Harry Potter was sitting at his desk in his room at Number 4, Privet Drive. He had just finished his fifth year at his school Hogwarts. He was still very shaken and very depressed. For not a week ago he traveled to the Department of Mysteries to save his godfather who died trying to help him. He felt responsible for everything. His friends getting hurt and his godfather's death. And then he learned that he was either to be murdered or become a murderer. Then on top of that when he got to his 'house' he got a letter from his headmaster saying that he was going to be picking him up in a week to take him to his godfather's old house. So that's what he was waiting for. For him to go to another different hell. Not one where he is beaten and used as a slave. No this one would just cause him emotional pain. And he felt he couldn't take it. He tried to escape he tried to leave but he didn't even get out the front door with his trunk before he was put back in by his fathers last living friend Remus Lupin. He needed to talk to someone. He tried to talk to order members while he was walking but the only one that would talk back was Tonks the one day she was guard. And she hadn't been again since then. Harry's own friends were no help. Every time he sent Ron, Hermione, or Remus a letter they told him that 'Dumbledore knows best' or 'We can't really say anything now.' He even sent a letter to Tonks but never got a letter back. It felt like everyone turned against him. He shook his head to clear those thoughts when he saw the lights out side darken. He looked at his clock and saw that it was midnight the time Dumbledore said he'd be picking him up. He picked up one end of his unpacked trunk and lugged it down the stairs. He got to the bottom right as the door bell rang. He opened it to see Dumbledore, Lupin, and Mad-eye Moody.
"Good evening Mr. Potter. Do you have everything in your trunk?" Dumbledore asked Harry nodded his head.
"Where's your wand?" asked Moody as Harry pulled it from his back pocket Moody growled. "What did I tell you last time I was picked up here. Its not a save place to keep your wand." Harry gave him a dirty look but instead of putting his wand in his pocket he took a leaf out of Luna's book and put it behind his right ear. And walked right past Remus to Dumbledore who had the portkey that would take him to his new hell.
"The portkey will take us to the library. You have some people waiting to talk to you." He with a twinkle in his eye.
"What ever." Harry said and grabbed the string that Dumbledore offered. After he made sure his trunk was locked so it would open when he landed Dumbledore tapped the string and Harry felt a pull on his pelvis. After he disappeared Remus, Moody, and Dumbledore apperated to the front of Number twelve Grimmauld Place. Harry landed on the library floor. As soon as he stood up his sight was blocked by a mass of brown hair. "Let go Hermione." He said and she dropped her arms. She and Ron were staring at him with shocked expressions as he picked up his trunk and carried it out of the room. Instead of going to the room that he and Ron shared the year before he went to the room that he knew use to belong to Sirius. When he opened the door he was surprised to see that every thing in the room was painted Gryffindor colors. He locked the door then dragged his trunk to the end of the bed and sat down on it and started crying. He curled up and fell asleep. He was woke some time later by some one pounding on the door and calling his name. When he opened the door Hermione and Ron tried to walk in but Harry stopped them.
"What do you want?" he asked while trying to keep his puffy eyes form looking at them.
"Harry we just want to talk." Said Hermione
"Just want to talk?" he asked
"Yeah mate. We just want to talk." Said Ron
"Yea well I don't want to talk. When I did you just basically told me that your already kissing Dumbledore's arse just like the rest of the bloody order." He said coldly.
"What are you talking about Harry? All we said in our letter was that Dumbledore kn…" she was cut off by Harry.
"Knows best. Yeah that's what the ARSE KISSERS OF DUMBLEDORE SAY." He yelled
"Mate you need to calm down." Said Ron his face turning red
"Sod off, both of you." He said and went to shut the door.
"Apologize." Ron said as he pushed the door open his face turning a deeper red and Hermione looked ready to cry.
"SOD OFF RON." Harry shouted as he pushed Ron out of the door so he could close it. But when Harry pushed him Ron pulled back a fist and hit Harry right in the jaw. Harry staggered back but didn't fall. Ron's red face instantly turned white as he realized what he did and Hermione had a hand covering her mouth. Harry's green eyes turned black as he faced Ron, forgetting his wand lying on the bedside table he ran at Ron. He tackled him to the ground and punched him in the face. When Ron pushed him off he jumped to his feet and faced Ron who also stood up. Harry swung and connected with his jaw. When he swung again blood came from Ron's now broken nose. But Harry lost control. Taking out all his anger. His anger on Bellatrix, Lucius Malfoy, Voldemort, Dumbledore and the prophecy that he learned about. Soon people heard the noise and ran up the stairs. Harry paid no attention as he swung at Ron again. But Ron was pushed out of the way as Remus tried to get to him. So he hit Remus who fell to the floor. Harry who felt anger towards him as well got on him and hit him in the nose. He felt something hit him but paid no attention to it. He heard someone say stupefyand felt the same thing hit him. But nothing happened. He just hit Remus again when he heard a few people say the stunning spell and he fell unconscious.
"What happened here?" Dumbledore asked the crowd that was surrounding Harry a few minutes after he was stunned. Molly was the first to speak.
"We were all downstairs and heard a commotion we cam up here and saw Harry beating up my Ronny. Remus pushed Ron out of the way to stop Harry but Harry went after him as well. So Kingsley sent a stunner and it didn't affect him. So Moody sent one as well and nothing happened. So they went together and he fell unconscious." She said quickly. "How will we punish him? That kind of behavior shall not be tolerated." She said. She may like Harry but nobody hurts her babies. Dumbledore was about to answer but was cut off.
"Sod off Weasley." Someone said and they all looked down at Harry who was trying and failing to stand up. Tonks broke away from the crowd and walked forward to help him. "Thanks Tonks." He said to the young Auror with black hair with pink strips as he staggered into Sirius's room with her help. People tried to follow but Tonks closed the door and locked it.
"Harry what happened? I know you wouldn't just attack your friend. Although it did look like you wanted to go after Remus." She said as she helped him on the bed.
"It's a long story." He said with a sigh. "But to sum it up. I'm tired of every ones shit. When ever I wrote to anyone they just told me 'Dumbledore knows best.' 'We can't really say anything now.' Then they try to act all buddy-buddy with me. And Remus wouldn't ever say anything when he was on guard" He said as he looked at her. "Why didn't you ever come stand guard again? I had no one to talk to. No one that could talk back. You never even sent me any letters back." He said a hurt look on his face "That was worse then the bloody stupid replies from those I thought were my best mates."
"They just never told me to go again and I never got any letters Harry." She said with a confused look on her face
"What do you mean you never got any letters? I sent one out every day." He said
"I'm sorry Harry but I never got any." She said
"Where were you staying?" he asked
"I've been staying here the whole week you were there." She said
"That explains why Hedwig got four letters sent so quickly. But it doesn't explain what happened." He said as he rubbed his jaw. He then reached over and grabbed his wand. "You might as well open the door so they can try to lecture me." He told her with a small smile. So she walked to the door and unlocked it. Moody was the first through as he saw her unlock it followed by Dumbledore, Hermione, Ron who had a black eye bloody nose and fat lip, then Remus who also had a bloody nose, then Molly. Everyone else just stood out by the door to listen. "Wow didn't know I packed that kind of punch" he said looking at Ron's face. Tonks had to hide her laugh with a cough.
"You think your bloody funny Potter." Ron said
"Yea weasel I did." He said knowing how that name made Ron mad. And as expected his face turned red. "Now what the bloody hell do you want?" he asked
"What happened Harry? Why did you find it necessary to beat up Ronald and Remus?" He asked
"Well did the weasel tell you how he hit me first? Or did he forget that." He said
"You pushed me Potter." Ron said
"To get you out of my room." Harry said "And thanks Hermione." He said
"F-for what?" she asked
"Oh for not telling them how I hit Ron because he hit me first. So what do you kiss his arse as well as Dumbledore's?" he asked but instantly regretted it as she started to cry and ran from the room. He was about to go after her but Ron beat him to it. "When is Sirius's will reading." He asked
"We don't know no one has got a letter yet." Dumbledore said with a twinkle in his eyes.
"Right, well if that's all I'm still tired so if you could leave now." He said without looking at Remus once.
"You have not told why you hit Remus Harry. I understand with Mr. Weasley but why Remus." Dumbledore asked.
"Maybe it's because when I need someone to talk to he never would. Or how bout because every time I sent him a letter the reply was 'I can't say anything now.' Or my favorite 'Dumbledore knows best.' Does that answer your question." He said wile pointing out of the door. "Now if you'll excuse me I'm tired." he said and everyone but Remus left. He walked over to the bed and looked down at Harry. Who try as he might couldn't help the tears falling down his cheeks.
"Hey cub." He said and Harry looked over to him. "Harry I'm sorry. I know your hurting, I was trying to be tough about this. That's why I didn't talk about. And about the letters I'm sorry but I found Dumbledore was checking our mail before it left. I used a spell on it that should have canceled after a day so that Dumbledore couldn't find it. I thought you would look at them more than once. But it's obvious you didn't. I'm sorry." He said before turning around to leave.
"Remus, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to go off on you like that. I just lost control when Ron hit me. I was taking it out on him and when I saw you that small rage at you was made to seem enormous. I'm sorry." He said tears streaming down his cheeks as he stood up. He stumbled and almost fell but Remus caught him. Harry put his arms around the man to give one of his first hugs. After he released him he wiped his eyes.
"You should sit down cub." Remus said
"Cub, why are you calling me cub?" he asked
"It seems that the wolf inside me considers you one of its pack." He said softly "I'll stop if you want."
"NO. I mean no its ok." Said Harry "But I need to go find Hermione and apologize." He said as he wiped his eyes again.
"You sure I could just send her up here." Remus said
"No just go on down I'll find her and be down there in a while to apologize to Mrs. Weasley as well." Harry said. Remus patted Harry on the shoulder and walked out the door. Harry fell down on the bed. Getting hit with two stunners isn't fun Harry thought to himself. He then stood up and walked out of the door. He went to the place he knew he would most likely find her. The library. And sure enough she was sitting in a chair with a book in her hands but the book wasn't moving. She had tears in her eyes and she sat there looking at the same page. He slowly walked into the room and around the chair. She looked up but when she saw him she looked away. "Hermione." He said "Hermione please look at me. I'm sorry. I was just angry I didn't mean what I said to you." He said
"Wh-what about Ron." She asked not looking at him
"That bloody arse." He said "When he apologizes. I will forgive him. He did hit me first. Why didn't you tell anyone." He asked looking into her brown eyes.
"I don't know." She said
"Alright, I have to go now." He said as he got up and walked away. He went down the stairs and found Mrs. Weasley in the Kitchen making food. So he walked up to her. "Sorry for what I said earlier Mrs. Weasley." He said and walked away before she could say anything. He walked back up stairs and into one of the sitting rooms to be alone. But he found that he wasn't alone. There sitting on the couch crying was Tonks. She looked up as the door closed and tried to wipe her eyes.
"Wotcher Harry." She said
"Tonks what's wrong" asked Harry as he sat down next to her.
"I just miss him s-so much." Tonks cried out. Harry put an arm around her and she scooted closer to him. She put her head down on his shoulder and cried.
"I know I miss him to." Harry said. "You were his favorite relative you know. He told me so himself. And its all my fault he isn't here right now making fun of Remus for getting his arse kicked by a 15 year old." He said as tears of his own starting sliding down his face.
"Harry it's not your fault. If any ones its mine. I was fighting Aunt Bellatrix before it happened. If I had taken her out he would still be here." She said
"No. It's not your fault. If I had studied Occlumency I wouldn't have had the vision and went there. You guys wouldn't have had to come after me." He argued back.
"Lets just say we are both to blame then." She said
"Ok. But I still think it's me." He said earning himself a light slap to the arm. They then spent the next half-hour talking about Sirius until they were called down to eat dinner. When they entered the room they were smiling and laughing. Every one gave them strange looks which just made them laugh more. After dinner they went back up to the sitting room with Remus where they spent the rest of the night telling stories about Sirius. They all ended up falling asleep in the room together.