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Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing.
AN: This was actually a real letter that I gave to… you know. But I modified it to be a 1xR fic. Review and tell me that I'm out of my mind. Relena may be a little out of character, but then again, when you are writing, you tend to be a complete different person. A generally more open to emotions person.
Sometimes, people are just meant to be together. Though, they may have their differences, they still belong together. It's like, soul mates. Personally, I believe in it. I believe that there is a certain someone for everyone out there. And the truth is, I so don't believe that you are mine. It's not that I don't want you to be, it's just impossible. It's impossible that I can find my soul mate at the age of 15. Impossible. I'm not saying that it would NEVER happen I'm just saying it's very rare. But, I still want to push our relationship or actually make a relationship because though you may not be my soul mate, it's a practice. Because if you don't ever fall in love and just let go of your feelings and just go with the flow, you'll never find him/her. That's what I believe. Heero, you are a very special person in my life. I feel a lot for you, but then, I never really expected it because I always thought that I'd probably just know when I first see someone, and I can just feel it in my guts that he is the one. He is my Prince Charming. But, I'm probably wrong, because that is so fairy tale-ish. You know why I think our relationship have a potential? That's because I didn't like you because you're cute, I didn't like you because of your outer beauty. I liked you because you are you. I like YOU. I don't like your looks, I don't like your chest, butt or shoulders or whatever. I like you, the entire package. I don't know about you. Heck, I don't even know you like me or not, rather less why you like me. But, whatever the reason may be, I think it's gonna work. You have no idea how many times I dreamt that you are just holding me. That we are just looking up at the stars and just feels each other's presence and enjoys the view, the stars. Then, I realize how lucky we each other are because we found each other, when others still had to keep looking. I dreamt for so many times that we are just kissing. On various occasion for various reasons. Oh, how good it felt in the dreams. It was amazing. It's like I can feel this warmth inside of me and I just know that everything is all right. That no matter how far we are, we can still find some time to be with each other. You know how being someone important like you and I is supposed good? Because it shows your accomplishments? It's not because we can't be normal kids going to school. It's not because when there's the Valentine's Day dance, we can't go. And on Sadie Hawkins dance, we would have to watch other girls asking their boyfriends. And I would have to feel the pain all over again. The same pain I'm feeling right now, because I don't know where you are, and I don't know if we are together or not. It tears me from inside out. I think about you like every second. I know that's not suppose to happen right now, because I am NOT in love with you. That's why I am not supposed to feel that way. But I do. It's insane… but I do. Ai Shiteru…
AN: Yeah, I know I'm insane…