Summary: Frustrated, hurt and deeply depressed, Silver tries to make it day to day but what happens when Shadow slowly uncovers Silver's past and the horrible things beyond it. Silver's only response was 'I did it for love'.

Warnings: Yeah it's gonna be loveh doveh. yaoi and lemon's in latter chaps I suppose.

Disclaimer: I don't own it. I just don't....

Interlude

(I did it for love...)

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When I was first doing it, it was easy to keep it from Blaze. She had no idea from the day we first met to the day she died. In a way I was so happy she did not find that out. For one she would have killed me instantly and two she'd have had me quit the very same day she found out. In a way I regret not ever telling her. Now I don't know how to deal with myself. I'm just a capped up drink with fizz. Hoping I don't spill anytime soon....

After she left I never really had anymore feelings...but I was desperate to feel something...anything at all... I was numb. I hated the numb feeling.

To this day I still cry myself to sleep over that and the fact that Blaze never knew a thing. She doesn't know what she left me with. Each day I'm practically calling my own death near by struggling to get money just to keep this family going.

I get up each day for school tired. I fall asleep during class a lot. My teacher called home for my sleeping. Of course there was no one here to receive it, and no one was going to check the voice box for the call either. All of that was done by me. Along with the cleaning.

Mom? She's never here. Yeah she gets money but she blows it on herself. To feed that other side of her. Getting high, sniffing. Anything she can find was okay. As long as she got it she was okay.

When one of the guys gets mad she gets mad. All of this is taken out on me. The constant yelling around the house. The smell of smoke. The bodies that are on the floor....probably from drinking too much. It's home.

The money I get isn't even enough. I have to use half of it to feed mom's hunger for the wrong things. I'm constantly having to give to her. By all the fights she's had I'd thought she'd have enough already but no. She's addicted now and the only way to get what she wants is to have the unknown men ambush the house.

Sometimes I just stay in my room but I've had to clean up after her a lot. I just have to hope that the men don't decide to have there way with me next. Blaze would be so disappointed in me.....

On the bright side I've stopped doing what I was doing. Blaze would be happy with that....but she still wouldn't be happy that I've done it in the first place. The problem is....that the checks I get afterwards won't last much longer. They'll end soon and I'll have to find another way to get money.

That's what I'm focusing on now. The money. I have to make sure everything stays in place. Sometimes I wonder way I'm even saying this is a family. This isn't even close to being a family......

All I can think about is how so frustrating this all is.......

beep.........beep............beep..............beep........

"mmm........"

I moved my arm to the side and heard a crash close by me. My head swung up, eyes open wide to find the source of the noise. I looked to my side and saw the scattered pieces of what use to be my clock.

I sighed and yawned. A droplet of water feel from my right eye as I did. I cried falling asleep again. It's the same old routine. This time I feel asleep at my desk though witch is also the reason for the ache in my neck.

I got up from my chair and took a shower. I glance down at the broken pieces of the clock and decided to clean it up after school. I had to time to do it now. I walked out of my room and looked both ways.

I don't know why I looked to my right witch was nothing but a wall indicating the end of the house but my mom kept a picture hung there. It was of a man sitting in a chair and a woman standing behind him with both her hands on the mans shoulder.

The man was a green hedgehog. It sort of reminded me of manic...I smirked but quickly frowned at the since of loneliness that came from it. I wished I'd have a brother or sister to take care off. Blaze was the only hint of a sibling I had.

The woman was a beautiful purple hedgehog. Her quills hung long at her mid back. She somewhat looked like mom but mom is almost my color and she has visible orange tints, witch took up most of the color.

When mom was herself she'd always tell me that I'm special. Cause there was no other white hedgehog like me. I'm rare. Very rare. Those words use to make me feel secure but now there only apart of my memory.

To my left was a long hallway then some stairs. At that time I felt like going back into the room and going back to sleep but I had school. I went down the hallway slowly lifting my arm to rub my right eye. When I made it to the first step was when I decided to start calling for her.

"Mom.....are you in here?"

I quickly went down the steps and looked around down stairs. Nothing. I'd should have suspected that. I sighed, opening the front door to leave.

I sat down in my usual seat witch was in the second row. I plopped down and laid my head down on the desk. With the usual stuff going on in my house and the things I have to do, I rather not have any friends. Although the only person that seems to speak to me from time to time is Topaz. Topaz is a pink and blue tinted dove. A very pretty dove too. It reminds me of Blaze's purple and dark purple---- there I go again.

"Hey...are you okay?"

I quickly looked up from my seat and saw Topaz standing over me. I smiled and nodded.

"Are you sure? I mean you were just digging your hands in your quills just now," she said smiling and sitting in the seat next to me.

"Ah yeah...I'm just thinking...."

"Must have been in some deep thought."

I laughed a bit with her. Topaz knows nothing about me either. One day she just decided to come over and talk to me. I enjoyed it but at the same time I didn't because I didn't want to get too close to someone.

When I looked at her again she was looking over my head at something else. She frowned and looked at me.

"They must be really fascinated in you," her frown lingered.

"What do you mean?"

"Well......Shadow, Sonic and some others are looking your way...."

I shuddered. Just keep your eyes on Topaz I tried to repeat over and over to myself. I stayed quiet.

"Weren't you friends with them before?."

I wanted her to stop asking questions and go away all together but I just kept answering her.

"Yeah we were......."

"So how come your not talking to them now?"

I knew it would come down to this. I instantly hated that question. I'd ask myself that from time to time when I'd catch one of the roaming the town.

"I just have things I need to cover up first......."

Her warm smile appeared back on her face as she spoke again.

"Sonic really is nice. Shadow is too....when he wants to be....but I'm surprised they haven't confronted you yet."

I looked else where when she asked that question. My eyes lingered to the front of the classroom then to the door watching people come in. I sighed.

"They have plenty of times...but I'd give them the same answer. I'd say 'I don't have time' or 'Maybe later'....."

Topaz stared with a sad smile.

"Well Silver you know them....I doubt there gonna let you by so easy....sooner or later there going to say something....There not ones to give up."

I sighed. That's the last thing I wanted to hear but I knew she was right. I just dreaded the day when they would come to figure anything out.

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