Chapter 1: Prologue
I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him, I love him...
And so the cycle continues.
I confessed to him out of a blue at the library. My emotions overflowed and I couldn't stop myself.
But he accepted my feelings and we started dating.
I wanted to know him better so I stayed with him.
I love him so much that I want to see him smile.
I loved his voice, his touch, his eyes, his body, his whole self.
I gave my own self to him that night. He was my first...I just hope I'm his.
I followed my heart and my emotions. I never thought about all of it. But the only thing I knew was to make Saga-senpai happy.
A teenage dream it is.
I want to know you, but do you know me well?
But one day, I saw you at the library. I was about to call your name when a girl kissed you. My mouth was open out of shock and my eyes widen. But you closed your eyes and savored it.
Betrayal.
So I ran away and hide.
Then I went towards you for a talk. I really want to know. But you drag me into your house. You shove me in your room, locked the door, and pin me on your bed.
You're gaze is different. It was terrifying.
You kissed me forcefully. It wasn't the kiss that you gave me when we did it the first time. It was forceful and clouded with lust.
Lust only...No desire, no want, no love, no emotions, nothing.
You tied my hands with my belt and bite my body. Every bite was painful and unbearable. There was no pleasure, just pain.
"S-stop..."
I begged for you to stop, but you ignored me.
It hurts...
It hurts...
The pain burns me like a deadly fire. It stabs me like a thousand knives.
You forced you fingers in me and continued to thrust with force. I screamed and shouted for you to stop. But you opened the door and the window wide.
He's trying to let the others hear me.
He thrust his fingers again as I tried to surpress my voice. But he forced his fingers again.
But he grabbed some things that I couldn't pinpoint and started thrusting. He tied it so I couldn't find any release.
He was done with the toys...
But he still wants more.
He forced himself upon me without any warning. I screamed so much for it hurts all over.
Those words stung like knives, stabbing in my heart. It was all horrible...it hurts. Why would he say that just now? After a few months of dating him...he just said that just now.
"I...I never once loved you."
Those words...I couldn't pinpoint if he's telling the truth or not. It hurts so much.
"I just agreed to all of this so you could stop pestering me."
Why? I couldn't ask him. My body froze and no words could come out.
"W-why...?" I was stuttering out of shock and fear.
He laughed bitterly like I was saying some sort of a joke. Is this how it felt to be hurt? No wonder it's so painful.
"Why? Why!? Simple, idiot..."
It hurts. Your words, it stabbed me.
He whispered at me. Such painful words...
"Just to pass some time. You're quite a charmer for your own good."
So cold...so dark...
That voice...it no longer held any warmth.
"You're quite so fun to play with. I like playing with someone's attitude and you're the perfect toy for me."
A toy...something to pass up time...
Where's the Saga-senpai I once knew?
"You almost caught my heart, you know? But sadly, it didn't. Such a shame Ritsu~"
But you caught mine. Yet you just toyed with it. Why would you destroy it?
That once soft voice that is filled with emotions. Became cold and venomous. A malicious and evil voice.
He chuckled darkly as my eyes widen. His once bright hazel eyes were now dark and cold.
"I can't believe that you would fall for all of this! Ha, pathetic!"
I let my emotions and heart get the best of me.
He then walked away and said those final words.
"Goodbye, Oda Ritsu."
This... this is pain? Emotions... what are they again?
And everything around me became dark.
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A/N: this is still a trial, everyone. I just had the idea of a betrayal story for the Nostalgia couple. So how is it?
So an AU. Saga really broke our cute uke's heart. Now let's see what will happen, Ne?
Let me know your feedback everyone.
Also, just wait for the next update of my other stories. Having a major writer's block after writing this.