A/N - Hello friends, Firstly this is my first ever story. Like many I felt this needed to be told as I for one do not think Ziva is dead, nope not one bit. I know there have been many stories around, I have decided to do this telling Ziva's side and what I think kinda went on. This is my first so please be nice. I hope you enjoy, I do not know yet how many chapters just an idea that popped into head and felt like I could write this. I am really nervous about posting this as I have followed and loved so many TIVA stories on here as there are so many amazing writers, I really hope you all enjoy, Nat x

Disclaimer - I do not own NCIS or characters (I wish)

The warm summer breeze flowed through the Olive garden a little girl was running around and swinging her favourite toy around, the laughter could be heard over the whole valley. Ziva smiled and watched her daughter play, every time she watched her play she felt such a mix of emotions, happiness, gratitude, love and guilt. Ziva always had a hard time with the last one. Ziva knew her choices she made were for both good and bad, but it did not stop the guilt. A sound of a car pulling up in front of the house broke her thoughts, she looked towards the house and sighed. Why today?

"Shalom Ziva"

"Orli...what do I owe the pleasure?" Ziva didn't even look up she kept her focus on Tali

"My Ziva she changes every time I see her" Orli looked at the little girl and smiled then re focused on Ziva. Ziva could feel the eyes on her, she finally turned around and looked at Orli

"What do you want Orli?" Ziva sighed

"Can I not just come by and see how you are?" Orli looked tensed, Ziva sensed right away that this was not a social call. Ziva frowned and ushered Orli slightly away from Tali.

"What's going on" ziva kept a low tone, this was not a conversation she wanted in front of Tali

"I don't know-"

"Don't lie to me Orli, I know when there is something up, just tell me" Ziva waved her hand around, she was not in the mood for any beating around the bush. Orli shuffled on the spot and looked around. Before she arrived she knew there was no way of doing this gently, not with Ziva, straight to the point was the best way.

"There is talk at the moment, a lot of talk, I feel you should know, we feel this may involve you" Orli watched as Ziva stared at her.

"We? We who?" Ziva asked

"I spoke to Director Vance yesterday, we have not spoke in years" she paused and looked at Ziva who now was giving all her attention to Orli. "There has been an incident in DC...Vance is, well you can imagine, and well Gibbs, he is on the verge of killing whoever, Vance told me and –"

"Who Orli?" Ziva's face looked angry and scared, she could feel her heart racing a million times an hour, she felt sick, was she about to me told that he was dead?

"Ziva you need-"

"God dammit Orli just tell me, is he dead?" The words came out faster and louder than she expected, she started to breath faster as tears started to form in her eyes, he couldn't be dead. Not him. Ziva was knocked from her thoughts when Tali walked over, obvious wondering what was going on.

"Tali, sweety can you go and play for a moment" Orli smiled at the little girl as she watched her grin and run off. Orli looked back at Ziva and sighed.

"No, Tom Morrow" Orli watched as Ziva exhaled and brushed her hand through her hair, a moment of silence fell between the two ladies. "Fornell has been shot, he is bad, very bad they were not sure he would make it" Ziva shook her head. After all this time things were happening again. "Ziva, they have found out who is behind it all and this where you come in" Orli watched as Ziva tried to process all the information.

"Why me? I don't understand. Morrow? He isn't even NCIS anymore and fornell?" Ziva's mind was racing "Who is it?" she finally asked

"Trent Kort" Ziva started to pace up and down, she carefully watched Orli and anger started to build up in her.

"Knew he was a worm, why? How does this involve me"

"Listen Ziva, I do not know the full story but Vance said Kort is out for blood, out for all former agents he is trying to cover up something he did. He is trying to wipe the past clean. He thinks, the files you will have them, he wants you gone he wants this place gone, Ziva he will not stop till he knows the job is done" Orli watched a now agitated Ziva pacing around.

"Those files, you mean my Abba's? Hes dead, even now he is making my life hell" Ziva started raising her voice. Orli could sense Ziva was getting annoyed. "Why does Kort think I have these, he doesn't know about this place no one does only you, Nettie, Adam and" Ziva stopped her self before she said his name "This place is meant to be secret how is he going to know?" Ziva looked over at Tali who was still happily playing among the tree's.

"Ziva he is, was CIA. He will find out" Orli took Ziva's hand and made her look at her "conversations are limited, I need to know you will be ok, there is always light in the dark that will help us see, Owls in the night are clear as day in the moonlight" Ziva looked confused and then clicked on to what Orli what was saying. Ziva watched closely as Orli pulled out a small teddy bear "I brought this for Tali, tell her whenever she needs a hero just talk to the bear they are good listeners" Orli stared at Ziva until she nodded, she hoped Ziva understood what she meant. "I shall leave you now I assume supper soon? Tell Tali goodbye from me" Orli smiled and walked off. As Ziva watched her drive off, a flood of emotions hit Ziva. Ziva looked at the teddy and turned to Tali.

"Tali supper" Ziva watched the little girl run over, she took her hand and lead her into the house before she closed the door she looked around was she being watched? She could feel her Mossad instincts start to kick in, she didn't want to go back to that life but this time it was the life coming back to her.

Ziva sat up bolt right in bed, something woke her up. Checking around the room the only noise was a sleeping Tali in the bed dreaming and babbling in her sleep. Ziva watched for a moment, maybe her mind was just over reacting, all night she had been on edge since the visit from Orli. Ziva climbed out of bed and headed over to the window, the net curtains were blowing in the breeze, a chill ran down Ziva as she looked out the window. Carefully not to be seen she looked around the grounds, the light of the full moon was more than enough to see outside. Ziva was about to turn back but something caught her eye, a figure in the distance she knew this was not a dream she knew this was real. Ziva held her breath and moved out the window but still able to look out. The figure stopped and looked around Ziva started to panic. As she was about to move the figure started to walk away and to the main road, A watcher. He had sent a watcher to see, Ziva needed to speak to Orli but she got the hint that phone lines had been tapped. A small laugh made Ziva turn around Tali was laughing in her sleep. Ziva's heart broke how could this happen now? The teddy from Orli was now on the floor. Ziva thought for a moment and picked the teddy up "I brought this for Tali, tell her whenever she needs a hero just talk to the bear they are good listeners" Was this a message from Orli? Turning the teddy around she saw a small zip at the kneck of the teddy she pulled down on it and the back of the bear opened up. Ziva saw a small back object in the teddy, pulling it out Ziva gave a small laugh, a burn phone. Turning it on she scrolled through the phone, only one number, Orli's. Ziva pressed call and waited for an answer.

"Ziva? I take this is not a social call?" Orli sounded half asleep but not surprised at the late night phone call.

"I had a visitor, can you come now? I need a favour and its a big one" Ziva stated and clicked end call. A plan she had set for years, was now in action. Ziva closed her eyes and gulped. To end this she knew what she needed to do. To finally end this all she had to go.

A/N - Yes English is my only language and my grammar and spelling is that of a 2 year old do I do apologise, hope you liked. May post next bit tomorrow