My enemy
The light in my eyes is fading
Being replaced with emptiness
With darkness I'm shading
My soul's cry, trying it to suppress
Searching for the inner core
Looking for a sense in all this
I tried to remember how I felt before
Tried to remember bliss
Pain and sorrow fills my day
A restlessness keeping me awake
Not able to halt my sadness in any way
Why can't it stop for heaven's sake?
Sinking deeper into my depression
There is no way out of my personal hell
It is time to make my last confession
My soul I'm being ready to sell
Tears streaming down my face
No longer anything my day to light
All I want is to leave this earthly place
I want to go down; I won't put up a fight
Nothing can reach me in my despair
Ignoring all of life's generous gifts
My heart is not being able to be repaired
I cannot imagine that I would be missed
I flee into artificial happiness
Soothing my anguish for a short time
Until it all comes rushing back and doubles my stress
Into a state in which the walls I'm ready to climb
The flames are engulfing me
I close my eyes for eternal rest
My failures I don't want any longer to see
Their burden lies too heavy on my chest
I've closed myself off until there is nothing left
The voices inside my head are getting unbearable
Between me and my loved ones an unbridgeable cleft
Me being on earth can't get more terrible
The downward spiral I am not willing to stop
Ignoring the attempts to help me out of my misery
I'm acting in everything over the top
Laughing and crying, this is no longer me
Desperation makes my world go dim
Imprisoned I ignore his pursue
Then all I can notice is him
And his words: I love you!
This is the last push which leads to my epiphany
So in the end I'm finally able to see
My life is lying in debris
The first step of recovery
Is the realization that: My only enemy is me