This one might be a bit weird. It is just after one in the morning, I'm running on a shit ton of sugar, and it's been an extremely bad day.
I'm using only music from my phone to inspire me tonight - the song of choice for this story is *drum roll* Wake Me Up by Avicii! I love the song and I had a really good idea which I will probably think 'why did I ever think this was a good idea to share with the whole of the internet.' But...eh. Whatever.
You guys better feel loved! I'm missing Johnnie Guilbert's live stream on YouNow for you guys to have this story. Be. Thankful. I wanted to watch it, 'cause Johnnie's awesome...
And...wow we're already off to a bad start..Let's just go so I don't lose you guys before the story starts.
Enjoy.
Sometimes, he sort of felt like he was just walking blindly through his life. He'd never say that out loud, though. It was just a feeling that he got sometimes when he wasn't sure why he was where he was in his life.
He loved his job - his fans were amazing, and he loved living with Phil, he just...didn't know how he'd gone from some socially awkward person who had made a video on request of a friend - which he'd rather not think about because he seriously didn't want that going through his brain right now - to...this. Someone who was still awkward, but was accepted.
It still surprised him when he woke up and it wasn't some amazing, terrifying, bizarre dream.
No one ever caught on to the fact that Dan felt this way. Not even Phil.
Honestly, no one ever really had a clue about anything he really thought until they asked.
And that's exactly what happened.
Phil had drug him into one of his live streams with him, and he was smiling faintly as he read the comments, sometime making a remark or something, but mostly letting Phil continuously speak to his fans.
This got some attention. From everyone. It all started because Phil paused midsentence and looked at him, asking a quick, 'What's the matter?'.
This got everyone worked up.
And as such, before Dan knew it, the comments on the broadcast were engulfed in what he referred to as a shit storm - people were asking if he was okay, if he was getting ill, generally trying to show genuine concern for his well being.
He smiled faintly and spoke. "I'm fine, guys." he said.
"Then what's going on in that brain of yours?" Phil questioned.
Dan just stared at him before he leaned back and looked at the laptop. "You guys really want to know what's going on?" he asked, not waiting for any sort of answer before continuing. "It feels like this is just a dream, that this isn't real. Because this is...everything I've ever hoped to find in life, and I still feel like some days I'm just walking around totally lost because I don't know how I got here. Sorry if I'm not able to really focus tonight, guys."
Phil gave him an amused smile before shaking his head. "You got here because you decided to follow a dream," he pointed out.
The night got a lot more interesting then.
And for the first time in a while, he managed to get some rest without thoughts keeping him up.
Oh god, guys. So remember how I said I missed Johnnie's livestream for this? Well, my phone went off with someone inviting me to watch a livestream from RageRossYT. Oh my god, this happened halfway through and was like...what the fuck? I love it! It's awesome!