Hey guys okay so this is yet another first for me. I love One Tree Hill and I'm a HUGE Lucas/Peyton fan. So I though I'd give writing a OTH fanfic a try since I'm giving NCIS LA a try. I'll let you guys read on.

Discliamer: I don't own any of the charaters used in this story they belong to the CW.

INTORDUCTION*

They say that true love can conquer anything. But what if that wasn't true. What if you gave up your one true love because he had fallen in love with someone else? What if you watched him marry that person and then relized that you had given up your own heart to someone else.

Well that was how I felt as I watched the love of my life Lucas Scott marry another women. Only four years ago Lucas had asked me to marry him in that hotel room back in L.A. An I had turned him down all because I wasn't ready to married to him. Now they've been married going on seven months now and it kills me seeing them tonight. I gave up my office at Trix because it was to hard to be in the same room let alone the same buliding as Lucas and Lindsey. I stoping working and going out. I never spoke to anyone. Expect for my best friend in the whole world Brooke Davis.

*December 15*

Today it had been excatley nine months since the wedding and Lindsey was pregnant!. Brooke had boken the news to me when she home from dinner at Lucas and Lindsey's place. She had been super excited because she was going to be an aunt again. I on the other hand broke down and ran to my room. Slamming the door behind me like some teenager who had just gotten grounded by her parents.

I wasn't going to listen to anything Brooke said. I just ran inside and cried. Because it was all I could do. Lucas and Lindsey were haveing a baby. How was I suppose to deal with this. I mean it was bad enough that I losted him because of my own stupidy . But this... I couldn't handel this one bit.

I had gotten and started to pack my bag wanting to leave and never come back. When Brooke came bargging in.

"Peyton what in the hell are you doing? Are you leaving?" she asked.

"I have to Brooke. I can't stand being here seeing them married with a baby it's to much. I though I would be able to handle it but I can't I have to leave. I just can't stand it anymore. I still love him."

Brooke came over and tried to give me a hug but I backed away. An went back to packing my things there was no way in the world I was going stay here and watch the love my life be with someone else. No matter how much I wanted to be the one carrying his baby I knew that would never happen now. So I had to do what I'd promised him a few days before he got married. I let him go and now I'm keeping the promises to myself. I was leaving because I knew that letting him go was a hard promises to keep.

I'd gotten one bag packed when Brooke finally broke the silences between us.

" I wish you'd stay..." She said.

"I'm sorry Brooke. But I can't. I just can't it's to hard." I said.

I finished packing my bags loaded up my car and left the house. As I got on the road I didn't bother to look back. This time I was going to leave Tree Hill for ever and I wasn't going to come back. Lucas had move on with a family of his own. An it was time I did to.

An so I did.

*Chapter 1 5 years later*

It's been five years since I left Tree Hill. An I don't regret doing it at all. Sure I miss Brooke ,Haley and Nathan. But as for as they go I don't miss anyone else. I still think about him from time to time. But I've moved on with my life. I moved my lable from Tree Hill here to L.A RedBedroom records was now one the most popular recording companys in the country.

Of course Mia had followed me out to LA so we could keep working together. I loved that girl she is like the little sister I never had before. I had signed some more people on to and even Haley had signed with me to cut an album. I was never more happy in my life.

Today started out like any other day. I walked into my office and smiled at my assisant Kristi who walked into my office right behind me.

"SO Kristi what is on the plan for the today?" I asked her.

"You have a recording session with Mia at 3. Then at 5 you have a early dinner with the guy from Sad records and that is it." she said.

"Sounds like a slow day."

Kristi just nodded and went back to her destk. While I started surfering ther web. I ordered a few things from Clothes over Bros. When I heard my intercom come on. It was Kristi telling me I had a call. So I picked up not expecting any calls today at all.

"This is Peyton."

"Peyton it's Haley. Look we need your help."

"Haley what is going on? Did something happen to Brooke?"

"Brooke is fine. It's Lucas . His... a mess Peyton. It turns out that Linsdey only married him for his money from the book and then it turned out the baby wasn't even his."

"Look Haley... I... Lucas made his choice when he said " I do." It's to late for us."

"Peyton please you are the only person who can talk to him. Please Peyton. he needs you."

"I'm sorry Haley I can't."

I sighed as I slammed the phone down. How dare Haley call me and beg me to return home all because Lucas and Lindsey borke up and the baby wasn't his. What did she want me to do abut it? I was completey lost in my thoughs when Kristi came over the intercom again and told me I had another call. I knew it was probabley Haley calling back so I told her to just take a message. It wasn't that I didn't want help Lucas it's just I didn't know if I could after leaving Tree Hill and coming back to L.A my had finally come full circle.

Okay granted it was with out Lucas. But I had been with out him before. Why couldn't I... I was brought out of my though when Kristi came ove the intercome again saying I had another call. I figured it was Haley yet again calling back for a second time so I took the call.

" Look Haley I'm not coming home or helping him alright." I said.

" why aren't you getting on a plane back home like right now! it was Brooke.

"Brooke it's like I told Haley why should I come back there is ntohing I can do for him." I told her.

"Peyton he keeps asking for you."

"Yeah well what do you want me to do? I can't drop everything and come home." I told her.

"Peyton please he needs you. "

"Alright fine Brooke I'll think about it."

"Thank you peyton." Brooke said.

i didn't even repley I just hung up and slammed the phone down again. As I ran my hand threw my hair sighing. If I did decided to go back home then I"m just giving up and for all I know I could get my heart broken for a third time again. An I don't know if I could go threw that again. I don't think I could handel my heart being broken into a million peices again.

An I didn't need to go rushing home just because Lucas needs me and the she bitch is gone . But then again. Maybe Lucas does me and I should go. home.

I have no clue here I'm lost someone help me!

Okay explation time. I'm writing this story in the way of Peyton writing a journal so that she can get her feelings out. I know it seems stuipd But I like the way it's turning out. Anyways i'm just going to post this chapter until I see how you guys respond to the story. If you want me to keep going with it I'll update again as soon as I can . If not i'll talk it down. So let me know what you think. Later everyone. ~ JOhn's Country Girl.