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Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing…duh.
AN: This actually was a letter from me to my … well anyways I was just cleaning out everything and I came across it and I thought, hey why not a 1xR fic? So here it is. Please review, and tell me I'm insane.
Dear Heero:
Don't you know how much I love you? I have to tell you this; I've NEVER EVER felt this way about ANYONE before. Not this kind of desperation, and despair, I feel like if I don't talk to you soon, I'm going to die, just die of missing you. That's how I feel. The only hope I have these days is maybe you'll decided to come back from…somewhere. Hoping that someday you'll come back and when I gather up the courage to call. That you would be there, on the other line answering me in that I'm-so-bored tone of yours. I'm missing it. Don't you know? I'm going to go on a limb here and say, you don't love me, heck I'm still doubting whether you LIKE me or not but, I love you so damn much, so much that I hate you. I hate you so much because you made me feel this way. Why? WHY? Do you have to just make me like you and not responding, and then just LEAVE? God, I'm not even going to make through this. Just imagine what I would be like if you decided not to come back forever. I wish I could just turn back time, and tell you what I feel before you have to leave. But, that's all too late now isn't it? I mean, you left. You left! I hate this. I hate not seeing you, or at least hearing your voice, or just simply knowing that if I don't get to talk to you today, that there will always be tomorrow to try again. But there isn't any tomorrow anymore, is there? NO, no tomorrow, there's not even a chance to talk to you TODAY! How in the world am I going to manage to go through life without you? Or at least go through life without knowing how you felt about me? Okay, that was kind of drastic, how am I going to go through the first three months not knowing whether you're officially dead or something? I hate you. I hate you so much. You know why? Because, I can't believe that I'm missing you way more than I miss ANYBODY else. I think about you like every waking moment, and spend my nights dreaming that you've came back and all the good, romantic stuff you've done to me. Then the worst part is waking up knowing that you're NOT back, and that even if you did came back, you wouldn't do any of that romantic stuff that I dreamt up. I don't know why I'm writing this to you, or sending it to you because, this officially did not came to be as a letter, officially it was just a little pre-writing before bed. But, this has become a letter. Because I think that you should at least know how I feel right? Although you might want to get up and throw up but you deserve to know right? Well, missing you and everything. Ai Shiteru…
Forever your girl,
Relena