Fate. One of the most cruel things in the world.
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'Damn them. Damn them to hell, for all I care. They're the reason I'm...
Like this...
Dammit, Kudo. Why? Why do you have to think about that... At 3:27 AM?
God, I'm paranoid...
Hell, if this keeps up, I'll be searching Subways at Beika for any and all men wearing Black Coats...
Heh, I wonder what Haibara would say to that idea...'
A VERY pissed Kudo Shinichi, rather, Edogowa Conan, sat quite upright on his futon, reflecting because he couldn't get to sleep.
This was to be a VERY long day for him...
'...? Oh... Ran's crying again... Might as well go do something constructive...'
A few moments, a semi-squeaky floorboard, and un-repressable snoring by Mouri later, Conan was at Ran's door. He braced himself for the all-too familiar sight of Ran weeping away her sorrows...
For him.
Ever since that faithful day the two met, whenever he would see Ran cry... He hated it.
He knew why, of course.
Now, in addition to that, he always felt like the biggest idiot in the world. Here he was, watching her cry over him, how she missed him, yet... He was right there.
He gulped, and reached to open the door...
"... Eh? Conan-kun? Shouldn't you be asleep?"
His Angel, the one he cared, loved, dried away her tears with the arm of her Nightgown, hoping Conan hadn't seen them...
The one whom he loved so much, yet couldn't trust her with his most valued secret, one slip of could cost him his life...
More importantly to him, however, she would die as well...
It took all of his will to suppress his feelings for her, and not tell her...
For what? An unlikely chance that the Men in Black wouldn't find out? It isn't like he could possible hide forever...
"I couldn't sleep." His voice came in response. They both knew that wasn't the REAL reason.
"Well, you should... Go back to bed. You have school in the morning."
He knew, not like he needed sleep to ace that class...
"Okay, Ran-neechan..." His mind suddenly decided that his heart should lead at that moment, and his logic went right out the window, "Actually... I want to tell you something first, Ran."
"Eh...?" Ran was surprised at the sudden drop of the honorfic, but decided to drop the though when she saw the Child look like an Adult at that moment, as he reached up to his Glasses...
"You can't tell anyone, Ran, promise?" He realized Haibara's going to KILL him for this, but he didn't back down. He couldn't.
"I'm... Kudo Shinichi."