Title: Chances Taken, Hope Embraced.

Fandom: The Twilight Saga

Pairing: Alice & Bella

Rating: M

POV: Bella Swan

Chapter 1: What Must We Do To Restore?

… I've seen worlds that don't belong

My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize

Tell me why we live like this

Keep me safe inside

Your arms like towers

Tower over me

Yeah

Cause we are broken

What must we do to restore

Our innocence

And oh, the promise we adored

Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole…

I could hear the music blasting out of the speakers of my room clearly even though I was is the shower. The feeling of the hot water cascading over my body, releasing the tension in my back and shoulders was a welcome relief from the icy water that I had so recently been submerged in. I had drowned, Scratch that I had almost drowned. Thankfully, Jake had saved me. I think maybe even if it was only for a second I accepted it, Death. It wasn't my intention to kill myself, subconsciously maybe but it never occurred to me I could be suicidal. I hadn't taken into account the current or how strong the force of the water might have been, I didn't even thing about how the weight of my clothing would hold me down but still maybe for a second, just maybe I had welcomed the thought of letting the water obliterate me.

I was human after all, wasn't I? It's what he wanted, what she wanted but still I wondered how could I be completely human living with the knowledge I have, with the things that I have experience? He wanted me to forget but how do you forget entire worlds, civilizations, and people? How can I forget my family? I never thought I would be that girl, the one who thinks breaking up with her boyfriend is the end of the world so hopefully I'm not; I mean it wasn't just him, forgetting for a second that we were supposed to be forever, literally I didn't just get dumped by my boyfriend. Almost everyone that I any sort of emotional connection with left in the space of 24 hours he was barely a blip on my radar.

There were Esme and Carlisle, although maybe not as much Carlisle because I still had Charlie but it wasn't like Renee was visiting anytime soon. Esme was formerly the closest thing to a mother I had. Then came Emmett and Rose, he was like the ultimate big brother, embarrassing me endlessly but still protecting me completely. I can't say the same for Rosalie but I know that they is more to that than he had ever told me. Finally Jasper and…Her, Jasper always kept his distant for the obvious reasons even though in the end it didn't really matter. I knew he had no problems with me personally or at least I hoped that but…her? I think she hurt me even more than he had. In a relationship you're always going to have problems, large ones or just silly disagreements, I always had them with him but she was the one I turned to and she didn't even say goodbye. The two people I love (or was it loved?) the most other than my own parents and they simply abandoned me. Is anybody react well with that? Had Charlie? I knew it destroyed him seeing me the way I've been but if anybody could relate to it and just understand that I needed time shouldn't it be him? Didn't he get that nothing but time and maybe not even that would be the only thing that could help me, the only thing other than them…

I made my way out of the bathroom wearing a plain tank and boy shorts, my usual sleeping attire and I grabbed my book off the nightstand. My nightmares were something I had become accustomed to over the months and although I was so far unable to bring them to a complete stop I found that when I read the weren't as bad. If Charlie found one thing harder than seeing me constantly miserable it was waking up to me screaming out from emotional agony. At the moment I am reading the book, Catcher In The Rye, I have to say that I love it so I am trying to reading as slowly as possible. HOLY MOTHER OF – I was pulled away from the book and momentarily deafened by the loud screeching of a car plummeting down our street. Rushing to my bedroom window saw the blur of a yellow sports car coming to a stop in front of my house. I kept staring at the car waiting for the driver to exit but nothing came, I wondered why someone who seemed in such a complete rush could just be sitting there. I jumped in surprise at the sound of my bedroom door slamming shut; it was probably the wind from my open window…except my door was closed. I turned around imminently and I found myself face to face with someone I thought I'd never see again.

I looked everywhere up, down, left, right, skin, lips, hair, eyes. I struggled with myself hate her for leaving, get angry, yell, cry, she's back now she won't leave you again, will she? This all happened in a split second before I launched myself onto her. Alice.

"I, you're, you're here, b-back. Oh My God. I-I missed you." I was literally clinging to her as if my life depended on it, I didn't know why she'd come back or if she would stay but I don't think I'd ever been happier to see anyone.

"Bella, I don't, how, I mean I saw…" I had never seen Alice or any vampire for that matter speak with so much uncertainty. She frightened me not because she was a vampire or because her eyes were currently coal black but because she looked utterly broken and her eye were dull, that light, gone and not because she needed the hunt.

"Bella," she said my name again," How are you alive?"

AN: This isn't even half of what I have planned for the first chapter but I just wanted to see if anyone liked it before I continued. Please give me any feedback you can and tell me if you think it's worth continuing. From what I've written you probably get the jist of it and I will agree that to begin with it is the classic Alice and Bella get together after Alice comes back in New Moon but it gets a lot better and way, way AU. I've planned around 20 chapters and I've already added a new character so anything you can give me to motivate will be a big help as im not very confident with my writing.

THANK YOU & OBVIOUSLY I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT