Okay this is a really short fic about Izumi's past. (His past was one of the best parts of the whole series) so i hope that you'll enjoy it...um i added in a few parts to it..but it's still good...r&r ( AND JUST TO LET U PPL KNOW WORDS WITHIN BRACKETS ARE ACTIONS)
I Wanted You to Smile and To Always Be With Me
I was six then…and I didn't know what to think. My eyes, were always swollen, and I couldn't see well because of that. I don't remember much but what I do remember was not a satisfying memory.
That person still rules over me, even now. The one who was so close yet so distant.
"Mommy, the cat, it ran away."
"Then it won't come back. Don't come to tell me things like that!"
She became a different person, after father died. She lost her cheerfulness and her elegance diminished. She was always afraid of something, even of me.
"What are you looking at? (SLAP) You are looking more like your father! Are you also accusing me? You're such a burden! I HATE YOU! (crying/weeping) …I…I…WISH YOU DIDN'T EXIST!"
I probably wanted her to smile once more. Just once more. I wanted her to call my name just like she use to, with a smile on her face, always.
When the scars on my face weren't so noticeable, we went out shopping.
"Mommy…please call my name when I get lost at the railroad crossing."
I started to run…to the lonely railroad crossing. I ignored the closing of the gate. My Plan was Perfect.
"Klang…klang…klang...klang…"
I can hear the train coming, perfectly clear, but I didn't care. All I cared was the smile on my mother's face, the love she once had.
"…my name? Do you remember, mother? I want you to smile, for me. Just once more…would be enough…call my name and I'll leave the railroad crossing and be strong, mother…for you"
"Lio…(smiling/smirking)"
I was glad that my mother smiled in front of me once more…just once, that was enough. However it was too late, for me…
My plan was perfect, but it wasn't a success. It left me with a scar, that I would not forget. That woman she turned me into ice. She left me with a curse, that separates me from the world. I thought I was happy, I thought I left with no regrets; she was smiling…the smile I'd wanted to see. I sill remember the pathetic things I use to say…(flashback)
"Let's go look for the cat, even if it's raining."
"Don't throw father's photos away"
"Please don't scold me!!!"
"If you're lonely, hold me tight."
But in the end…I wasn't happy, I left with many regrets; because when I said that I only wanted you to smile…I was lying. I wanted you to smile…And to be with Me, Forever by my side.
But now, I guess everything is too late…Goodbye, Mother…"Lio…"
Heyz wat do u ppl think about this mini fic..good bad..okay..anyways..just review pls. um...i dunno...i think that his mom was regretting it..that's why, if you read the manga u'll know that when izumi came to take his mother's soul, she was smiling/really skinny...and also i think that no matter how his mother treated him, izumi still loves his mother really much..but this was a really deep/depth/emotional part of the manga...AND i really LIKED it. REVIEW!