Me
What is in your mind?
Do you hear what I think?
Are we both just blind?
x
Need to find the missing link
Want to feel what isn't there
Let the sorrow start to sink
Pretend I don't really care
x
Spinning off the table top
Falling through the mist
Lost control without a stop
Forgotten goals on a list
x
Are you in there?
Cold the touch
Frozen fire
Not too much
x
Move the rhythm
Shy the beats
Light pours down
In silver sheets
x
Hug the rainbow
Wish for the star
Leave yourself
Can't get too far
...It's who you are
... ...Who are you?
x
Does this make sense?
What reason why?
All I want to do
Is try for a high
x
A high of self-esteem
A high of belief
A high of feeling
Followed by relief
x
Flowing through
A valley's grass
Vibrant colours
Seem to clash
...Don't want to crash
... ...In the sudden flash
x
I see the place
Where I can rest
I feel cool crystals
Calm my face
...Here in this place
... ...There's no disgrace
x
I falter, stumble
Out of comfort
My shaken breaths
Express no lies
x
I'm in denile
Try to hide
What gives away
My true inside
x
The tears that stain
My face are there
For me to bear
x
You have to share
Because you know
I need to know
You care
x
What does it matter?
Why ask me why?
Don't leave me hanging
You know myself
...Must I know me too?
... ...To be true to you
...Would you be true to me?
x
I'm lost right now
I'm losing more
I've even lost
The reason for
x
Help me through
This troubled time
Space and time
...Without a trace of existence
... ...What exists in love?
x
I can taste
The melody soaring
I know I can
Join in thought pouring
x
Details of whose life I live
Gaining friendship
While I give
x
This life is mine
And it will shine
When I release
My torment.
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Author's Notes: I actually wrote this quite a while ago (September 25th, 2002), as a random "thought poem", or free flow. At some point while I was writing it, I thought of Helga, and the direction of the poem changed, or rather, I had a focus to follow instead of the randomness that it had started as. I decided to post the poem over at fictionpress (under my name Lunar Eclipse1) in a story that I had been writing (but have since removed). Later, I felt that the poem deserved a place here at fanfiction net because of the Helga influence and existence in the poem. It took me a while to find the poem again, from my large pile of papers in my closet (the computer I had first written it on was fried), but I found it, and now it's here. Oh, and the "x" 's and ellipses (...) are there for aesthetic spacing purposes. And I don't own Hey Arnold, as you all very well know…