Embracing death
It wasn't really explainable, but that was the way she liked it to be. She crawled together on the cold floor in the hypnotizing silence. The darkness that she once feared was know her only real friend, her divine experience.
"Hello?" she whispered, slowly with her eyes focusing on the darkest spot in the room. "I know you're there"
There was no answer, just that same silence that gently cried in her ears. Her mind invited her to dance with all the lost dreams and hopes that had been torn apart that one day. That one day when the music was over. That one day when the ceremony had ended. That day when love died.
Like playing with a young child, wild and free, her mind was playing with her consciousness. In her mind, she was on an open field, dancing naked on a floor made out of Gods delight, breathing the scent from heavenly flowers. She was free, free from the pain that still surrounded her dreams and attacked whenever she was weak.
"Come dance with me!" She cried out frustrated as she slowly drifted away into another world of here own. The midnight hour had arrived, she was still sitting on the cold floor, staring into the darkness.
The person she tried to reach was just one of many tricks created by her brain. Slowly the person faded away in a cloud passing by. She tried to reach out and grab the person, but no one was there.
Created after her desires, her hallucinations brought her that little light that once was offered from the man she loved. The man that she lost, the man that never came back, the man that died.
Liquids from forbidden substances was her way of finding him. Deep inside she knew he was gone, but she tried and tried to find a way to meet him one again. The meeting with the unknown, the endless dance with death forced her to explore her deepest feelings.
Traveling over ancient bridges, through towns with no name. Dancing through fields that no rich man could claim. Feeling her heartbeat run faster every day, as the colors of the sky shifted darker and darker. Lost in a forest created by pain, swimming in lakes with animals both wild and tamed.
The cold floor suddenly turned into a beach, with waves as rough as wild mustangs. A surfers dream, a surfers death. She waded out with her surfing-board, the sun smiled at her, all the fear was gone. She didn't try to fight back as the waves embraced her and forced her down in the water. Down in the sea...
The end laughter and soft lies
The end of nights she tried to die
Bridgette was found dead from a overdose in her apartment. The death of Geoff three months earlier was to much. She had to be with him.