The night is filled with silence as the fire burns slowly at my side. It
seems as though a year has gone by since I last seen your smiling face yet
only a day has passed since my return home from Bree. There is where you
left my side as I stood lost within the vale of softly falling rain. Alone
with my tears I turned away as the gates were closed and from that moment I
have been left with an undying pain in my heart that grows as every hour
passes me by. It is a feeling of emptiness. One that I know can never
again be filled with the coming of time. A tear falls now hoping to drown
the sorrow within my heart as I wish my lips could have spoken the love I
held for you. Perhaps then you would still be here by my side.
From the moment I first found you lost in an endless sleep beneath the moonlit sky, I have been drawn to you. It seemed as though we shared a story of the same from a past we both so longed to forget. As the days drew by I sat by your side waiting for you to wake just as Sam had done for me while in Rivendell just a short few years ago. I sat in silence many nights just as I am now while I look upon the bed that last held you in warmth on that evening before you left for home. Yet then you were here and the firelight shone brightly upon your face playing on your blushed cheeks. Such beauty I beheld as my eyes took in the radiance of your peaceful visage as you slept soundly within my room. Even then when no words could pass through your lips I longed to hear the sweet sound of your voice and see the color of your eyes.
Now I have only a memory of the soft laughter that fell upon my ears as we sat together before the fire sharing story and song. Your eyes still haunt my dreams, as I lay restless trying to find sleep within the darkened night. Their soft hue of gentle green pierce through my heart as I close my eyes finding your memory once more within my mind. My hand falls to my chest where I can feel the cold touch of your golden band as it rests upon my breast close to my beating heart. My heart quickens as I remember your soft and gentle touch, a touch that had warmed me and soothed me from all the pain of my past. A past that has come to haunt me again now that you are no longer here.
The time has now come for me to leave the Shire for it is now that I have chosen to sail from the Havens and find my healing over the sea. I have lost so much that can never be replaced and I know one day all others shall once again be whole but I will never be. It pains me to know the sadness that will come to Sam for he will seem lost without me at his side but what pains me more is that I can not tell you I am leaving. I can only hope you will not return and find me not here for I know the pain that it may bring to your heart will shatter your will to go on. So I am writing this, to speak the words my heart has not been able to set forth. I can not go on without you here for you can not tell a river not to flow just as you can not tell a heart to love. I am leaving now. Namárië.
From the moment I first found you lost in an endless sleep beneath the moonlit sky, I have been drawn to you. It seemed as though we shared a story of the same from a past we both so longed to forget. As the days drew by I sat by your side waiting for you to wake just as Sam had done for me while in Rivendell just a short few years ago. I sat in silence many nights just as I am now while I look upon the bed that last held you in warmth on that evening before you left for home. Yet then you were here and the firelight shone brightly upon your face playing on your blushed cheeks. Such beauty I beheld as my eyes took in the radiance of your peaceful visage as you slept soundly within my room. Even then when no words could pass through your lips I longed to hear the sweet sound of your voice and see the color of your eyes.
Now I have only a memory of the soft laughter that fell upon my ears as we sat together before the fire sharing story and song. Your eyes still haunt my dreams, as I lay restless trying to find sleep within the darkened night. Their soft hue of gentle green pierce through my heart as I close my eyes finding your memory once more within my mind. My hand falls to my chest where I can feel the cold touch of your golden band as it rests upon my breast close to my beating heart. My heart quickens as I remember your soft and gentle touch, a touch that had warmed me and soothed me from all the pain of my past. A past that has come to haunt me again now that you are no longer here.
The time has now come for me to leave the Shire for it is now that I have chosen to sail from the Havens and find my healing over the sea. I have lost so much that can never be replaced and I know one day all others shall once again be whole but I will never be. It pains me to know the sadness that will come to Sam for he will seem lost without me at his side but what pains me more is that I can not tell you I am leaving. I can only hope you will not return and find me not here for I know the pain that it may bring to your heart will shatter your will to go on. So I am writing this, to speak the words my heart has not been able to set forth. I can not go on without you here for you can not tell a river not to flow just as you can not tell a heart to love. I am leaving now. Namárië.