After all is said and done she was left out there alone.
After all was said and done he abandoned her.
After all they said and did they came through for her.
Cold sweat drenched her body and made her flannel pajamas stick to her skin. She had one of those dreams again. Her breathing was slowly returning back to normal as she stared ahead at the blank crimson red walls of her room. The bed she laid in had crisp crimson red sheets, blanket, and pillow cases.
Crimson Red. Blood Red was more like it.
A frustrated sigh erupted from her lips and she tossed the blanket aside. The room was completely red. Her skin even appeared red because of the damn curtains. It was like a dark room and there would never be light returning there.
"Another long day ahead." She sighed as she stood before her full length mirror doors of her closet. Making a face at her reflection she slid open the door and selected her school uniform. It was the same ugly blue skirt, white button up dress shirt, pink dress jacket, and ridiculous blue bow. Tea was in no rush to get into the hideous thing so she walked slowly to the bathroom while dragging the uniform on the white carpet floor. Putting the uniform on the toilet lid she plugged in her stereo blasting Fall Out Boy's new song Carpal Tunnel Of Love then peeled her pajamas off and tossed them into the dirty clothes basket.
As she took her usual hot shower she scrubbed her skin pink and used her green apple shampoo/ conditioner. When she was done she dried herself off and applied lotion. Tea brushed her teeth with the crimson towel wrapped around her body. She looked up in the mirror with the white minty foam around her mouth and dripping off her chin. A grunt of a laugh came out awkwardly and she crossed her eyes and puckered her lips. Tea shook her head with a slight laugh and washed it off. As she dressed the all too familiar song came on. Tea hated this but loved it at the same time. As she brushed her hair she listened to The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus song Face Down.
Now being fully clothes she sighed at the reflection.
She didn't want this. She never even saw it coming. Why did it seem like they had been planning it for years? How was it possible she saw absolutely no signs? When did this happen?
These questions always came to her mind occasionally but now she pushed them away like she always did. She was used to doing this, brainwashing herself into thinking it never happened and she never had friends to begin with.
"Shit happens." Tea said and walked out of the bathroom in her black tube socks. Instead of wearing the white shirt she opt to black. There was no brightness in her world anymore and there was no need to impress someone. Having no appetite she grabbed her school bag, a granola bar, and slipped on her black Mary Jane shoes before heading out the door.
Tea walked to school alone while munching on her granola bar and staring up at the sky.
'It's going to rain.' She thought and stopped at the crosswalk. Her peers were entering school and she did too. Just another face in the crowd, was once a somebody and was now a nobody.
'A useless piece of public property.' Her eyes glared towards the ground. The glare could kill if she had telekinesis. Tea went to class a second before the bell rang. As she walked to her desk she couldn't help the glance towards them.
They looked so fucking cool. They acted like it never happened. They acted like it was a natural process in the world. She averted her eyes towards her seat and sat down.
Class went on as usual but towards the end of school a paper airplane landed oh so gently on her desk. She quickly looked around but saw no snickers or proof of the culprit. Picking up the paper plane she saw the words "Open" written on one of the wings. Curiosity was the cat and the cat was clawing her legs for her to open.
Tea opened the plan and read the note. A look of anger flashed across her face as she crumpled the plane and shoved the wad into her school bag.
'Fucking Jerks.' The bell rang and she collected her things and started to leave the hell hole. Tea took a detour to the park knowing it could rain at any moment. As she sat in the seemingly empty park she looked out to the grass fields used for soccer. Sitting alone on the cold wood park bench an eerie silence took over the city. At that very second she closed her eyes and felt the rain fall.
She could never do this if she still lived with her parents. They would scold her and ground her. Never getting any feel of what she actually wanted Tea held this moment as if time stood still.
Being caught in the serene moment she never heard it coming. She never even had a warning. Not even a ten second start.