Yes, more Takayuki/Kazuki from me, buahaha. I just love this pairing too much 8w8 This was actually written before Deception even though I posted it after. It's just a short drabble, so no smut or anything (I probably won't be writing any smut lol, it embarrasses me too much), just small allusions. Please R&R!
Oh lol and also, I promise I'll try to put up a happier story of these two eventually, because despite the drama and intensity surrounding them most of the time, they do have happier moments! Just wait for them~
Cheated: Takayuki Utsunomiya x Kazuki Hino
Kazuki Hino has never known love. At least, he thinks he hasn't. Maybe whatever he felt for Mira in the past was love (he'd like to call it love, at any rate), but all of the books and magazines and movies kept screaming at him how undeniably pure and wonderful love was. Loving Mira hadn't been wonderful; it had been painful. Outright rejection. Pure humiliation. Kazuki knew that Mira would always love him back (although not in the way that he wanted him to), but it still just hurt so much.
No one has ever told Kazuki that they love him. His mom said it. Mira said it. Did they count? Not really. Parents and close friends were obligated to love you and obligated to let you know. If someone loved Kazuki (really, really loved him in that kind of connected way that meant you were more than just friends) they never said it. If they said it, they didn't mean it the way he wanted it to be meant.
So when Kazuki was first told from someone that wasn't a parent or close friend or anything of the sort that they loved him, he was shocked. Love? Was it really that? Was there really love in the midst of the rough kisses and the abrasive touches: the tears, the cries, the anger, the hurt, the rest of it all? Kazuki didn't really have anything to compare it to, except for that one intimate moment between him and Mira. He didn't think that really counted.
In the stories, flowery words and poetic language surrounded the beauty of two partners together. In the magazines, the tips said to begin with soft touches and move to gentle caresses and to only escalate if both parties approved. In the movies, the man and the woman embraced and smiled and kissed and lived happily ever after.
None of that happened to Kazuki. None of it. They never hugged; they never held hands. There were no smiles, only smirks and frowns and facial expressions of hatred and anguish coupled with vocal expressions of the same thing. The sex was rough and quick and regrettably enjoyable. If this was love, then it was nothing society claimed it to be. If this was love, Kazuki felt cheated because Mira and Kyousuke (and everyone else, for that matter) looked so much happier. And, if this was love... Kazuki didn't think he wanted to love ever again.
Kazuki Hino has never known love. But Takayuki Utsunomiya keeps trying to tell him that he does.