Satellite
A/N- First Star Trek story! Just a series of one-shots and such. I take requests! But keep in mind, I'm a little new to the fandom and I haven't seen STID (I know how it ends though -3- ) or the TV series.
Star Trek does not belong to me and neither do the song lyrics below!
My mind is running empty
In the search for someone else
Who doesn't look right through me
It's all just static in my head
Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite?
-Astronaut by Simple Plan
He was Jim Kirk, the slut of Riverside, Iowa. He was a "no one."
He had no true family (in the sense of caring about and loving one another and being supportive)- his dad had died right after he had been born. His mom was constantly working off-planet, leaving him and his brother Sam with their asshole of a step-father, Frank. Sam received the chance to escape (Jim did too, but he decided he shouldn't kill himself along with- his dad's, not Frank's- car he drove off the edge of the cliff at the end of town when he was 13. Maybe he had something to live for. Or maybe he wasn't exactly fascinated with the idea of dying), and he took it.
No other members of his family that he knew of populated Earth, and, secretly, he wasn't okay with that.
Then he had no friends (lost them all when he began to drink alcohol and have sex), and neither did his mom- except for Christopher Pike, who had always kept an eye on Jim, but from a distance. He didn't know that Jim was beaten by Frank, or that he was planning on killing himself by going off the cliff.
So Jim was lonely.
Lonely like a satellite.
He had basically no one- so he slept with girls. He was good looking, they were good looking, so why the hell not? They enjoyed it, he enjoyed it, and he didn't feel so alone with a girl wrapped around him all night. She might of been a stranger, she might of been an acquaintance, but she was someone who at least somewhat wanted him, and hell, that was enough for Jim. Somewhat was much better than not at all, much like his mother, his brother, and especially his step-father proved.
Not many girls turned him down, so when Uhura did, he was legitimately hurt. He didn't let it show- he wasn't a Kirk for nothing. Kirk's didn't let their emotions escape very easily. 12-Minute-Captain George Kirk was notorious for that, Sam was a professional at the blank look, and the hell if Jim wasn't going to be good at pretending he didn't give a shit about anything, especially being alone, even just for a night.
So what if he got turned down by the hottest girl in the bar, possibly in Iowa? So what if he got the shit beaten out of him for that? Pike came to his rescue, talked him into joining Starfleet and putting his high intellect to better use other than picking up random girls and drinking himself dead. He met his best friend, his brother-figure, his damn doctor and caretaker. He commanded the best damn crew any Captain could ask for- Sulu, Chekov, Scotty, Uhura, Bones...
And of course, Spock.
He wasn't alone anymore. He was with his real family, the family that cared about and loved each other, that had each other's backs, that teased and joked, bickered and argued, forgave and forgot.
That made him a bit thankful that his life used to suck so much, because without his shitty backstory, he wouldn't be sitting in the Captain's chair of the USS Enterprise, watching the crew as they worked diligently. He wouldn't feel so proud that this is how he ended up. Jim Kirk wasn't a "No One" anymore.
He was now a somebody, and a very important one at that.
And one very specific crew member made an effort to remind him of that whenever he began to feel like a satellite again.