Shock.
That was my internal emotion, thats what controlled my body to keep moving. As i walked my body became numb from the ice cold rain pouring
down. My heart was beating in my ears as loud as a drum. My vision was blurred and my mouth dry. An hour of events replaying in my head as i
made my way to my appartment. Just an hour ago i was with her and she was talking to me, healthy as a horse. Or so i thought, she kept it from
me, never once did she give me a hint that she was sick. And now she's gone forever, she just couldn't win the fight. The cancer had spread further
and no more treatments could help aid her. I finnally made it home, as i walked in everything was a pain to me, it all reminded me of her. I broke
down and cried knowing the simple fact that she was never coming back. That she breathed her last breath at 9:27 pm. I took a shower after i was
able to control myself. I stood in the shower letting the warm water relax my mind and body. Afterwards I climbed into bed and right before i fell
asleep i whispered.
"Im going to miss you. I love you . . . mom"
X x x x x
*Ring*Ring*
I sighed and grabbed my phone from my nightstand. It was Tawni.
"Hello"
"Sonny, how are you?"
"Alright I guess, I could be better."
"Yeah, Im sorry about your mom" Tawni sighed
"Thanks, it means alot." My voice cracked
"Sonny is everything ok, do you need someone to come over?"
"No NO, Tawni its ok I dont want to bother you" I instantly replied
"Ok Sonny First it wouldnt bother me. Second I ment someone else, Im in Las Vegas For the weekend." I rolled my eyes
"Your not 21 yet Tawni and you know it" I stated
"Its a month difference big deal, besides Im not on any contract right now" I shook my head
"Just because you dont have a job right now doesnt mean to do something irresponsible" Tawni laughed
"Ok Sonny," Then there was a noise in the background " I gotta go I wont see ya for a while so I give you the best of luck on your movie" With
that Tawni hung up. I layed in bed willing my body to become unconsious with sleep. It was 1:30 and still nothing. I kinda wish i took Tawni up on
her offer. Then as if god heard my prayer my phone went off.
*Ring*Ring*
This time it was Chad, I hesitated for a second for we havent been close since our breakup 2 years ago. Most people didnt know the reason we
broke up, some believed the press was it. Others think we were unfaithful to each other. The true story, a movie producer believed we could get
more people to watch our movie if i dated my co-star. Before I could say no he leaked it to the press. Chad at the time was at Flordia Promoting
his upcoming TV series 'Agent Zero' when he heard the news. I tried to explain but the press got the better of his judgement. In the end I went to
the premiere dateless for I refused to go with my co-star. Chad and I stayed distant and never talked again until a year later at the VMAs. It
never was the same as the old days.
"Hello"
"Sonny" Chad sighed 'whats with everyone sighing'
"Yes"
"How are you holding up?"
"Fine"
"Do you need me to come over?"
"No no Im fine" 'I know I want someone here right now but not Chad'
"Sonny I dont think you should be alone, your mom just past away" At that I started to cry
"I guess, come over please" I begged Chad
"Ill be there in 5"
"Thanks" with that i hung up and cried even harder
X X X X X
Just like he said Chad was over in five minutes. I opened the door for him, I havent seen him in 7 months. His hair was short and spiked alittle,
he had a small visible mustache. I could tell that his muscles were more developed. Chad dropped his duffle bag by the door.
"Come here" Chad whispered while opening his arms and hugged me.
It felt good to be in his arms again. He wore the same cologne as before. I became happy that he came, he soothed me the way no one else
could. After a while I started tp become sleepy and Chad noticed the yawn that escaped my lips.
"Come on lets get you to bed" Chad brought me to my room.
When I got settled I noticed Chad beginning to leave.
"Please stay with me" I whispered, Chad stopped and turned around
At first when Chad layed down he didnt know what to do. Finnally I just pulled him closer and snuggled into his chest. I took a deep breath and
slowly began to fall asleep. I started to dream, Chad and I were together and he was giving me kisses on the cheek. He gradually moved to my
neck, I giggled and whispered
"Chad"
One little detail I forgot to mention, I talk in my sleep.
hope you like the first chapter
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