Not sure I understand
By
Sannikex
A/N: This is my second song fic and it's based on Feel with Robbie Williams. Hope you like it, if you do leave a review! I do not own the song or the characters. English is not my first language and this chapter is not beta-ed so please forgive some faults, and if you don't understand, mail me!
She went past my table again, I cannot see her I have my back in her direction but I can smell her. She has a very distinct scent of something fresh, like forest or sea.
I don't know how my obsession of Ginny Weasley started but I've always cared for her since my father gave her that stupid diary. I suppose it's like some apology for what Lucius did to her. Now he is in Azkaban and can't destroy anymore lives. It was Potter who sent him there. I had collected proof that my father was a deatheater for years and then Potter just walks in to the Department of Mystery and gets him sent to prison in no time at all, and so saint Potter gets the honour. Why is everything so easy for Potter? It's not fair.
When father got to Azkaban I was quite lost because in my whole life someone has decided what I should do and what I should not. And then suddenly I was all alone, then I wished that she would come to me, hold my hand and say "You don't need your father, Draco. You'll manage fine without him."
Come on hold my hand, I wanna contact the living. Not sure I understand, this role I've been given.
But she did not, she does not even know what I feel for her. Now she walks by again. Oh, can't she stay away from me! I can't shield my eyes when she is near so I have to sit with my back towards her when I in fact want to turn around and stare at her for hours.
If there is any God up there then please let me get this girl and I will never ask about anything again! I can almost hear him laugh and say "Wait and see,wait and see". I don't want to wait and see, I hardly understand these feelings I have, I've never felt like this for anyone ever.
I sit and talk to God and he just laughs about plans, my head speaks a language I don't understand.
There is one thing I understand and it is that I want to learn to love and be loved.By her. I grew up in a loveless home and I want to fill the empty space in my chest where my heart should have been. I want to have a life
I just wanna feel real love,fill the home that I live in. 'Cause I got to much life running trough my veins,going to waste.
For the moment I don't have a life, not a life worth living. But I don't want to die either not at seventeen that's just a waste of life. Before I fell in love with Ginny Weasley I prepared to take my life then it struck me that I had to live to see if she liked me. I have not asked yet, I'm too scared of the answer.
I don't wanna die but I ain't keen on living either. Before i fall in love I'm preparing to leve her. I scare myself to death,that's why I keep on running. Before I've arrived I can see myself coming.
I raised from my chair and winced as the noise from the chair broke the silence in the library. Madame Pince gave me a sharp look before she returned to her papers. I have to tell Ginny how I feel now or I will never get the chance and courage again.
I just wanna feel real love, fill the home that I live in. 'Cause I got to much life running trough my veins, going to waste. And I need to feel, real love in a love ever after. I cannot get enough.
I just wanna feel real love, fill the home that I live in. 'Cause I got to much love running trough my veins, going to waste. I just wanna feel real love, in a life ever after.
Ginny Weasley looked up as a shadow fell over her and there stood Draco Malfoy looking lost.
There's a hole in my soul you can see it in my face, it's a real big place.
Now I want her to hold my hand again so I'll be brave enough to tell her he thought longingly.
Come and hold my hand, I wanna contact the living, not sure I understand this role I've been given
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Not sure I understand
Oh why would I want to understand? Just tell her!
And I did...
A/N2: Did you like it? I had fun writing it, if I get response I'll write more chapters so review and I'll write a chapter from Ginny's point of view too and what happens after Draco told her.