Cardfight! Vanguard: Painful Truths and Desires
Rated: Mature
Pairings: Aichi x Ren, Aichi x Kai
Author's Note: I don't own any of this or any of the characters in this fanfiction a side from my Ocs later in the story. I also couldn't have done this without my good YouTube friend Elemntalherogunman. This story contains self-harm and sucidal thought and actions.
Chapter 1: Hurtful Words
***Kai's P.O.V.***
"It's all your fault that Kai couldn't face me! It's your fault for always being a burden to Kai!" Ren Suzugamori yelled at a much smaller bluenette. I didn't say a word as my once good friend Ren spat cruel words at Aichi.
"Why did Kai who is a strong fighter end up with someone as pathetic and pitiful person like you?" Ren spat as Aichi lowered his head to hide his face behind his long hair.
"Sto-!" Misaki protested as Aichi stopped her.
"Misaki stop its alright." Aichi said
"Aichi?!" Misaki argued
"He's right it's all my fault that Kai couldn't fight him." Aichi said his voice came out uneven.
"That's right Aichi it is your fault!" Ren smirked
"Kai?!" Misaki called out to me hoping that I might be able to Aichi it wasn't his fault.
"What?" I asked not wanting to get involved
"Yes, Kai how about you say it yourself. Say that it was Aichi's fault that you weren't able to fight me!" Ren purred seeing the look of desperation in Aichi's eyes when he asked me to say it. Aichi looked ready to collapse to the ground in tears.
"Fine, but I'm only say it because its the truth! Yes, it's because of Aichi being Q4's weakest link that I was unable to fight you Ren!" I spat not caring about Aichi when he walked out of the building holding his head low.
"KAI!" Misaki and Kamui yelled
"What do you want now?!" I asked not wanting to be bothered by those losers.
"WHY DID YOU HAVE TO SAY THAT TO MY BROTHER?!" Kamui yelled furious at me.
"I already said the reason!" I said not one for repeating myself.
"IT'S NOT THE TRUTH!" Kamui yelled
"Whatever!" I said walking in the opposite direction that Aichi went.
***Aichi's P.O.V.***
I walked out of the building unable to speak against Ren and Kai. I was Q4's weakest link after all. I was my fault that Kai wasn't able to fight Ren. It's my fault for holding Kai back from becoming a stronger cardfighter.
Kai said so before that the weakest link should be left out of the fight. So I'm doing just that I'm leaving Q4. They'll be better off without me holding them back. To show that I'm committed to leaving Q4 I threw my Vanguard cards down into the sewer forever. I didn't feel any remorse when I threw them away.
I no longer held the will to live like I did just a few hours ago. I didn't even care when my clothes got drenched as it begun to pour. I walked slowly threw the rain until I found myself in an empty ally way. Where I found a sharp pocket knife on the ground.
I picked it up unafraid of the pain as I carved the words: WEAKEST LINK on my arm with the blade. The rain washed away the blood that spilled from the wound. I felt slightly better after I cut myself actually.
I fell to the cold wet ground completely numb from head to toe. I couldn't even feel the tears fall from my eyes. It hurts being called weak by your idol. It hurts knowing that your idol thinks you're a burden to them. I've never felt such excruciating pain before in my life.
"I'm sorry for ever been breathing the same air you do, Kai." I whispered knowing he'll never come searching for me. Maybe Kamui or Misaki might search for me?
Soon I fell asleep from mental exhaustion. In the morning when the sun woke me up I felt groggy and stiff. My clothes were literally completely soaked along with my hair.
I had to change myself in order to forever leave Q4. I had my wallet which had $150 in it from my allowance that I hardly ever spend. So I went to dye my hair, and also cut it shorter. The lady who did my hair was rather friendly, but she probably only want to keep her job and get good tips. She saw the words I carved in my arm, but didn't question it thankfully. Once I got done my hair wasn't bright blue anymore it was jet-black, and the once shoulder length hair was not only ear length.
"Thanks." I said softly payer her the $65 that I owed her. She gave me a arm-wrap to cover up the cuts.
After that I need to get some new clothes with my remaining $85 I have left. It took about an hour to figure out what to buy. In the end I bought a burgundy turtle-neck with long-sleeves, and a pair of black jeans. Along with punk belt and a spiked choker. The total came out to be $70 leaving me with only $15 for food for the day.
"I need a job." I said aloud
***Meanwhile With Q4***
"Where's Aichi?!" Kamui yelled wondering why his 'brother' hasn't came back yet.
"I don't know." Misaki replied softly also worried about him.
"Hey, look what I've found by the sewer not too far from here!" Miwa said panting from running all the way to Card Capital. In his hand he held a rather drenched Buster Blade card.
"BUSTER BLADE?!" Kamui yelled shocked to find that card all wet. Buster Blade is Aichi's avatar, and the card itself held a lot of meaning to Aichi as well.
"I couldn't find the other cards sorry." Miwa said catching his breath
"Buster Blade was given to Aichi by Kai…so…!" Kamui said
"So that's why he threw it away!" Miwa announced
"Why?" Misaki asked lost
"Since Kai gave Buster Blade to Aichi, and Kai was the one who utterly destroyed him yesterday. Why would he keep a hold of a card that the same person who gave him courage also gave him despair?" Miwa explained
"Oh." Misaki said putting the pieces together
Kai sat behind everyone nonchalantly like he couldn't care less that someone was now missing because of him.
"KAI YOU FUCKING BASTARD!" Kamui cussed at Kai for not caring that he caused Aichi to leave.
"What?!" Kai hissed glaring at the runt out of the group.
"Y…YOU DON'T CARE THAT YOU CAUSED AICHI TO LEAVE! WHY ARE YOU FUCKING HELPING US FIND HIM?!" Kamui screamed at him
"Help? Me, you want ME to help you FIND someone who's better off not returning?! We don't FUCKING need that son of a bitch! He's so damn weak compared to the rest of Q4!" Kai spat frustrated that everyone kept looking at him like he did something worth going to prison for. All he did was tell Aichi the cold hard truth that's all.
"YOU BASTARD GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE! NOW!" Misaki screamed enraged by what Kai just said.
"DON'T BOSS ME AROUND BITCH!" Kai yelled slapping her across her cheek making her fall to the ground stunned in fear of Kai.
"I WISH THAT FUCKING PRICK WAS NEVER BORN!" Kai yelled walking out of the card shop in an even worst mood than before.
"What gotten into him?" Miwa wondered to himself. He knew Kai for a long while, but he was never one to explode like that or to hit a woman.