Don't jump
A/N; Hello Idiots, ready for another? Well thanks for the demands from your lovely StJimmyHasSinned and Invisible girl 12. Steph knows this idea has been haunting me every since I got into this song. By the title, you know who's about…ready?
On top of the roof
The air is so cold and so calm
Jimmy
What other choice do I have? Johnny left me for that Whatsername slut. No one loves me…I knew it. I just used the other girls. Who the hell do I have now? No one…
I felt a cold breeze come from the west. It blew my bangs out of my eyes. Everyone looks and sees me. I'm holding a gun at my side.
I say your name in silence
You don't wanna hear it right now
Johnny
I love her now as a sister. We stayed together like family. We wanted to ask Jimmy if he needed a home. Whatsername knew I loved him. "Tell him," She said. She pushes me a bit.
I smile to her, "Who knows? Maybe, I will…."
"GUYS!" Theo came running in our apartment, "Come outside, it's St Jimmy."
I looked to Whatsername. She shrugs, and we both run outside. I saw him then. He was standing on the roof of a building. Everyone around him was watching, some crying, and some not caring. I saw the gun at his side, "JIMMY!"
The eyes of the city
Are counting the tears falling down
Jimmy
"Johnny," I whispered. "Do you like any guys?"
Johnny shrugs, "I been bi- curious for a while now. I don't know…"
I smiled, nervously, "Um, so, do you think you might, you know, like me?"
Johnny's eyes got wider. "Jimmy, oh, I mean…"
"Forget it, forget that I ever ask." I knew his answer.
I almost started crying. I loved him a lot…It was something he didn't see in me. That I wasn't always a drug addict.
Johnny
Jimmy smiled, nervously, "Um, so, do you think you might, you know, like me?"
I went into shock. I wasn't ready to tell him. I started to lie, "Jimmy, oh, I mean…"
"Forget it, forget that I ever ask." He said cutting me off.
"Jimmy!" I said, "Jimmy…Please." I ran into the rainy streets. "JIMMY!"
"JIMMY!" I screamed louder. Everyone turned, wondering why I nice guy like me was helping the Saint out. Well, there's a long reason. Haven't I never tell, which I should have, that I was in love with him.
Each one a promise
Of everything you never found
Jimmy
"Oh, come on, Chase," I whispered to him. "Live a little."
"Jimmy, no!" Chase slaps me, "I don't understand why you're so obsessed with me! I don't love you!"
"I'll love you forever," Miguel whispers to my ear. He then starts nibbling. I let out a small moan.
"Fuck me," I whispered.
"James—" The court said.
I rolled my eyes, "Its Jimmy, SAINT Jimmy."
"Jimmy," they said firmer, "is her by sentence 4 years in jail for having sex with a 17 year old."
The cops grabbed my wrist. I turned to Miguel, "Fuck you, asshole. Forever ends now.
Why couldn't one love me?
Why not Johnny?
The gun is twirling in my hands. I get a real grasped on it.
I scream into the night for you
Johnny
I'm now running, trying to meet the top. I'm at the police tape. "JIMMY, PLEASE!" I yelled louder.
Don't make it true
Don't jump
Johnny
I can't live with the fact….I could never live with the fact….I would kill myself…
The thought of Jimmy dead
Because of me…kills me.
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Jimmy
I have always heard once your dead, there is a warm light. Your life is happy after that.
How can it be happy though? Johnny won't be there…
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
Jimmy
The first day he came to the city.
The first time he took the drug.
The first night I asked him out.
Made me the idiot America….
Johnny
The shot,
The looks,
The question.
Now I need him.
The world is down there out of view
Jimmy
I look down to my prayers. This was my city. I hand it to Jesus now. I dropped the gun; let's make this quicker; I'll jump.
I step to the ledge of the building.
Johnny
He drops the gun. Thank god was the thought; I thought too late. Jimmy got on the edge.
The last thing I screamed…
Please don't jump
You open your eyes
But you can't remember what for
Jimmy
The lights of the city were blinding me. It became dark now. Everything would be darker in one jump. I closed my eyes and open again. Die already…
The snow falls quietly
You just can't feel it no more
Johnny
Raindrops fall into my eyes. They weren't rain drops.
They are Jimmy's tears.
Somewhere out there
You lost yourself in your pain
Johnny
I'm killing him.
Run to him, then.
But I'm just another bystander…
I'm the one killing him.
The one who made him do this.
You dream of the end
To start all over again
Jimmy
Maybe I can get a second chance. I can be normal. Is that possibly?
I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
Jimmy
"JIMMY DON'T!" Chase screams.
"I NEVER MEANT TO!" Miguel yells.
A soft cry comes. It was Jesus…My Johnny is crying.
A heart breaks; mine.
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump
Johnny
Whatsername is by my side. "Go get him!"
"I CAN'T, WHAT'S THE POINT?" I screamed, "He doesn't get it that I do love him! I will always love Jimmy."
Jimmy
"I will always love Jimmy." Johnny yells.
He does love me…
I don't know how long
I can hold you so strong
I don't know how long
Jimmy
I met eyes with him. The blue eyes that draw me in more the Novacaine looked at me. I mouthed to him.
Don't let me die.
Just take my hand
Give it a chance
Don't jump
Jimmy
It's my only way down. Everything is blocked. I finally jumped. My life is flashing.
The drug seller,
The drinker,
Life of the party,
Saint for living,
Angel face,
Taste of suicidal,
Dying…
Johnny
"Don't let me die," Jimmy mouths to me.
I could never was whispering.
I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Jimmy
The lights of the city
Can turn into a warm light.
The memories should
Never fade away.
Don't let me die,
Please Johnny…
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump
Johnny
He didn't touch the ground, he met my arms. I grasped him close to me. "You ok, Saint?"
He opens his eyes. He smiles to me and kisses my sweet lips. "Oh, Jesus," he cries. "Carry me home please."
"I love you, Jimmy." I said, "Don't do that. I will die with you; I could never live with myself."
"Johnny," he groans. "I'm so sorry."
"I forgive," I whispered.
"Date tomorrow night?"
"Why not?" I kissed his forehead as he falls asleep in my arms. I sing a line to him
And if all that can't hold you back
I'll jump for you
Jimmy
"You don't have to…."
A/N: after a couple months, I finally finished! Reviews are nice!