Moment Of Despair
I thought of this suddenly. FYI-Making pretend there's no Toby in this story for reasons of me not wanting someone to seem like another Lucy. Mrs. Lovett has loved Sweeney since he was Benjamin Barker, and he's always thought of her as a close companion. Sweeney's so different though, he only seems to think of her as an annoyance. Can a rash thought change Sweeney's feelings about her though, will he realize how much he really needs her? I do not own Sweeney Todd and I never will, so pleaaaase stop asking.
The rain fell down harshly on Fleet Street. No one would be coming for a shave or pie today, that was for sure. The baker looked out of the window feeling lonely without the barber there with her. There had only been one other day when she felt so lonely on a rainy day such as this one. She started dozing out in her armchair and began to flashback to that day.
It was after closing time and Nellie Lovett was reading a book when Lucy cam running into the house with Johanna in her stroller. The heavy rainfall had Lucy soaked from head to toe. The morning and afternoon had been so wonderful, but the late afternoon and even had been miserable, no had even bothered to come in for a pie during the dinner hours. Lucy was crying hysterically, and ran up to her room with Johanna. Mrs. Lovett thought it best to leave her alone, though she was concerned by what was causing the woman so much pain. After some time Mrs. Lovett decided to ask Lucy about what was wrong. She walked up the staircase to the second floor apartment of Benjamin and Lucy Barker. Lucy wasn't anywhere in the barber shop, so Nellie checked out their bedroom, and sure enough, there was Lucy holding Johanna and crying. Mrs. Lovett walked up her and sat down next to her. "Lucy, what is it? What's wrong, why didn't Ben... Mr. Barker come home wiv you two?"
Hearing his name only made Lucy cry harder. "He's gone Nellie, Ben's gone for forever. We were taking a walk through the park when these two policemen came rushing over. One hit 'im over the head with his nightstick, and then they both carried 'im away. Judge Turpin came over to check on me, I asked what had happened, he said that Benjamin had acted foolishly and needed to face the consequences." Mrs. Lovett looked at her with disbelief, it couldn't be. Benjamin loved his family, he'd never do anything foolish enough to get him sent to jail for life. Poor Lucy would never see her husband again, poor little Johanna would grow up without a father. And she, well she'd never see the man she'd fallen in love with ever again. She'd never even told him that she loved him, it had always been a secret she hid from the world. She gave Lucy a consoling hug, telling her that everything would be alright. She walked away knowing that it was a kind and hopeful thing to say, even though she knew that it couldn't be true. She ran outside and leaned over the edge of the staircase, finding it hard to breath. She looked around frantically, not believing this horrible feeling she felt in the pit of her stomach. She ran to the far edge of the staircase and stood there, trying to catch her breath. The only that came out were shirt little gasps. Then she saw it, a pull-down ladder that led to the roof. She always loved sitting on the roof when she was a young girl and watching the sunset, sunrise and the stars at night. Sometimes she'd even walk on the very top and pretend she was a tight-rope walker at the circus, being careful not to fall over. She climbed the ladder and stood motionless when she got to the top. She had forgotten over the years how high up it was. She didn't care though, she was frightened and angry, not at Ben but at how down and out she felt. She felt helpless,. she felt lost and completely confused! All she could feel was the harsh wind, and the freezing rain threatening to burn through her skin.
She took a deep breath and walked around on the roof, not caring how crazy she might have looked to some passerby. No one would be passing by or have time to watch her with this bad weather. She stood at the edge of the building and just looked up at he sky. She reached out her arms and let the rain fall down on her skin, loving the feel of the rain on her hands. She let all of the emotions overwhelm her and tears started falling down her cheeks. Suddenly her feeling of carelessness disappeared with thoughts of the lost barber once more. Now she felt something else as she stood there, fear. She looked down and saw one of her feet danging over the end, and she swore she had that feeling. She closed her eyes tightly and tried to push the thought away, she just felt so heartbroken. She gathered some strength and forced herself to back away from the edge of the apartment. She sat herself down, sitting cross-legged. She hid her face in her hands and began sobbing. She wasn't even married to him, and she hated that he was making her feel this way. She was risking her life so that she wouldn't have to deal with the incredible heartbreak she was dealing with. Was Lucy feeling the same way? If she was she was dealing with it a bit better. Nellie wished that it would all be over soon, and that she'd be able to get over the barber. She would in time, but not for long.
So I thought that I was going to be able to fit everything into one chapter, but I can fit it into two, coolio! I hope you liked chapter 1 so far, let me know if I should continue it or throw it in a cyber fireplace. Soon you'll see why I don't want Toby to be involved with this story as I mentioned in the beginning. I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A WONDERFUL NEW YEAR, HAPPY 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Did you do anything on New Years Eve (parties, fun time, etc). My friend stayed until early afternoon after sleeping over last night. Then it was pretty simple until after dinner. I saw Sherlock Holmes, and it kicked major butt! Seriously, go RD JR.!!! Invisible Johnny as Sweeney comes up behind me pouting adorably. Sweeney: So you mean you don't love me anymore Eleanor? You'd rather love a crime solver then a crime starter? Me: Never Sweeney, you'll always be my favorite guy from London! Even if there were explosions and more combat in that, I'll always choose you in the end. Sweeney: So you won't forget I exist? Me: No flippin' way dude, I loves you forever. I mean yeah, Sherlock fighting Blackwood on the bridge was pretty darn epic, but I can love throat slitting too! I'm flexible that way Sweeners. Sweeney: Thank you Eleanor, you're a loyal fangirl. As are all of my fangirls. HUGS FOR SWEENEY! Peace out and again, happy 2010!!!!