Sixth Year

I watched the boy leave with a confused expresion on my face.

I didn't understand him!

HOW WAS THAT POSSIBLE?!

I'd know James Potter for six years now. And I couldn't understand him.

I'll give you and overview.

First and Second year - I dont think he knows my name.

Third year - Calls me names, trips me up, is generally horrid to me.

Fourth to half way through Sixth year - Insufferable twat who proffeses him undying love for me in a JOKING WAY!! As well as bullying everyone he comes across.

But then, for the last half a year he'd been generally nice.

To everyone!!

Im going to put that down to his parents dying.

There wasnt much publicity to that, it was all abit hushed up. Wonder why?

And now, as I watch him jump agiley off the Hogwarts Express I find myself confused.

I wonder where he's going to live now.

I wonder if he'll be like this next year.

"LILY!?!?" A voice breaks through my wondering.

"Are you there?!?!" It demands.

Its Meggie. My best friend. Kindof. Along with Marie and Jess.

"Me and Marie are going now."She speaks to me slowly, like you speak to a toddler.

I hug them both, and after about 5 minutes of hugging, letter writing promises and more hugging they're gone.

Jess and me walk to our parents slowly, arm in arm.

"Bye Lils." Jess whispered in my ear as she hugs me.

And then she's gone too.

Disappearing into the steam coming out of the train.

And I'm alone with my family again. My adoring family.

Another five minutes of hugging and we step through the barrier to the muggle world. The world I'm going to live in for the next 2 months.

And there's Petunia. Standing kissing the walrus man - also known as Vernon Dursley - the man she will be marrying in a months time.

Jealousy sparks through me. Im jealous of Vernon. Because my sister loves him. And she doesn't love me.

Sometimes, when I'm in bed I wonder what went wrong.

It couldn't be that I went to Hogwarts and she didnt.

Could it?

Emotion blinds me, or maybe it's tears and I find myself making excuses to my parents and dashing through the barrier quickly.

On the other side I lean against a pole and breathe deaply. I'll be Ok. I always am.

Steadied, I shrug off the pole and prepare to face her again.

But I feel something restraining me and turn to find James Potter with his hand on my arm, watching me in - what is that emotion. Not pity, not anxiosnous. Something in between. It was the look that my dad gave my mum when her mum was crying and he didnt know what to do.

Then he blinks, and it's gone and he gives me a short smile.

His hand rises to my face and wipes a tear from my eye.

It must be my imagination that it stays there a second too long.

"Have a good summer." He says quietly and he's gone, walking away.

"Prongs" I can hear Sirius calling - what was with that nickname?!? - "You coming. It's the least you can do you know. Seeing as your staying all by yourself in that big house this summer. With the house elfs."

So that was where he was going to live! Alone?!

"You know that you lot are basically going to be spending all your time there anyway."

He laughs and my stomach gives a little flip. I've never noticed how nice his laugh was. Probably cause I'm normally angry with him.

Feeling stronger, I turn and face the wall again.

Marching through I smile.

Who knows why? Because I'm wierd, I think to myself.