Title: In
My Mind
Rating: PG13
Warnings: Darkness, light swearing
Genre:
Angst/darkness
Ship being sailed: GIN and TONIC! (Aka.
Tom and Ginny)
Disclaimer: I don't own the song, Pretty Girl (The Way) by Sugarcult or anything dealing with Harry Potter. Just borrowing.
I realize
that this might be confusing, but the song is in bold, Tom in the diary is in
italics, and Ginny is regular type. I wrote this for a fanfiction
contest on a site
I'm on, and they usually wipe the topic after the contest is over… I'm quite
proud of this, and I want to save it. It was originally with font colors and
stuff, but that doesn't show on ff.net, so… Meh.
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Ginny rocked back and forth on the bed, knees tightly to her chest, heart
pounding in her ears. God, she was tired. It wasn't that her hands were
shaking, and her eyes were red and that her chest was sore, but that her mind
was strained. She was hurting, and she didn't know why... The redhead girl
nearly sobbed with relief, seeing the letters rise on the pages of the book
sitting in front of her. She watched and read, hungry for the words that were
forming. They danced in front of her eyes, bringing her the silent voice of her
dear friend Tom. He would never leave her...he would always be there when she
needed him.
Pretty girl is suffering, while he
confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about
That's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
That's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
Dear Tom,
I'm feeling bad. Mum and Dad think I'm sick, but I know that's not what's going
on. I need...I need to know that you are real, that you say these things to me
because you...well, because you care about me. I'm so alone... I don't know why
I can be, with all my brothers around, but, God, I am, Tom. Please...say
something...
Ginny... Darling, you are worring
too much. Did I not promice you that you would be
fine? I am here - I am always here, watching and waiting. Waiting
for you to talk to me. Don't listen to what others are saying...remember
that your strength comes from me, Ginny, I can give you the strength that you
need...
Yes, of course...how could I think that you were gone.
You're right, thank you Tom.
It's
the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Tom, I'm scared. I don't know what's happening. There are feathers on the
bed...blood under my fingernails... I can't remember what I did yesterday; I
think I'm going crazy, Tom. I don't...it's so hard just to get out of bed - I
can't feel normal anymore. Help me Tom, I don't know
what to do...there's something that is making me do things... What should I do,
Tom? I'm so afraid...
Go back to sleep, Ginny.
Everything will be fine.
She's
beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
Her killer instinct tells her to beware of evil men
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
Tom, it's
happening again. I don't know what to do! Tom, I think that everything that's
happening in the castle is because of me! What should I do, Tom? Tom? Please
help me! Maybe...Maybe I should go to Dumbledore - he'll know what to do-
No, Ginny. You can't go to Dumbledore.
He wouldn't know what is going on. He'll tell you lies,
Ginny. He won't help you. Only I can help you.
But he's the headmaster, he would never hurt me...he's always been so nice...
You've always been so nice. Look where
it's got you - someone's making you do things, Ginny, things that aren't
nice... Trust me, only I can help you know...
It's
the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Ginny
shoved open the bathroom stall, throwing the diary down, into the toilet, with
all her might.
The black book floated for a moment, mocking her silently. She bit her lip and
flushed the toilet, watching with horror as it wouldn't just dissapear.
"Why aren't you going away?" She screamed, backing out of the stall.
"You did this to me! You - you made me do those things!" Crying, she
kicked the stall wall, watching the water overflow onto the floor. " Dammit, Tom! You lied to
me, didn't you! You lied!" Fleeing, Ginny ran from the room. The ghost in
the next stall, shook her head and vanished away.
It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Love
Why did you try and throw me away,
Ginny? That wasn't very nice.
I don't
think I can trust you.
Why, Ginny... I've always been your
friend... I'm only trying to help you... I've always tried to help you...
I think you're lying to me, Tom. I'm...going to stop writing, now.
You can't just stop writing, Ginny!
You're mine now! You brought yourself to me! Even now, you're supplying me with
strength! You can't just stop this!
You're scaring me...
Ginny? GINNY! Dammit,
you will come back to me! YOU WILL!
Pretty
girl, pretty girl
Tom?
Tom... I'm sorry... Tom, please talk to me. I didn't...mean it... You're right, I should have listened to you... Tom? Oh, please talk
to me; I'm so tired...
Pretty
girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out
You can never get 'em out of
your head
It's time, Ginny.
Time for what?
You know. Go to the Girl's Bathroom. I
will show you the way, Ginny. Now, go, when no one will see you.
But, Tom, I don't...
Go, Ginny. Go now.
It's
the way
That he makes you cry
It's the way
That he in your mind
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Tom, why is it so cold down here - it's like... It feels like the inside of a
tomb... I'm so cold. It's wet. Tom... Tom, why am I here? Where are we? ...
Tom? Tom, why aren't you talking to me? I'm here - what do you want me to do?
Tom, I'm so afraid...so tired...
It's
the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
Love
Tom...I can't...things are so hazy... I just might faint if I...Tom, I hear
something moving... Tom, there's someone here with me...
"Go to sleep, Ginny. I'm here."
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I hope you all liked it! Cheers!