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Summary: After Clare and Eli's break up, and her Mother becoming an abusive alcoholic, Clare isn't sure she can hold up, so she turns to a darker path of cutting, drugs, and alcohol, but can an unusual person get her back on her feet? ClarexDrew, ClarexBianca(friendship)
Everybody Screams: Prologue- Coming undone
"You little bitch!" Clare's Mom screamed at her after downing her glass bottle of vodka and threw it at Clare, it hitting her retreating form in her stomach, shattering into hundreds of pieces, a few bigger pieces sticking out of Clare's now bleeding stomach as she winced when the bottle made contact. Blood was staining the front of Clare's white blouse as her Mother stomped towards Clare while screaming, "It's your fault he left! IT'S YOUR FAULT YOUR FATHER'S GONE!" Her volume making Clare whimper.
"No it isn't!" Clare whispered, tears streaking her now pale face. Clare's big blue eyes that normally were filling with joy and happiness was now filling with sorrow and pain, her normally shiny, curly, caramel hair fell flat and lifeless, and her normally creamy colored skin was pale and ivory, dark circles under Clare's once livening eyes. Helen glared at Clare before pulling back her fist and hitting her daughter repeatedly in the cheek, yelling, "Bitch! Bitch! Bitch!" Over and over again, making Clare wince as her Mother's breath hit her like a punch in a gut, it smelt gross and full of alcohol.
Clare stood there, letting her Mother hit her, and staggered back after she was done, "GO TO YOUR ROOM!" Her Mother screamed in fury, out of breath from hitting her so much, and Clare nodded and muttered, "Gladly…" Before climbing up the stair the best she could while trying to refrain from touch her glass filled stomach, not wanting to push the glass in any deeper then it already was.
Ever since her parents divorce, everything had gone down hill. Her once seemingly perfect relationship with Eli took a messy turn as he started getting oddly obsessive, him always needing to talk to her, him always needing to see her all the time. If Clare even smiled at another guy Eli would get mad at her and claim she was going to break up with him, which wasn't true, until he began manipulating her. He even crashed his car, risking his life, just so she would go see him. Fearing for the health of him (both physical and mental), Clare broke up with him, she truly did love him and just wanted him to get better, but no more then a week later did he begin to date the new girl Imogen; the fake, wannabe. After that Clare's life was hard enough but then her Father bailed out on her, moving out of Canada and into the States to live with a ditzy blonde girl he met at the bar, causing Clare's Mom, Helen, to crack and become a drunk, child abuser! She even blamed Clare that her Father left. A mere four months ago Clare's happy, cliché, TV show family was fine, but now everything was undone and messed up. Clare could barely take in everything, and her herself began to crack.
Clare had lost faith in God, her family, and her friends, but most importantly, Clare had lost faith in herself.
She had no one to turn to, Eli was obviously gone, Adam with him, Alli was to busy with Jenna, KC, and their baby to care about Clare, and Darcy was gone in Africa. Clare was alone. She was hurt, confused, and alone and had no idea what to do. She couldn't handle it anymore.
Clare was slowly coming undone. She couldn't even concentrate on anything anymore; she recently just failed an English test, one of her best subjects. But school was the last thing on her mind. Clare felt herself slowly falling to the cold, hard ground with no way of coming up, every second, and every minute was just a reminder of her failing. From all the pain and hurt Clare searched and searched for one thing and one thing only. Relief. Relief from all the stress, relief from all the pain, relief from life. And that's why she turned to cutting.
Clare had been feeling so numb lately from everything… everything felt surreal, as if it were just one long nightmare that she was going to wake up from, but Clare gave up on that hope a long time ago. The line between reality and dreams began to blur for Clare, and the only way she could tell the difference was from the pain always erupting in her stomach, but even that became to hazy to tell. She knew she had to feel anything to convince herself if it were real, and the only thing that she can induce on herself was pain… so that's what she turned to. Cutting gave her the relief she wanted…. The relief she needed, she didn't care if it messed with her physically or mentally, it helped her deal.
Clare Edwards was lost.
And she had no idea how to get out.
A/N: Hi everyone! Sorry this was so short... it was just the prologue so I promise that the next chapter will be longer! I hope everyone likes it so far... I really do like ElixClare but I also really like ClarexDrew, they would just be so cute together! Drew won't show up tell chapter three though, and the story will start off with Clare turning towards a darker path, and then Drew comes. Loved it? Hated it? Please review! :))))