show me what words couldn't,I instantly melted,he brought his hands to my waist and started backing me in to the nearest wall,our kisses began to get more heated and I could only concentrate on the warmth of his body against mine,my hands found their way into his hair. Pulling on it for dear life, it was then the memories of what happened that night came flashing through my mind.
My Whole body instantly tensed up, I began shaking,the images playing through my mind like a god damned movie. My breathing was out of fucking control by now I couldn't do anything in that moment,my legs,arms everything were frozen.
All I could hear before everything went black was Edwards tear stained and panicked voice.