Title: Waiting for you

Author: NancyErin

Rated: M

Summary: Kate finally has her first time. M-rated for obvious reasons

A/N: This is Chapter 15 of my story 'Katie and Rick'

Chapter 15

Two days later (his loft)

"Rick?" Kate hummed up against hips as Rick's hand brushed up beneath her blouse and against the smooth skin of her taunt stomach. He stopped his hand and rested his forehead up against hers, trying to get back to his senses, regain control of the situation that was little by little growing out of hand. But he wanted her so much. He wanted to kiss every inch of her delicious sweet skin. Her lips and throat were no longer enough for him as his desire for her grew bigger. She was so beautiful and simply breath-taking. He needed her probably more than he ever wanted any woman before. She had been back in his life for almost a year now, and they've been playing this back and forth on end.

"Hmm..." was the only sound he mastered still lost in his haze.

"Rick"

Her voice was firmer this time. He opened his eyes and found her amazing green pair gazing into his blue. He noted her stare flicking between his eyes, hesitation written all across her face before she nervously bit down on her lips. Guilt washed over him as he felt that he might have pushed her too much. Maybe this wasn't what she wanted. Maybe she wasn't ready quite yet for more. He felt very insecure all of a sudden. After all Kate hadn't crossed the last line yet. Was she ready now? Was she going to pick him as her first? Was she going to push him away? Forever? Just for now?

Whatever it was, Rick didn't really care. Whatever her decision was going to be it didn't matter. All that mattered was her well-being no matter how much it would pain him. He was a guy, a man... with needs, but still, he knew her better than any other woman in the world because she was his Kate.

"It's okay if you don't want to, Kate" he whispered even though he knew his heart would be shattered into pieces soon.

"I... I... I don't know, Rick. I'm sorry..."

"It's all right. I understand." Rick said and wanted to lift his body off hers, but she held back by his neck, bringing his face close to hers again.

They were breathing the same air as she melted her lips against his for a very sensual kiss. When Kate let go of his lips, she made sure to hold his head still; their noses touching and their eyes locking.

"But we can do more if you want, I mean... I... God, why does this always have to happen?" she sighed.

He smiled softly down at her, "You're nervous, Kate. I totally understand it. Don't worry..."

"Of course I'm nervous! It's you and me... us... you know? And... this is crazy, right?"

"Maybe, but who cares?"

"I do, Rick!" she exclaimed and sat up straight, taking him along with her. "I mean... I think I really want this. I want you, Rick, and that scares me! I've never felt this way. For once, I really feel like this is the place I want to be... that you're the one. I want you to be my first... but it's you, Rick! I can't... we can't... You're my best friend! You're like a brother to me... except... different! God, you must think I'm crazy!"

She hid her face into both of her hands, ashamed of all the things she just confessed. The truth was she really wanted him. The desire was there... she felt it deep within her. It had been there for a long while now. Every time he kissed her and swept her feet off the ground with those breathless kisses of his.

"Maybe" Rick shrugged with a grin plastered all across his face, "But my feelings for you are still the same. They are real. They are just as real for you as yours are for me, Kate! I'm crazy about you, Kate! I... I think I'm falling in love with you... I mean, I am in love with you!"

Kate eyes shot up into his. She could barely breathe... it was getting hot in here. Maybe she should open the windows just a split, get some fresh air in here.

"Friends don't kiss the way we do, Kate! Friends don't hold hands and make out the way we do, Kate! We can either ignore all of our feelings, hide them forever... in the hope that some day we find happiness again. The truth is that I haven't felt this happy ever since you are back in my life. You're an amazing person... woman. I no longer want to ignore those feelings because I love you. I'm madly in love with you and I want you too, Kate. So much. But..."

Kate silenced Rick with a long searing kiss. Their fierce lip connection lasted quite a while until both slowed down the pace, tasting, feeling and loving each other.

"Rick..."

"I know... it's okay... we can wait... I understand."

Again she kept a hold on him, "No... I mean... I love you too. As said, I want this... I'm just... I..."

"Nervous" Rick finished her sentence and added a reassuring smile to his words and pulled a long lost strand of her wavy hair back behind her ear. His knuckles brushed tenderly across the crimson color on her cheekbones and Rick was sure that she had never looks more beautiful than she did now. "It will be amazing, Kate... I'll be the most perfect gentleman" he whispered showering her face with millions of little butterfly kisses, which raised goose bumps all over her body.

Rick got off the couch and onto his feet. He held out his hand for her to take. Theirs fingers intertwined as an everlasting smile appeared on both their lips. Together they moved to his bedroom and closed the door behind them. The moment the door slid shut, he had her pinned against the wall with his hands skimming all across her body, touching and feeling each inch of her delicate skin. Undressing her was easy because all she had been wearing was a pair of black cotton long leggins and a loose pink v-shaped shirt. Once she stood almost naked in front of him, he let out a long moan.

"You're still all dressed" Kate laughed into his kiss, which made him chuckle.

"Well, you should do something about that!" he challenged her with a tease. His eyes didn't flinch once as his playful manner gradually turned to serious. "You're beautiful, Kate." Blush crept on either side of her face once more and Rick didn't hesitate any further as caught her head with both of his hands and kissed her fully. "Very beautiful..."

She gazed shyly up into his blues, undoing button after button on his dress shirt. Pulling the hem out of his pants, she let it slip down his arms and onto the floor. Her fingers traveled up his strong arms and biceps, sending chills down his spine. She pulled his head down to her so she could kiss him all over again. Not too soon, her fingers soon after slid between their bodies where she unfastened his belt. When she flicked the button and unzipped his pants, her hand ever so tentatively had brushed against his erection. Both simultaneously held their breaths as their eyes locked and time stood still between them.

Rick must have sensed her uneasiness as he fetched her slender hands. His pants hit the floor with a loud clonk of the belt buckle.

"I'm sorry... I can't help it..."

"Hey... don't worry", he nibbled against her lips lovingly. "You shouldn't... it's me... unless you are having second thoughts. We don't need to go through with this. I want you to be certain. I mean... you've waited so long... "

"I do. I mean I want to. I want this... with you. I'm just... not very experienced. You've been married twice and come on, let's be honest, you've been doing this like a million times, and I..."

Rick chuckled at her craziness. She hadn't changed that much after all throughout all these years. He loved her ramblings. No matter what... no matter how crazy they drove him, he still loved her nervous rambling. Sometimes they made sense, sometimes they didn't. She was speaking her thoughts out loud and he would be lying to himself if he found them utterly irresistible.

"A million times? I'm not counting, but really? A million? I doubt it!" A broad smile appeared on her lips. And god, did he love that smile!

"I'm a moron!"

"No, you're not! You're just being very careful of the thing that is important to your heart. I want to love you, Kate... with all my heart and soul. It will be beautiful, so there's nothing for you to be worried about... all right? Tonight... it's just you and me... And I love you, so very very much!"

Rick silenced her with a languish kiss. She moaned against his lips and he felt her body press harder against his. He spun her around and blindly guided her over to his bed where they both toppled over in a heap with laughter filling the air. He didn't waste much time as his mouth and hands began to explore her body from head to toe. She squirmed beneath him with the feelings he was awaking deep within her. Her back arched up at his ministrations, silently begging him for more. Soon he had gotten rid of her underwear providing him with the magnificent view of a very naked Kate Beckett.

Rick loved every single curve on her body. Her slender yet well shaped figure and those endless long legs were doing it for him. He longed to touch her… there… between her legs. He wanted to feel all of her as he sat beside her enthralled by the beauty lying in front of him. He covered her body with his, plunging his tongue into her mouth for a smoldering kiss while his lower body part purposefully brushed up against her sensitive spot. He felt her open her legs for him so he settled himself between them. His kiss slowed down and his fingers combed lovingly through her hair, before his hand skimmed down the right side of her body; the face, her shoulders, her sides – which were slightly ticklish – her hip bone and then her leg. He helped her bend up over his waist and then let his hand wander casually to the inner side of her thigh until it had reached its destination. Rick found her wet spot and he could no longer withhold a groan. She felt so good… and warm… and wet. He probed at her folds with his fingers, gently touching her, bringing her arousal to a higher level.

"Rick, I…" she mumbled against his hungry mouth and did a sharp breath intake.

He had his finger pushed all the way inside of her, and god was she tight. She was so very very tight for him. He just couldn't believe how tight she was as he gazed dreamingly down into her eyes and watched the first wave rush through her body. Well, that was fast, he thought to himself and only fell harder for her instead. He swept her into another world with an additional kiss where only the two of them existed until they both needed to come up for air.

"That was… wow…" Rick awed, his eyes searching for hers. When her glittering green eyes shone up at him, he smiled at her. "You're fast…"

Kate bit down her lips and blushed up all the way. To hide herself from him, she responded by pulling him in for one of her sensual kisses that left him begging for more.

"I want to be inside of you, Kate." he said without breaking eye contact, "I want to make love to you…now…"

Again she sucked on her lower lip, but didn't hold him back when he got off the bed to disappear into the bathroom, only to come back seconds later with a tiny package in his hands. He reached for his boxers and pulled them down his legs, stepping out of them, his entire glory pointing towards her. Rick noted Kate swallow her saliva when she literally stared at his erection.

"Kate?"

"Hmm…?" her eyes diverted back to his eyes.

There were so many things Rick wanted to tell or to ask her but didn't do so, afraid this would make her feel uncomfortable again. So he did the only thing he could do best and gave her a supportive smile instead. He next opened the package and rolled the condom down his erection, before covering her body with his again and kissing her endlessly. His mouth was once again all over her body, drinking all of her in as much as he could; trying to memorize every little moan and gasp she let out. By the time he was done he had a pretty good idea on how to tease her, how to arouse, how to make her squirm and how to drive her crazy for more. It was so easy getting to know her… and ten minutes later she was again lying breathless beneath him.

"You're amazing, Kate", he breathed simultaneously.

Before she had the time to come back from her high, he took the opportunity of her wet and more relaxed inner walls to slowly and gradually push his length inside of her. She gasped and her breath hitched at every inch spreading her wider. He was big… too big for her. She stopped him halfway. Her forehead rested against his and Rick felt her fight with her emotions. He knew she wanted this, but her body was fighting against her wishes. She was so tight, and he could feel her body resist against his intrusion.

"I love you, Rick…", she breathed heavily, as a couple of tears streamed down her face. She was shivering from head to toe, "I'm so sorry, but it hurts… I can't… you're so big…"

He kissed the tears away and tasted their saltiness against his lips. He didn't move and didn't say a word and instead let her take in the beauty of their connection for a while. Her body was going to get used to his size… all they needed was time and he was giving that to her, because the last thing he wanted to do was to hurt the woman he was deeply in love with. He knew then and there that he was indeed head over heels in love with her. His lips wound their way to her neck and chest, and at a snail's pace he moved his hips just the faintest little bit to get Kate accustomed to his manhood.

"Feel me, Kate?" he breathed, overwhelmed by the feelings she was waking within him.

Kate was so tight and he was worried he wasn't going to last. He had yet to bury himself all the way inside of her. He felt her nod her head. He opened his eyes only to find hers closed relishing into the feelings of his slow thrusts, getting acquainted with that new feeling of having somebody move within her. Rick Castle was still in complete shock that he got to be the chosen one. He was flattered, honored, grateful and so many other adjectives that he got to be that guy. He simply couldn't get enough of the woman who was giving herself to him right now; right this very second.

Rick had been lost in his own thoughts for a while there and only registered that information when he found her smiling lovingly up at him, with her fingers playing with the hair at the nape of his neck. Her grin wouldn't fade and it took him another couple of seconds to realize what she was implementing with that smile. He was now deeply seethed within her. He thus mirrored her adoring smile.

"Are you okay?", he still needed to make sure.

Kate nodded vaguely, "Hmmm… I guess… it's all new… I… "

She couldn't find the correct words to express how she was feeling. It had hurt at first, but now… it just felt good. It felt right… all of it. She was happy, and in love. That's what she had been waiting for all this time and she didn't regret the slightest little bit to have waited for so long. It was exactly how she had wanted it to be; maybe a tad bit more romantic or whatever, but it was Rick… the man she loved, the man whom she trusted with all of her heart and soul. It was beautiful and amazing. It was perfect.

As so very often Rick managed to read her eyes. He could see all the way down her soul the love she felt for him and he couldn't feel any more blessed.

"I love you, Kate."

"I love you, Rick. Thank you…"

"Always, Kate."

Their eyes remained locked for a very long while after that. Kate felt him pull out of her ever so carefully. She didn't know why but every time he did that she took a deep breath and every time he pushed his way back into her it made her loose all her senses. She wanted to scream how good this felt, how amazing that feeling was but she couldn't. No sound came from her at all. His pushes gradually went deeper, stronger and harder and she literally had to fight to keep her eyes open. If only she were able to let herself go… just go with the moment. She was holding back… maybe she shouldn't but was he going to be there to catch her… yeah he would. She could see it in his eyes, so she did the only thing she could right then: let herself fall… go with the flow… no longer withholding the emotions shooting through her body as the greatest orgasm she had ever experienced hit her full-force. There was no warning at all as she tumbled right over the age. Every single part of her body clenched hard for the split of a second before her entire body was shaken with endless waves of release. Her grip was tight on him, holding onto him for dear life, with her arms wrapped around his neck, and her legs holding him still deep within her as her high cursed through each vein.

With her release she was also pulling Rick along with her. Words left his mouth which she didn't know whether she should feel flattered or offended. He was deeply lost within her as his orgasm hit him too, completely oblivious to the words that left his mouth. He had no control over them.

"Oh God, Kate! You're so fucking tight… I'm gonna cum… I'm gonna cum… now"

He let out a long groan into the crook of her neck before releasing himself deep into her. Moving over her initial shock, she pulled his head so that she could melt his lips against hers for a searing kiss as both shared the most precious bliss there was.

"Hmm… Kate…" he mumbled against her lips, trying to slow her down somewhat. He loved every bit of it. He could never get enough of her kisses. "Hmmm…" he hummed again, rolling onto his side and taking her with him.

They enjoyed their embrace and secretly wished this moment to never come to an end. Rick pushed her dark brown curls out of her face, unable to stop staring at her. He was in awe of her all around beauty, outside and inside. Fifteen years ago, they were like best friends… and now… they were lovers. Heck, a week ago they still had been best friends… still trying to fight their inner emotions of something more happening between them. A shy kiss here, an innocent touch there… it all seemed so unreal; like a dream… And yet, here they were, lying side by side and flying high on cloud number nine. Neither was able to wash the everlasting grin out of their face. After a long silence, Rick could take it no more

"What is it?"

She thought about what to say, but ignored his request, "No, nothing…"

Concerned, his voice ended up in a bare whisper, "Did I hurt you? God, please tell me I didn't…"

"I'm a little sore but I guess that's normal, right? I mean, no that's not what I meant… I… before you were saying things, when you…. and I… I don't know… I don't know anything, so…"

"Kate" he sighed her name and pulled her against his chest, enveloping her body in her strong arms. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you… are you upset? We can talk about this, you know?"

"You said the F-word… I know I might be blowing this out of proportion, but… hey, I'm new when it comes to all this sex related stuff, okay? I'm not much of a swearing person, Rick, you know that! I'm just… I don't know. I guess you took me off guard there… I don't know what to think. I'm thinking and talking too much again, am I not?"

"Well, correct use of English grammar there…" Rick joked with a wink before turning more serious, "But, hey… I don't want you to feel ashamed of anything with me. I don't know what to tell you for real, I mean, I guess I just get so wrapped up that those words keep sputtering out of my mouth. That's the way you made me feel, Kate… and… it was amazing… you were amazing."

Her cheeks and entire face turned beet red, "Oh, I doubt it… I wasn't… I…"

He silenced her nervous rambling with a long kiss, "Beautiful, Kate… okay? Just let me go take care of this and I'll be right back."

Again he disappeared into the bathroom for a few seconds and instantly returned under the warm covers of the bed sheets warming both of their bodies up together in a tight embrace.

"Tell me.." he encouraged her another while later as he nodded her drift away in her thoughts.

Her eyes met his, "Did you mind being my first?"

"Not at all, Kate… I was – still am – overwhelmed that you picked me to be the one. I don't know how you're feeling about this, but I wouldn't trade this moment for nothing in the world. Like you said earlier, it's you and me, so that fact alone is quite something to me. You're a woman and you're probably going to think that I might have said that to quite some women, which is true… I'm not hiding it from you. I always fully respected the women I slept with, Kate… but what you and I have… I don't want to compare – but what we have, what we shared… I… I don't have any words for it. I'm a writer, Kate, I know my way around with words, but every time I see your smile, every time we touch, hug or kiss… You make me speechless. All I know is that I'm in love with you, Kate… and I would have never ceased the opportunity to get you to bed just because I could if I didn't love you. I am aware how important this was for you... and I know you just gave me the greatest gift you could ever give someone and that makes me feel very… privileged, special… or…"

This time Kate silenced him with a kiss, "I'm glad you do…" she whispered against his lips. "It meant a lot to me and I'm glad to have waited. It was all worth it. No regrets… "

Rick placed a loving kiss to the top of her head and held her close to his chest. The regular beating of his heart had soon lulled her off to sleep. Contrary to Kate, he couldn't find any sleep so he sneaked out an hour later. Pulling on his boxers and throwing over a t-shirt he found himself staring at Kate's sleeping frame. His eyes drifted to his alarm clock. Today was her twenty-sixth birthday, but all Rick could think about was what an amazing person Kate was, in every way. He was going to make sure that her day was going to be just as special as it had started out.

tbc

A/N: Any other MA rated chapter will be posted in this thread. =) I think I have one or two more dirty chapters in store for you in regard to this fic. Not sure how many I have actually written *oops* ;o)

Please review, I'm sure Kate would be please to know what you thought of her 'first time' - haha! That sounds soooo wrong ;o)