A/N: I kind of redid this chapter..I just changed the poem at the end to a song. So, read it again if you want..I also added another chapter..
Sitting in the backseat of my car, looking at the star filled sky through the window..I cried. My small body in a ball, rocking back-and-forth on the seat, thinking of the one person I truly loved..The day was scilent..It was scilent for him...It was too deafening! He didn't deserve this! It wasn't fair! The tears coming from my blue eyes, burnt my pale skin..My raven colored hair was mangled and messy..When it was usually sleek and tidy..I didn't care about my appearence anymore..All I cared about was him.
Before last year he had really never meant anything to me, you know? But, then one day...It was the end of the year dance for my school "Horace Green Prep"..We were ending 9th grade..During one certain slow song, he walked over to me and asked to dance..I accepted, within the shock of the moment. Our bodies met on the dance floor, the music softly playing around us..I didn't get why a person like him would want to dance with a person like me..It was kind of confusing, but I didn't care..Our eyes suddenly met, blue with brown..He slowly leaned in an kissed my lips..Everyone around us disappear, we were alone in our own little world. Our feet were gliding on the floor, It was like we we floating on air...
"Freddy? Why me? Why didn't you ask someone else to dance?" I asked
"I don't know..Something just told me to go over and ask you, Tinkerbelle" Freddy said
Thinking of our love after that night brought even more pain to me..Why the hell did he have to go? Freddy didn't deserve to die! He was to young...Too beautiful. Things never fucking work out for me, just when my life had hit a high, It had to sink down like the Titanic.
It was a cold April night, the rain was pouring around us..But, we didn't care, we were to infatuated with each other. I jumped onto Freddy, sending us tumbling into the middle of the road..We stayed there, rain mixing into our kiss..We didn't even notice the truck coming..I heard the screaming of a child, looking up I saw the truck not even twenty feet away from our intertwined bodies. I jumped out of the way....But, It was too late for my love...
The sick, crunching sound of twisting metal..The deafening scream of that child...The yell from Freddy..I saw the truck crash into the nearest tree, I didn't care about them..I cared about my Freddy..Dropping to his side, I let my tear start to flow..Trying not to look at his mangled body..I knew he wasn't going to live through this...But, didn't want to believe it..Grabbing hold of his bloodied hand, I cried harder.
"Don't die! Please, Freddy..Don't..I love you..I love you so much" I said, tears falling onto the rain soaked street
"I love you, Summer" Freddy muttered
He had died...It was all my fault..Freddy Jones was dead..Laying on the street, I cried even harder..Pounding my fists, letting out a heart retching scream..The world seemed to stop right then..Silence overtook my life..I didn't care about anything except my Freddy..I looked again over at the crashed car, the thing that had caused all of this and saw the body of a little girl thrown across the street by my house..I feel terrible about It now..But, then I didn't care..I still very feel the same way now.
"Miss Hathaway..Can you identify the body for us?" A man asked
"I might as well..I have nothing in my life to do anymore" I said
"Okay" The man siad, his head hanging low
"It's Frederick Jones" I siad, tears escaping from my eyes again
"Thank you Miss" The man said
Sitting in my car, right after Freddy's funeral..I made a decision. Getting in the drivers seat, and driving myself to a ledge over the raging river..I took a deep breath, smiling inside myself..This was the easiest way I could be with Freddy..This was the easist way out of my sucky life..I needed to get it over with.
Jumping off the edge, I felt a rush..The feeling of my life disappearing..Wind blowing through my hair, my body shaking violently..Hitting the water, I felt a hard pang on my head..I think I hit a rock..That was the last ting I remeber being alive.
Then all of a sudden, there was a bright light in front of me..I saw a dark figure standing there, like it was waiting for me..I slowly walked up to this figure and saw the shadow for what it was...Freddy..Jumping into his embrace, I cried again..I was with my love...I had sacrificed my life wanting this to happen and it now had.
"I found you..I finally found you again" I cried
"You have" Freddy said
"I love you so much" I said
"I love you too" Freddy whispered
I'm not feeling so bold
Can't you see I don't want to grow old
And my photograph's an epitaph of parody
I don't want to be me
I'm not feeling so sure
It would help if you offered a cure
If I wait, it's too late for the remedy
I don't want to be me
You won't save me
Cuz I'm not the fortunate one
So don't blame me
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
I'm not feeling so well
Maybe we could just sit for a spell
And make amends, it depends on my injury
I don't want to be me
I don't want to be me
I don't want to be me
You won't save me
Cuz I'm not the fortunate one
So don't blame me
If I decide to just run
You won't save me
Cuz I'm not the fortunate one
So don't blame me
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
If I decide to go hide or instead to just run
Song by: Amanda Clemens