Heartache

It was painful, debilitating even. Who knew that arguments could literally take your life away, draining the very essence of your breath until you succumbed to a numb sadness afterward.

Fatigued, Silver laid upon plush grass surveying the quiet park before him. Whenever the young hedgehog was distressed he would pay a visit to a secluded park that featured a tiny old sandbox playground and a large steep hill overlooking the north side of Station Square. Splayed out on the hill-Silver was lax, once puffy red eyes were now a light pink as the faint ghosts of tear streaks marred his cheeks. He had no idea the relationship he had entered would cause the most heated arguments in his entire life. Granted, the relationship wasn't traditional and if you wanted to be technical you could argue that it was in fact two relationships.

And that was the problem.

A "love triangle" was what the humans called it. However, it usually featured parties that would not settle for more than one partner. For him, his companions had settled yet it was obvious that each had their favorite. The favoritism is what truly destroyed them as it created a burning sense of jealousy for all three of them.

The albino sighed, reflecting on the life he shared with the two. As usual, Shadow spent his days on G.U.N. missions and was gone for split intervals during the week. Sonic was whisked off on adventures months or weeks at a time and Silver had spent his days occupying himself with domestic chores and housework; at times even aiding the other two with their exploits. After being kicked back to the past when the future was re-written, the young hedgehog was mesmerized with simple living, crafting and cooking. His overexposure to a dystopian future had stopped him from truly living and embracing the finer points of life. He was never prepared for the emotional roller coaster to come.

Sitting up, the young hedgehog brought his knees together burying his moist face between them as he felt the wind caress his quills.

Silver had known for a while how much Shadow fancied him. Since they had met the dark hedgehog would watch him with such intensity. At the time Silver could not pinpoint the reason behind it: until the agent started to stalk him. Initially he was put off and avoided the agent at all costs. It was with steely resolve that the youngster listened to the elders stern yet heartfelt proclamation of his feelings and opened himself up to the usually closed off agent. It was the beginning of a passionate relationship for the both of them with Shadow spoiling him at every turn. Silver admitted to himself that he found the dark agent rather handsome. However, originally he had a penchant for another supersonic hedgehog.

Amber eyes softened as they passively glanced at the scenery before them.

Sonic

The hero was absolutely wonderful to the futuristic traveler. He embodied everything he wished he could be and more. His confidence, along with that compassion and wit was just too much. He watched the hero with bated breath and fascination. Every gesture, every step and every syllable was magic to him. He was so lovestruck he couldn't even look him in the eyes. And yet, it seemed the hero had more interest in the very dark agent intent on watching his every move.

The three resolved the issue at hand by admitting the fascination they had with each other. With Sonic at the helm, the three were granted a modest home in Station Square and began to live together. The least competitive of the three and the most naive, Silver celebrated the chance to be with the two that he loved the most, not thinking that he would face a whirlwind of possession and emotional pain.

Shadow was unrelenting, taking every chance he could to cling to Silver and the youngster found himself receiving a large amount of affection from the possessive dark agent. The albino was fine with the attention until he saw the fallen face of his hero of the past. Over time, he watched as the sadness turned into a burning jealousy towards him. The looks Sonic gave him froze his very soul and he more than anything wanted to simply hold the speedster and tell him how much he was loved.

Yet he had to face the truth: Sonic favored Shadow over him. In the same breath, Shadow favored him over Sonic and he had a soft spot for Sonic but was fine loving and entertaining Shadow. Sadly, he was the only one out of the three to actively want to show affection to the both of them. It was with painful resolve that he admitted to himself how futile the three loving each other really was. He would need to tell them how he felt and do something about this rocky relationship.

At once Silver felt a presence behind him.

"Shadow, please leave me alone." Silver muttered once again burying his head between his knees and tilting his head to the side to look away.

He was met with silence until he felt a gloved hand grasp his shoulder. The touch was foreign and fleeting before Silver heard the grass rustle beside him. Timid amber eyes turned and peeked through thin pale legs to catch a glimpse of red and white buckled sneakers in front of him.

Instantly Silver blushed as a feeling of anxiety washed over him. In the blink of an eye bright emerald eyes were peeking right back at him. The younger hedgehog let out a small squeal before lurching his body back to fall flat against the grass, his hands covering his eyes, long quills splayed out beside him. He could hear Sonic crawl to hover over him and sensed the speedster block the sunlight from hitting his hands with his body.

Then, it was silent save for the soft tinkling of a swing set in the wind. Silver tensed, hands still over his eyes as he could feel the others breath ghost across his face.

What did Sonic want?

It was not thirty minutes ago that Silver had stumbled upon Sonic and Shadow fighting. The albino had gone grocery shopping and had come home to unload his purchases when he witnessed the two nose to nose in the kitchen...

"I can't do this anymore!" Sonic snapped glaring into Shadows eyes with contempt.

"I can't see you with him." Closing his eyes the hero stepped back and turned clenching his fists.

"You agreed to this faker! Isn't this what you wanted?" Shadow sneered folding his arms over his chest with a scowl.

"I wanted... I wanted you Shadow!" Sonic yelled before turning to the doorway to witness Silver standing there.

Silver swore that his heart shattered as he forced himself to meet the gaze of the hero he had fallen for since he had been bent on destroying him so long ago. He could feel his eyes water as he watched the shock of the other. It was all a lie, Sonic only welcomed him because he knew it was the only way to bring Shadow. Silver desperately tried to keep his composure and emotions in check before Sonic took a step toward him.

"Silver...I" The guilty hero started, a nervous smile etched across his face.

"Don't!" The futuristic hedgehog struggled to stay calm but felt his energy spike as the bag of groceries he was holding dropped to the floor. His control was slipping. Lights flickered before shattering, pieces of glass and plastic showering down upon them. The kitchen sink was bathed in a turquoise glow as it seemingly turned on of its own accord. The extended nozzle whipped through the air violently spraying water on the kitchen floor. The dirty dishes in the sink shattered before the bits and pieces levitated into the air joining various pans and cutlery. The dining table lurched forward before lifting into the air sharply, the chairs following suit. The forgotten groceries flew off the floor and hit the ceiling. A gallon of milk burst in mid air yet the liquid did not spill but simply floated aimlessly.

Falling to his knees, Silver clutched his head and panted- his amber eyes taking on an ominous shade of turquoise. Crying out the futuristic hedgehog regained control, dropping the table, chairs, groceries and utensils at once with a flick of his wrist. The table slammed to the floor, a leg breaking on contact. Before Silver knew it he was out the door and soaring through the sky with blurred vision heading to the hidden secluded park to calm down.

Now Sonic was over him and he couldn't decide whether he wanted to punch the hero or attempt to flee from him. Slowly Silver could feel Sonic press himself against him, before he felt lips graze and whisper into his ear.

"I'm sorry."

A wave of anger washed over the albino at those words. With a burst of energy he knocked the other clear off of him. Silver stood, taking his hands off of his eyes to finally glare at the other, his embarrassment long gone.

"Don't tease me." Silvers tone was stern in an attempt to suppress his emotions. Still, his eyes welled up with angry tears once again.

"Silver...please listen to me." Sonic gasped out as he shakily stood from the ground, a trickle of blood running from his nose.

"No! You have already made it pretty clear how you feel about me!" Silver snapped walking away from the other to take off. "I am going to pack, and I'm not stupid Sonic. I know the only reason why you are here apologizing is to please him." The futuristic hedgehog avoided looking at the other before once again taking to the sky.

Silver flew towards the small picturesque house that they shared before realizing that Sonic was following him from below. With a burst of power, the youngster shot across the sky hoping that he would at least make it home before the other. No such luck as he saw the hedgehog waiting for him at the front door. Silver simply flew over the house to the back of the second story to take advantage of his open window. Climbing through, Silver sighed as he saw that Sonic was already in his room.

"Can we talk about this?" The blue blur stepped towards him and Silver felt the urge to look at him but refrained. In all honesty he had expected Shadow to be with them and at least say something about the commotion.

Digging around in his closet Silver pulled out a suit case and gathered his personal belongings and essentials with Sonic hovering beside him. After carefully arranging his things in his suitcase Silver opened his nightstand and rummaged through his drawer to pull out his wallet before resuming his search for something else.

After rummaging around some more Silver panicked looking under his pillows and tearing apart his covers.

Where is it?

"Silver, I have it. Shadow showed it to me."

Silver froze still clutching his covers before turning towards the other slowly. A soft look was on the heroes face as he watched Silver before continuing.

"I read it and I know how you feel. I feel the same about Shadow."

"Maybe I can learn to..."

"No, I can't force you to feel for me. Just give it to me."

Sonic sighed running a hand across his face in desperation.

"Silver, I haven't even given you a chance. You and I both know I have been avoiding you since this whole thing began."

The speedster paused before continuing.

"I didn't come to you to please Shadow. Heck, he didn't want me to talk to you. I think he's as jealous of me as I am of you."

Silver crossed his arms angrily, looking very much like the hedgehog mentioned in the conversation. "Just give it to me Sonic. I'm not going to let you pretend to like me." The white hedgehog zipped up his suitcase and levitated it beside him.

"Silver, you know I can't pretend. You knew I was jealous of you. I can't fake my feelings. That's not me!" Sonic explained gesturing to his heart.

"I see now how stupid I've been. I want to give you a chance, like you have given Shadow."

Silver simply walked out of the room his belongings levitating beside him. As for what Sonic read, he would ask Shadow to give it to him later. Sonic followed him downstairs into the living-room that was joined with the kitchen. The first story was torn to shreds. The couch was ripped apart, stuffing spilling from it's sides. The floor lamp was toppled over, the top crushed on the floor. A plethora of books were strewn about and the bookshelf had toppled over the coffee table.

Silver turned in shock to the kitchen to look at the damage he caused to find it ten times worse than how he remembered it. What was once a brand new modern kitchen provided by the city of Station Square had been reduced to a pile of rubble.

Sonic stepped beside him somberly, his emerald eyes surveying the damage.

"Shadow and I fought after you left."

Silver nodded, understanding what happened the moment he walked downstairs.

" Heh...The kitchen is out of commission. How about I take you out for a bite before you go? Please?" Sonic turned to him, a soft apologetic smile on his face. Silver's heart gave a soft flutter at the smile as a blush dusted his cheeks.

"F...Fine." Feeling a bit peckish the younger of the two dropped his suitcase with a thud, and turned fully to finally give the other his full attention.

"So..." Sonic tested out the word trying to gauge the others reaction. "I heard Shads mention you like sushi; do you want that?" Sonic grinned as he caught the blush of the other.

"Sure" Silver shrugged looking away timidly. All this attention from the one he desired was making him nervous. Sonic didn't typically look at him this way, nor did he go out of his way to spend time alone with him.

" I know the perfect place." The spirited hero grasped the hand of the other before attempting to run. Silver simply held him in place with his powers.

"Sonic, I can't keep up with you; you are going to drag me across the floor if you run while holding my hand." Letting go of the hero's hand Silver stepped away to try to keep his distance. The butterflies fluttering in his stomach wouldn't stop after holding the speedsters hand.

" Then it looks like we are going to have to improvise." Sonic smirked with a jolly wink as he swept Silver off his feet and took off.

The rush of wind and pressure was exhilarating, but what was more exciting was simply being held by the seemingly untouchable blue blur. In no time at all they arrived at a hole in the wall sushi joint with tinted windows and a would be bright neon sign that read "Octopus". Carefully depositing Silver on the ground with a tender caress of the cheek, Sonic watched the others reaction to the exterior of the restaurant with amusement. Not to be won over purely by external appearances Silver walked in with Sonic in tow.

The place was dark and empty as it was a Monday and still relatively early in the day. A long thick cobalt light lined the perimeter of the restaurant giving the establishment an ethereal glow. Placed in the back was an electronic flashing rainbow sign that featured the chefs special rolls menu. Clear racks housed bottles of wine and alcohol for display (which Silver thought was very peculiar) and the tables were completely modern and sleek. A large neon lit salt water aquarium was placed in the front mesmerizing Silver. All in all the interior was such a contrast to the exterior which Silver half expected and appreciated. As soon as they walked in they were enthusiastically served- Sonic seemingly being a regular to the place.

They were placed in the back with a small flickering candle between them. A comfortable silence settled between the two as they quickly scanned the menu for drinks and decided on sharing a combination sushi plate.

When the waiter was ready to take their drinks they were ready to order.

"What would you like to drink Sir?" Sonic flashed his signature smile before responding. "A glass of white Yokaichi Mugi for me please."

"And you." The waiter turned to Silver as he scribbled on his small pad.

"A lemonade please."

"Oh come on Silvs! Live a little!" Sonic chuckled before addressing the waiter. "He'll have an Electric Lemonade and we will have the combination B platter. Thanks."

After flashing the appropriate license on Silvers end with a nod the waiter disappeared, leaving a distressed Silver gaping at the one across from him.

"S...Sonic, you don't drink!"

It was a well known fact that Sonic could not hold his alcohol. In fact it was how everyone figured out his orientation and his affinity for Shadow among other things. This was why the hero avoided drinks at all costs-because he could be brutally honest when drunk.

"Heh, heh... yeah. Kinda want a drink now though." Rubbing the back of his quills the hero gave a nervous smile. "Oh" Silver paused practically feeling just how nervous the other really was before steering the conversation. They spent a good amount of time with small talk trying to ignore the issue presented an hour ago.

The food and drinks finally came and a steady silence was once again shared as they ate their fill. Silvers manners at the table were moderate but Sonic's social behavior left much to be desired. When a good portion of the food was gone Sonic ordered another glass of Shouchu.

Alarm shot across Silvers system as he watched Sonic down his second glass. He was barely done with his cocktail himself. He watched as the attentive kind smile was replaced with a lazy grin, the hero's body slouching in his seat.

"You know, I always knew Shads had a thing for ya." Sonic's gaze was slightly glazed and uneven as it seemed he was talking to Silver's chest and not at him.

"I was sooo jealous." He elongated his "so" and licked his lips after jealous.

"Cuz' you are so damn hot." Sonic smirked mischievously and leaned forward pressing his hands against the table to steady his body.

Realizing that though Sonic wasn't trashed he was already way past sober- Silver asked for the check and ate the last two pieces of sushi.

" You're drunk Sonic. We need to go." The younger of the two slightly panicked as he waited for the waiter. It was only a matter of time before Sonic said or did something he would regret.

"I bet he gets turned on by that cute, innocent bit you got going on. I mean, who wouldn't?!" The blue blur raised his voice at the last sentence flinging his arms to the sides whacking his empty glass before Silver could steady it with his powers."

"To be honest, it's those powers that make me hot and bothered. Bet you could do a lot with em'. Heh... maybe you do-do a lot with em." Sonic leered before finally meeting Silver's eyes. A hot blush washed over Silver as he avoided the look biting his lip in embarrassment.

Finally the waiter came to deposit the bill and Silver all but lunged for it.

"Hand it over Silv, I'm paying." The hero swayed to the side and swiped the checkbook from the others hand. Silver watched in awe as the other struggled to pull his card out of his wallet and sign for the tip and the meal. As they waited for the transaction to be processed Sonic propped his head on his hand and stared at Silver in a daze.

"You're lips are really full." Sonic blinked lazily and took a deep breath before speaking again. "...and sometimes...you smell like a sugar cookie."

"Sonic, shh- have some ginger." Silver quickly picked up said ginger with his chopsticks and thrust it towards the drunken speedster. Sonic blinked slowly when offered the ginger before smirking.

"Only if you give me a kiss." The hero sang out, surprisingly on key.

At that moment Sonic's card was returned and they were free to leave. Wobbly, Sonic stood up, whacking into the chairs behind him.

"Whoa, can't control nothin' good."

As they left they were thanked with Sonic giving them a slurred "You're welcome" ending in a comical hiccup. Shaking his head, Silver yanked him out of the restaurant embarrassed yet amused at his antics. Silver sighed, if only Shadow was here. He would probably toss the drunk hero over his shoulder and chaos control them to the house. Admittedly Silver was a little tipsy but no where near as tipsy as the other.

Outside of the restaurant and clinging to Silver, Sonic whispered.

"Silvs. I honestly had no idea you liked me so much." Silver could smell the alcohol in his breath as he leaned down to listen to his whispers.

"You seemed scared of me, and you never looked me in the eyes." He chuckled and coughed lightly.

"When you agreed to stay at the house you never really said you liked me like that. I thought it was to continue to stay with Shadow."

Passionate emerald eyes met his and Silver was speechless as the other continued.

"So, I was kinda jealous and angry and wanted Shads to myself. Shads was always with you and seemed to avoid me." Sonic's speech was hardly slurred and Silver could plainly see the solemn look on the usually joyful ones face.

"Let's continue this after we take you home." Silver reasoned, picking up and shifting the hero in his arms as he took flight. Though he had no idea where they were he was able to find out which direction the house was located by simple observation.

"Silvs... you're an angel." Sonic sleepily muttered. Save for that comment the hero was largely silent during flight. By the time they arrived at the house Sonic had passed out.

Kicking the door open, Silver swayed as his fatigue caught up with him from exhibiting such a large amount of telekinetic energy in one day."Mmph...you're heavy." Silver muttered with a small smile as he looked at the peaceful face and perfect body hanging limp in his arms.

Trudging up the stairs to the bedrooms Silver noticed a post-it at the top of the stairway. Balancing Sonic in his arms Silver grasped the post-it and read it:

International G.U.N meetings. Be back Thursday. We will settle this then. ~Shadow

Sighing, Silver crumpled the note and discarded it before heading to Sonic's room. Sonic's room wasn't what many expected. The hero had few belongings, he simply had a bed and a long mirror. A few socks and books were scattered here and there but nothing to suggest it belonged to a world renowned hero.

Silver stepped into the room and rushed to the bed. The speedsters weight was making his frail arms give out. As soon as he reached the bed his foot connected with something underneath it, causing Silver to trip and drop the others body on the bed before face-planting on the hero's soft belly.

Blushing furiously at his mistake, Silver backed off quickly and crouched to look at the offending object that caused his slip up. A shoe box was barely peeking out from under the bed skirt and sticking out of it was exactly what Silver had been looking for- his journal. Peeved the young hedgehog swiped the shoe box and opened it, pulling out his journal and taking a look at the contents inside.

The box was filled with pictures of everyone they knew. Smiling, Silver remembered a few of them and softly laughed at documented evidence of pranks the blur blur had pulled. Digging further through all the memories Silver found two small manila envelopes. One was old and yellowed and the other seemed newer but was slightly ripped and taped up.

Curious, Silver opened the old one first and pulled out old polaroids of Sonic and Tails when they were much younger. Various pictures of Tails working on the tornado, sleeping soundly under a palm tree and pictures of the two of them posing next to one of the doctor's opened capsules greeted him. Smiling softly, Silver carefully put away what he knew was probably the most cherished pictures Sonic owned before opening the second envelope.

A long thin tear was in the side of the envelope, causing a shower of photos to fall in Silvers lap and on the floor. What Silver was met with shocked him. Gasping, Silver witnessed countless pictures of Shadow and himself on the floor, all of which had obviously been taken without their consent. The majority of the pictures of Shadow were focused on his backside.

One of the pictures of the dark agent was very worn down (Obviously a favorite) and even Silver had to admit that he found the picture amazing. In it, Shadow was sitting on his motorcycle cleaning a gun. Of course, the picture was taken from the backside - granting the viewer a delicious view of the ultimate lifeform's ass.

Not ready to focus on the pictures of himself- Silver sorted through various Shadow pictures which included the agent talking to Rouge and a few of him glaring at the obviously pervy cameraman.

All in all, Shadow was undeniably sexy.

Biting his lip, Silver turned to finally focus on the pictures of himself. Various pictures of him sleeping soundly and cooking were the first to meet his eyes. Strangely enough they were not the least bit perverted. Breathing a sigh of relief tinged with a hint of sadness, Silver started to clean up the mess at hand. Some small part of him wished Sonic would find him physically appealing like Shadow.

After putting away half of the photos he realized he had missed some that had scattered under the bed. Pulling the pictures from under the bed Silver froze and gazed upon a small pile of pictures of him he hadn't seen. They were pictures of him flying; the pictures were taken from below giving the viewer a full view of his physique. Blushing hard once again, Silver started to put the extras away until he came across a picture far different from the rest. He remembered exactly when it was taken though he never saw it being taken.

Two summers ago, Amy hosted a beach party at Seaside Hill. She went all out on refreshments and entertainment for the majority of Sonic Team. Feeling a little overwhelmed due to the large crowd- Silver decided to walk along the shore and pick up seashells to give to Cream later. When he felt he had traveled far enough from the group he bent down to start collecting. He didn't need others to see the little extra blessing between his legs.

Unfortunately, Sonic managed to capture just that in a photo. Bent over in front of the sea the viewer could barely make out a soft pucker, the back of his balls and soft feminine lips in between the two of them. While the pictures of Shadow exhibited the sultry curve of the ultimate lifeform's ass, this picture clearly caught Silver's futuristic reproductive anatomy on display.

Silver was in shock, how long did Sonic know? His gloved hand felt the picture and realized that their was a dried crispy substance on the corner of it.

"What is this?" Silver whispered, pinching the corner of the picture with his glove as the substance flaked off. The answer hit him.

"Oh, it's...oh." Quickly dropping the picture in the envelope with the others Silver in a trance pushed the shoebox under the possibly horny hero's bed, retrieved his journal and left.

Fatigued, the young albino retired to think about his findings and finally sleep. So Sonic did in fact find him attractive. The hero's initial disdain was fueled by jealousy due to his proximity to Shadow. Which wasn't quite fair to Silver. Sleepily Silver climbed into bed. Tomorrow he would see how things went. If Sonic wanted to attempt to stop his jealousy and include him he would give him a chance.

I have posted this story on inkbunny and I am just poppin' it up on here. I'm focusing on finishing Silver and Gold (finally) and will be posting another brand new story after finishing this one. For years these stories have been in the back of my mind bugging me. I want to always finish what I start.