My Unknown Love

Info, Rating, and a Warning: Rated M for a reason: there will be lemons in later chapters. Also M for cussing, but I really don't think that's a big deal. And for those sad and uptight few out there who don't approve of yaoi or yuri I suggest you leave. However, those of you who love it and pretty much think it's the best thing ever, then read and drop a review to tell me what you think. Hope this story is as much fun to read, as it was to write.

Pairings: Renji x Ichigo, Tatsuki x Orihime, and whoever else pops into my head XD

A//N: This is a rewritten version of how the very beginning of Bleach started out. Its plot is very, if not, completely different, but I'm trying to keep the characters as closely matched to the real ones as possible (well, as far as how they act anyway ha ha). Also, I'd like to thank all the authors who helped inspire me to write. Their stories are so amazing! Just go to my profile and you'll see them. Ok, with that said, I hope you all like my first fan-fic.

Disclaimer: As awesome as it would be, sadly I do not own Bleach or any of the characters … but if I did, this is pretty much how things would roll if it were up to me (lemon style). XD

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Chapter One: First Glance

"DAMNIT!" Ichigo roared as he snapped a high kick into the senior's torso, only to be caught off guard by a right hook to his ribs.

He was in another back ally brawl with the seniors that always pay him a little "friendly" visit every week.

The unexpected hit didn't make him shout out in pain, more like a yell to show just how pissed off he was. He easily side stepped an on coming thrust kick and grabbed the stretched leg, twisting it so hard the man ended up face down on the ground coughing with pain.

After a series of quick dodges, hard kicks, and fierce punches, Ichigo was left standing in the middle of six senior thugs down on the ground gasping for breath and holding their very injured limbs. Ichigo sighed and gathered up his book bag and headed back out of the ally on his way home.

Guess that makes me late for supper again. Damn those jackasses' really piss me off! Why can't they just drop it with my hair already? I'll have to pound it out of them even harder tomorrow if they don't stay at home like a bunch of pussies. The park was right in front of the ally and he walked alongside it's tall iron fence, at the end of the fence it would take him to the corner where the clinic sat across the street, but it'll take about five minutes to get there from here. It was mostly dark now and the streetlights flickered to life as the last ray of sun slowly sank into the horizon. He walked around the familiar corner and opened the small gate to the clinic- his home.

He cracked open the door enough where he could see the kitchen, luckily no one was around. He shifted to see the living room across from the kitchen and likewise it was empty. He sighed in relief.

Yuzu and Karin must be in their room playing or something. And since dad's still downtown in another meeting, the clinic's closed for today and he wont be back until tomorrow evening. Grateful for the empty home --with no accusing comments from his much younger sisters, or worse, a crazy overly hyper dad who jumped out of no where as soon as you stepped in the door-- he got in, shut the door, and quickly ran up the stairs to his room.

He turned around and locked the door, tossed his book bag off his shoulder, pulled off his shirt and finally, collapsed on his futon, feeling like the whole day was worth it just to be laying there in sheer comfort and peace.

It seems like there's been even more wondering souls here lately... -Sigh- and as if that's not enough, I just can't wrap my mind around this pit in my stomach, it's driving me fucking crazy! Ichigo let his thoughts wonder. For as long as he could remember, he could see the souls of the dearly departed and no one but Tatsuki knew about his secret. Everyday he would find a wondering soul and try to put them at peace. He didn't know why, but after listening to these souls and then learning ways to help resolve their worried minds, he would see them fade away right before his eyes, into what he hoped was a better place.

No one had appointed him this duty and no one had to. Ichigo didn't know why he had this power, where the souls would go after he helped them, or even why the souls were left in this world to wonder freely in the first place. But what he did know was that he was surely fated to use this power and putting the souls to rest was the best thing he could do. But on top of that, he's been having these very strange feelings.

Feelings that only recently came up, but for some reason felt like he's always had them. And even though he can see dead souls, fight off tough bastards every week, and still go through high school, none of that had ever made him feel this … strange, and different. And these feelings make him stand on edge and that's one thing Ichigo has never been able to stand. He had no idea what it was, but it was almost like a feeling of … fate? But about what …?

-sigh- Guess I'll just have to be more alert and try to figure the damn thing out tomorrow.

And with that final thought he quickly drifted to sleep.

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Renji was walking around the park for the fifth time that evening. Damnit I'm so bored! I swear, if I see that rock covered in moss one more time, I'll fucking through it at someone!! He went over and kicked the rock over the fence, anyway. If I'd have known it would've been this boring, I wouldn't have even escaped the damn Soul Society, I would've just stayed!! He walked around a few more minutes before finding a patch of grass next to the fence and settled down, leaning back and staring into the dark orange sky due to a setting sun.

No. No matter what, I would never have stayed in that hellish place: The Soul Society and the damn Soul Reaper Academy. Not after all the shit that's happened. He stretched his nice muscled legs and arms out lazily and stared up once again into the sky with tired eyes.

Why did I ever go in the first place? After learning the secrets of becoming mortal again I should've just taken off, why did I have to stay so long and think that I would ever fit in? Guess that shows how pathetic I really am.

His thoughts ended as he heard a rustle coming from the other side of the fence. Curious, he leaned up and turned around to try and find what made the sound. Probably just a damn cat, oh well, I am bored after all. He got up and started walking alongside the fence trying to listen for the sound again and stuffing his hands in his pockets. He kept walking until he was a few feet just outside an ally way. Muffled punches and kicks could be heard, followed by a few people's chuckles. Hmm … six? Seven people, I think? He rested his hand on the hilt of his unnoticed Zampacto.

He wore a pair of baggy cargo pants and a navy blue tank top under a black jacket. All his clothes were loose and baggy so he could hide Zabimaru easily by his side and still draw it quickly if he needed to. He ditched his uniformed Shikakushou a few days back. Another bonus after he'd discovered how to become human was that he still had his Soul Reaper powers. Probably another reason they were hunting him down.

He stopped just ahead of the ally and leapt over the fence landing soundlessly on the other side. He paced over and hugged the wall until he reached the opening of the ally way and leaned over to see what was going on.

From that angle, he couldn't see much. A group of fairly good-sized kids surrounded another slightly smaller one. He couldn't make out the face in the middle, but could see his bright orange hair from a mile away.

"Alright carrot top, you're not getting away this time. After beating up Bruiser yesterday, you're not getting out of here without broken bones!" Spat the tallest guy with a husky voice. The other's all nodded and smirked.

So these guys wanna beat up some kid, huh? Psh- small fry to me, but I really don't feel like rescuing some bratty punk who'll probably turn around and start a fight with me anyway. It's not even worth it, bored or not. Just as he was about to turn and leave, the big guy that was making all the threats came flying out of the ally and hitting the fence with unbelievable force, knocking him out.

What the fuck…?

Renji turned back around just in time to see the rest of the men jump on the redhead. He was about to pull Zabimaru when all the punks got knocked off of the kid and landed on the ground all with a hard thump. They scrambled to their feet with angry glares.

With unblinking eyes Renji watched as what he thought was easy prey beat the ever loving shit out of everyone of them. Every punch, every kick, and every dodge was smooth but full of force. His body was lean and muscular, shaped like an athlete's. His skin a light tan color. After a long steady line of damnits, fucks, and shits, the fiery redhead soon stood in the middle of a very pain filled group of worthless thugs.

Who is this kid? I've never seen such a fine battle come from a human, and he won on top of that. The kid huffed and wiped the sweat from his brow but soon regained his bad ass posture and went over to the side where his book bag was tossed during the fight. Renji's bottom lip was open slightly and he didn't notice he had wandered out further into the ally way. Luckily he was brought out of his gaze in time to think…! Oh shit! And jump out of sight behind a garbage can. He crouched down and peeked out to see if he had been spotted. The kid walked out of the ally way and alongside the fence, an annoyed but otherwise bored look on his face.

Renji watched him until he was far enough away for him to come out of hiding. I have to know who this carrot top is, there's no way my mind will rest other wise. He got up and casually walked in the direction the redhead did. By that time the sun had completely set and the only light came from the streetlights. He followed stealthfully a good ways behind as the redhead went around the corner and into a building.

Renji looked up at the words above the place: Katakura Clinic. Does that mean he's some kind of doctor or something? No he's way too young, he must be taking residence there. Renji jumped over the fence and was soon in a tree next to the clinic. He moved up a branch so he could see in three different windows at once, one being directly in front of him now.

From the downstairs first window, he could see the kid open the door slightly, he waited for a little while then entered and ran up the stairs quickly. Renji was confused for a minute, then bulted upright as he saw a light come on from the window right in front of him. He dropped down and grabbed the branch, holding on hoping he hadn't been spotted. When nothing happened he hastily lifted himself up a little at a time until he was sure no one saw him. He peered into the window to see a small room with a closet, a desk in the corner, a small T.V in the middle of the right wall, and in front of the window lay a futon.

Then Renji saw what his eyes were missing so much, there, standing in the front of his door was the punk redhead. He walked by quickly, tossed his bag down, and then peeled off his tight shirt to reveal gorgeous chiseled abbs and quickly ran over and landed on his bed, eyes closed and falling fast asleep. Renji's heart never missed a beat as he saw the whole thing with hungry eyes.

Damn he looks so good… Renji stopped swaying and froze in the tree. Amazing. I don't even know who this boy is and I already want him so much. He goes to a high school … I wonder if I can sneak around and follow him there? Enough to where I can meet him even? Hmm… Already excited about his new plans, curiosity got the best of him. Just one peek. Just one peek and I'll be gone.

Renji scuttled over to the branch closest to the window. He looked down to see if the window was locked and when he saw it wasn't, an even bigger grin crossed his face. He slowly lifted the window being careful not to make any noise. After it was fully opened, he sat on the windowsill and finally got to admire the sight before him with starving eyes.

The gorgeous redhead he had practically stalked from the park was laying flat on his bed with his right arm crooked above his head and the other resting on the center of his belly button. He breathed steadily in and out and his lips were ever so slightly split open showing a row of very nice white canines. His neck was unbelievably hott, just looking at it made Renji have chills. Then his heart almost stopped when he saw his even hotter collarbones and chest. Light pink nubs over some very nice pecks just above a row of defined, sexy, abbs. And right around his waistline were two round soft hipbones.

The whole site was enough to make Renji breathless and his heart began to race in ways he didn't think possible. His eyes scanned over him at least 20 more times, each time finding a new obsessing gorgeous detail. Before Renji even had time to think he was already hopping from the windowsill across to the other side of the bed soundlessly. He walked over with out a sound and knelt at the head of the bed. … I would kill to have you all to myself from dawn till dusk …

His hungry thoughts came to a halt when the boy stirred. Renji froze and a bead of sweat rolled down his neck. Oh… shit… The redhead only blinked sleepily and rolled to his side so that he was facing Renji and was knocked out by sleep once again, light snoring returning to him. Intense pressure lifted off Renji, forever thankful that he didn't wake up. Ok, that's it, I have to get out of here, I ...I... He couldn't help it. He couldn't leave now, not with this kid looking so damn irresistible. He leaned in closer until his nose was inches away from the boy's. He wanted to lean in so bad and seal his lips against his.

Then he stopped -Sigh- I can't. I can't. I can't. I have to leave now, before he really does wake up. Painfully, he pulled himself upright and was soon back on the windowsill about to turn and close the window, giving one last glance at the God like body, and finally closing the window and jumping on the branch again.

Renji sank back into the arch where the branch met the trunk of the tree, starring in the window where he slept. Damnit. I didn't even learn his nam-- once again his thoughts were cut off as another light turned on in the window across from redhead's room. Renji sat up but knew that whoever was inside couldn't see him. He moved up a little to see who it was.

Two small girls walked in the room, they looked about 12 or 13. Are they his sisters? They started to talk, but he couldn't hear well, so he got up on a closer branch to try and listen, the window was open so that made things a lot easier to hear. Which was weird because as an X Soul Reaper, Renji's hearing was amazingly intensified. He could only think that the reason he couldn't hear was because his mind was ... very clouded.

"I'm telling you, it's true." Said one of the girls with a serious monotone that seemed way too mature for her age. She had black hair that came just above her shoulders and a red cap placed on top. She looked very serious and if not for her voice and face she could easily pass off for a little boy. She plopped down lazily on the bed to the right of the door and turned on the tiny T.V that sat in the left corner nearest the window, flipping through the channels lazily.

"No, I don't believe you, he wouldn't be like that, I mean, he would tell us if it were true wouldn't he?" Pleaded the other little girl. She was a lot fairer skinned and had light honey blond-brown hair shorter than the other girl's. She had a kind and gentle aura about her and her large chocolate eyes were fixed on the other girl as she spoke.

"Look Yuzu, I wouldn't say it if I didn't believe it was true. I've seen him with my own eyes, I've seen him look at guys."

"But… but wouldn't we be the first people he told with something like that? If he really is gay that doesn't bother me, Ichigo's our brother, wouldn't he feel safest telling us something like that Karin?" Her eyes were warm but were filled with doubt and sadness.

Karin lifted herself up so she was eye level with Yuzu and said carefully, "Ichigo's going through a lot of pressure right now. He has a lot on his mind and he might not even be sure if he's ready to share any of it with anyone, that includes us. Even though we're his sisters, we're still his little sisters, and if I know Ichigo, he's probably keeping his mouth shut so he doesn't have to worry us with his own problems. He really can be a stubborn jackass."

Yuzu sighed and looked down at the floor as her hand went up in a fist close to her chest, she radiated with concern. Karin felt her worries and tried a different approach to help.

"Yuzu, don't worry. I'm sure in time, when Ichigo's ready, we would be the first people Ichigo comes to when he needs to talk." A smile graced her face and she went over and hugged Yuzu.

Yuzu's eyes glowed happily, relief and peace obvious on her face. "Thank you Karin, I'm sure you're right. Ichigo will come out to us and tell us when he wants to."

Karin smiled and retreated over to her own bed turning off the T.V and light. "See? No worries. Night Yuzu." Yuzu smiled warmly again. "Good night." Soon both of them were asleep.

Renji couldn't believe his luck he wanted to scream with joy. Of all the luck! Not only did I find out what his name was, there's a chance he might already be gay! He hummed happily and leaned back on the tree

with new hope, the boy's name ringing in his head. Ichigo… I can't get him off my mind. That's it. Tomorrow I'm going to follow him to school and see where this takes me. Ichigo… He sighed happily and jumped down the tree landing perfectly and was soon back out at the familiar corner.

He gave one last glance at the clinic and made his way back to the park and already memorized every step to the clinic.

Renji had never had those feelings about another guy before. He never looked at anyone the way he did Ichigo. And he was completely fine with his feelings, not even scarred, just a little shocked that he would have such strong feelings over someone he hasn't even met yet.

He remembered a time back in the Soul Society when a rumor went around that he and Rukia were together. Rukia had been his best friend since childhood, they were always together and always close, so he could see why they'd look like a couple. Once upon a time, he thought he liked Rukia, but the feeling never really clicked, because to him Rukia was the best friend of his life, and couldn't have had a better one, but nothing more. Besides, it would never have worked between them, not after what she confessed to him.

Not long after they joined the Soul Reaper Academy Rukia told Renji she was a lesbian. She was so lost and confused about her feelings; she even blamed herself for having them. Renji was scarred that she might do something she would regret. He stayed up with her several nights and would try to calm her down when she would come to him with teary eyes, scarred and feeling like an outcast for having those feelings.

He would hold her and tell her that her feelings were just as natural if she had liked guys and that you can't help who you fall in love with. That would always help her and eventually she came to except her feelings and the once permanent frown had left her face, replaced with a truly happy smile.

In all honesty, Renji has never looked down on gay people. He never thought it was strange or weird, like it was just as natural as any other feeling of love. Many times people would call him out and start fights with him for it too, but he was used to it by now, and after royally kicking their asses they had learned to drop it. Still, they always gave him even more disgusted looks, but he didn't let them get to him. Nothing they said or thought mattered.

So Ichigo, what surprises do you have in store for me tomorrow? I hope I'm not disappointed… but somehow, I doubt it. He entered the park grinning like crazy and jumped up in the nearest tree until he was in the middle section and made himself comfortable. I think I know the path from here to his school, but I still want to follow him. He told himself right before his eyelids began to get heavy, one last happy thought popped into his mind before he was out like a light. Ichigo… how can I make you mine…?

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"HEY RENJI!!!"

Renji jumped up, completely freaked out, and fell about 10 feet to the ground. He mumbled miserably then lifted his chin up to see Rukia rolling on the ground laughing until tears flooded her deep purple eyes.

"HAHA!! You should've seen the look on your face Renji! I swear you jumped five feet in the air!" She was clutching her stomach and laughed at Renji even harder when she saw the sour pissed off look on his face when he leaned up. His cheeks went red with either anger or embarrassment, either way, he wouldn't admit it. He jumped up and started yelling at Rukia to at least try and intimidate her.

"Well what was I supposed to do?! You're always sneaking up on me like that! I was just sitting there minding my own business when a midget comes up and scares the shit out of me!!"

As much as he tried to sound serious and look all pissed … It didn't do any good because with his red-red face, flaying arms, and his classic I-cant-believe-that-just-happened-to-me face made her start laughing even harder (if that was even possible).

Eventually they both calmed down enough to actually say a sentence without laughing or yelling and started to walk around the park's path. The dark didn't bother them, they both preferred it that way after being so used to running off in the dark when trouble got too big to handle when they were kids.

"So what were you gunna do? Just leave me wondering around while you slept your lazy ass off in a tree? Did you already forget about me?" complained Rukia, playfully nudging his arm.

"Yea, well maybe I should've just left you there, if I knew you were gunna make me fall 10 feet out of a damn tree." He countered with a just as playful nudge to her shoulder. "Me and my lazy ass would've stayed in that tree all day."

"Oh really? From what I saw, I'd say your lazy ass got a little action when the sun went down. Or is following guys home and sneaking into their rooms at night a common thing in the mortal world now?"

Renji froze. He stopped walking but Rukia walked a little ahead of him and turned around, a devious smile on her face. That look was all she needed to prove that she had won this mini battle, out of the thousands they always had.

He turned a little red again and looked up into the dark sky and snickered. Man. I can't believe I've gotten so rusty, she was right behind me the entire time. Well, guess I'd better go ahead and start explaining. She'll beat it out of me if I don't start now.

As much as he denies it, he can't help but smile when Rukia caught him, not that he didn't marvel in it when he won, he rubbed it in her face. But he still had to smile after losing against her, she was the best-best friend anyone could ever ask for, and he would always be grateful for their friendship. Though he'd never tell her that, she'd never let him hear the end of it.

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So…? What do you guys think? I know it's a little wordy and not much has happened, but I promise, it'll get more … interesting later on ,

Cat in the ally: Why didn't I get a bigger part in this?

R-Tiki: Well, um, you kinda weren't supposed to be there … I didn't even think you were, I thought you were just a thought. ^-^''

Cat in the ally: … that doesn't even make any since, I'm going to scratch all over your couch just for that.

R-Tiki: … ! No wait! Don't do that! I promise I'll add you in the next chapter! Nooo!! -Chases after-