Alice

I sat down next to Jasper and tried to find something; anything. I couldn't see her. Edward would have killed me if he knew that I was searching for Bella's future despite my promise not to. I couldn't help it though. It had been a year since we left her. Her 19th birthday is in a few days and Jasper has buried
himself in guilt that I can't even save him from. Everyone is different now.
Esme has given up decorating and began following Carlisle in his hobby of reading ad rereading anything he can get his hands on. Emmett doesn't make jokes nearly as often. He never jokes with Edward anymore; not that anyone could make Edward smile at this point anyway. No one but Bella.
Even Rosalie misses her. Well, not so much misses Bella; she misses the way things use to be. She's furious that our entire family is in such a broken morbid state over a human that she never liked to begin with. Try as she might, even she can't hide the fact that missed the happiness that Bella brought
to the entire family.

My poor Jasper has to feel everyone's sadness and worry along with his own guilt. Even after a year I could not convince him that what had happened at Bella's 18th birthday party wasn't his fault. I was careful never to let him know that I felt it was mine. Some psychic I was! I didn't see it coming,
and my husband could have killed my best friend and it would take every member in our family to keep Edward from killing Jasper himself if that had happened. Jasper would have let him if it came to that. The entire night was my fault. She begged not to have a party but I was so entranced by my smug
belief that I knew what was best that I didn't listen. I helped break this family. I wasn't completely to blame however. Though Jasper shouldn't blame himself for his lack of control, Edward should be blamed for his lack of common sense.
Edward was always too quick to jump to conclusions and the conclusion of leaving Bella was the worst he had ever made. He wouldn't listen to any of us. Our pleas fell on deaf, stubborn ears.

Restless as always, I jumped up from my seat and announced that I was going shopping. I didn't even bother to ask anyone to come with me. I wanted to be alone. I drove Emmett's jeep to the nearest mall. Nothing caught my interest as a passed the stores. Almost everything I saw would have looked
beautiful on our Bella. Close to giving up and heading back to my home full of depressed vampires, I noticed a crowd pouring into the bookstore.
Curiosity got the best of me and I walked in, only half aware of where I was going.
"I read all of her work that was published in various poetry books but this is the first one that is completely by her! I can't wait to get it home!"

" She so young and so talented. If I had her talent I wouldn't have ended up as a waitress working the graveyard shift, I'll tell you that!" I another woman joked.
"I wish she did book signings..."
"She doesn't even do interviews! Even with her book being a bestseller, she's apparently very
private!" I reached over and grabbed a copy of one of the books entitled 'Broken Twilight'. By the sound of the title, I didn't think this book would hold much fascination for me or any other members of my family but just as I was about to put it back I saw her name.

By Isabella Swan

I froze for a second rereading the name over and over again. I flipped the book over, almost desperate to find out that it was another Isabella Swan; not the one that I missed so desperately. Then I saw her picture. She was pale, with fuller pink lips, longer and darker wavy brown hair, and dark
brown eyes that didn't resemble the ones she had when we last saw her. She looked stunning and the dark blue sweater she wore in the picture hugged her upper body enough to show that her figure had matured. There was no doubting it. Bella was a vampire.

Edward

I listened to Alice announce to Jasper that she was going shopping. I knew it was just a ploy to get out of the house. She had been shopping three times this week, which wasn't out of the ordinary for Alice, but what was is that each time she came back, she was empty handed. It takes a lot for Alice not
to find joy in buying new clothes. It only increased my blame. My actions destroyed the happiness of my entire family, most of all my favorite sister. We barely even spoke now; I barely spoke to anyone. I had joined by family, staying with the Denali clan just two months ago. Apparently, Alice reported that my self loathing was keeping me from hunting after I had gone hungry for months. Even though, not feeding wouldn't kill me, it worried Esme and I couldn't stand to cause her anymore pain so I returned when Alice came to find me.

Esme and Carlisle were the only ones thats minds were full of nothing but happy thoughts when they saw me. I still remember each distinctive thought every other person had.

'Look at him. He's broken and it's all my fault. If only I had been able to control myself! One drop of blood ...'

'There's no doubting it now. We should have stayed in Forks. I should have wrestled him to the ground until he came to his sense about leaving. He might be faster than me but after I would catch him, I could have held him there until ...'

'He's filthy. All of the moan and groan for a plain human. Edward really has lost his mind. Makes all of us move just so we can watch each other pine over a frail little girl that probably has moved on by now.'

Even though Rosalie's thoughts made me close to lashing out at her, it was Alice's that hurt the most. She was speaking directly to me through them.

'I should left you in the pile of mud and dirt that I found you in. If it wasn't for Esme's worry, I would have!' Before she could think of something else, she dashed up the stairs. Jasper, sensing his wife's anger, flew after her. I snapped back to the current time with me lying face down on my couch. The Denali clan left a few months ago to visit some friends and get away from the depressing mood that we brought with us when we came. Only Tanya stayed behind and everyone was aware of why.

"Edward," she called using her most seductive voice. It did nothing to my resolve. I wanted her to leave. I hated when she intruded into my room and disturbed the little peace I had. I could see in her mind, that she had been planning on what she wanted to say for some time now but she was careful to
not let me hear it through her thoughts.

"Yes Tanya." I said, not lifting my head off the couch.

"Edward, do you think this behavior is helping anyone?" she began. I started to get a clear picture of what she was talking about.

"I understand that you're sad, all of you are," Sad? That was the understatement of the century! I left my beautiful, innocent Bella. I told her that she wasn't wanted and left her! She was my world and I abandoned her. I was in pure agony. My plans to venture to Italy and find those that would put an end to by meaningless existence was always foiled by Alice who would always see my plans and stop me.

Once, when she saw my plans a little too late and I came close to succeeding, she phoned in a bomb threat to the airport. After that, no one was able to board any planes. She made it very clear after that, if I planned on letting the Voultori destroy me, I would be allowing them to destroy the entire family because they wouldn't let me go without a fight . No matter how much I loathed myself, I couldn't let my family pay anymore for my pain then they already were. That put an end to my suicide plans.

"But you haven't even tried to better this situation. You know your family is falling apart by worrying about you. You would let them remain like this for centuries?" her rhetorical question made me imagine my family stuck in this state of depression for another hundred years. Each of the sadden faces flashed in my head, further adding to my grief.

"What would you have me do, Tanya?" I almost pleaded. I could tell that whatever plan she had devised was working.
"Try to move on. I know, it would not be easy, but the effort would help. If they saw you trying to be happy with someone else, it would give them hope. Esme especially." She threw Esme in, no doubt knowing the she was the one who worried the most about me and that amplified my guilt everyday. But I had no desire to be with anyone else; no desire to even think of it. Tanya must have sensed my refusal.

"The best advantage we have, is having the rest of forever. It would take less than that for her memories to stop haunting you, and for you to be happy again." With that sentence, I was quickly at my feet and now staring at her since the first time she walked in. She interpreted my sudden movement as
her getting through to me but it was the opposite.

"I-could-live-forever-and-never-forget-her!" I said each word clearly so she would make no mistake in how sincere I was. She took a step back, seeing my anger but found her voice again quickly.

"Edward, I could make you happy if you let me try. And then they would all be happy again too. Being with your own kind means never having to leave in fear of killing them." I hissed menacingly at her. She trying to remedy her mistake.

"Don't you want everyone to be happy again, including you?" Her mind flashed to happy faces of everyone, including mine to show me how blissful it would be. I looked at her closely. She was indeed beautiful. Her strawberry blonde hair hung in curls gently caressing her flawless skin. She was wearing a black see-through lace dress that left nothing to the imagination. She saw me appraising her and got the wrong impression, yet again. The corners of her mouth went up as she smiled seductively.

Her mind went over the various positions we could be in on the couch. I tried to not let her see my disgust. Even though she was using the family in her plan to fulfill her goal of kindling a relationship that would never be, I knew she really did care about us deeply so I would not attempt to let her know
exactly how I felt.

"Tanya, you're beautiful and you know that," I began. Of course Tanya knew she was beautiful. Her thoughts were almost as vapid as Rosalie's at some points.

"But my family knows just as well as I do that there is no one I could bring myself to even try to be happy with...but her." I saw Tanya's hurt but I knew I had to continue to end any further plans of hers.

"I love her still and I couldn't betray the love of my existence with anyone, even someone as wonderful as you. You deserve better, someone who was focused on your beauty when they look at you and not thinking of someone else's." At first my word cut her deep. The thought of me seeing Bella
when I looked at her was insulting to her. But then she analyze my words carefully and construed a new plan.

'Maybe he can't betray his heart, but he said nothing about his body! 'I shook my head at her thoughts.

"Tanya," I said as patiently as I could.
"I'm hers, heart, BODY, and..." I was about to say soul but since I doubted the existence of my soul, I didn't think it would be accurate. If I had a soul, it would be Bella's, just like she offer to give me hers that day I left her.

"You can have it!" I remembered her screaming in a last attempt to get me to stay. Tearless sobs were about to form in my chest and Tanya saw my pain. For the first time in her life, she knew that she couldn't have every man that she wanted and the epiphany was too much for her to bare. She ran from the house, not bothering to change her clothes. She ran far enough for me to not hear her thoughts. I felt disappointed that I had caused another person sadness but I knew that Tanya would have to understand eventually. Just as I was about to return to wallowing in my grief on the couch I heard Alice's thoughts as she quickly drove up to the house.

'I can't believe this! I can't believe this! I don't care if he agrees with me or not! I'm going back to my best friend NOW! '
She yelled from outside, knowing that we would all be able to hear her even if she whispered.
"FAMILY MEETING NOW! AND THAT MEANS YOU TOO EDWARD!" I rarely ever heard Alice so angry and it took everyone by surprise. No sooner than she said it, everyone was by the door as she flew inside. She had a bag in her hand filled with books. Before saying anything else, she threw each for us a copy of the book. I noticed she threw my copy particularly harder and aimed for my head.
"You called us down here for a reading party?" Emmett joked just Alice shot him a look that told him she wasn't in the mood and he quickly closed his mouth. Jasper tried to send waves of calm through the room but Alice stopped him with another firm look.

"Look at the back!" she ordered. Everyone flipped the book over. If my heart had been beating, it would have stopped right then and there!