A/N: So, I usually kind of feel awkward writing author's notes because I know you all just want to see whether the story is any good or not and then move on with your lives ;) But anway, its my first twific. I've been wanting to write one for a really long time after reading so many amazing Twilight fanfics but I just wanted to find the right storyline. So please feel free to review like crazy (although you can only review once per chapter so...make it a good one!)
Disclaimer: Stephanie Meyer owns all the wonderful things in Twilight. I just play around with the characters.
"College, medical school, internship, residency, and then you become a doctor and have a secure job and future. That's how it should be Bella. I'm telling you, that's what you've got to do. I don't want you to live your life struggling because you can't find what you want. You've got the grades, the brains, and you're good at taking care of people. It's the perfect job for you."
"Dad, just because I don't know what I want to do with my life yet doesn't mean that you have to drill me into being a doctor. What do you even know about being a doctor anyway?! Exactly, you don't! You're just the Chief of Police of stupid Forks!" This is a conversation that's taken place one too many times. I'm tired. Mentally, emotionally, physically, I can't take this anymore. But what am I suppose to do?
"Bella, you don't get it. You just don't know how miserable life is. The least you could have is a stable, secure, highly respected job and become someone."
I freeze. His words ring in my head like a siren. You just don't know how miserable life is. Did he just seriously tell me that I don't know how miserable life is? That hit me hard and square. I, Isabella Marie Swan, don't know the misery of life? That's a bit ironic considering misery IS my life. And is being myself not enough? Am I not someone already?
Beep! Beep! I frantically look around my surrounding and my eyes soon focus on the crazy mess of papers and opened textbooks that sit on my desk. 8:00 am. Shit, I fell asleep. The joys of being a pre-med student. I look towards the bed to check if my roommate Alice had come in some time during the night at all but see the empty bunk bed. Of course she's not here you dumbass. Why would she come back to a tiny old room with a crazy stressed roommate when she has a boyfriend with an apartment?
I sigh as I get up from my chair and stop midway when I realize how stiff my body is from sleeping while sitting and slouched over a desk. Ugh I could so use a massage right now. That should be the least of my worries. I have a shitload of exams coming up and no time for any leisure activities. Psh, like I have the money.
My head jerks up to the sound of the door opening and I spot a pixie like stature slipping through with the door even barely open. "Hey you're awake!" she smiled brightly. Oh Alice, I could never understand how anyone can have that much energy at any given time of the day.
I smile back, "Yeah, I kinda fell asleep while studying. Which by the way, is not the best idea, my whole entire body is aching. God I don't even have time to sleep, now I'm gonna have to spend the rest of the morning studying everything I should have been studying while I was asleep."
Alice frowns at this, "Bella, you're killing yourself over this. I don't know how or why you're doing this! This is insane, gosh I wish I could help you study or something but I totally suck at anything science or medical related. I leave that part for my dad and my brother." She giggles and tries to give me a sympathetic smile.
Right. Alice comes from a super rich and well respected family. The Cullen's. The town of Forks has been talking nonstop about them ever since they moved in. The Cullen's moved in shortly after I departed for my first semester at University of Washington. Carlisle Cullen took the job as Chief Resident of Forks Hospital and his wife Esme gladly supported and followed him. It's truly a wonder why a family like them would move into a town like Forks. I, on the other hand, just wanted to get the hell out of there. Everyone knew everything about every single freaking person in town and it didn't help any that my dad was the Chief of Police. That all just about guarantees no privacy and no life.
Coincidentally, Alice Cullen became my roommate. I'm sure she could have easily afforded an apartment but unfortunately all freshmen are required to dorm. Well, actually, I don't really mind having to stay in a dorm, and it's not like I could afford to keep up with having to pay for an apartment when I can barely keep track of what day it is and cramming as much lectures and books into my head. Having a scholarship does help me out, a lot. But with that comes certain requirements like maintaining good grades and not fucking up whatsoever.
Alice does have a very good point though. Here I am with a full scholarship to a great school and I'm basically set out on a path to kill myself over studying for something that I was never interested in. I took up pre-med courses under my father's restraint and as my last attempt in at least getting a glimpse into the world that I truly aspired, I was going to minor in English Literature. I know, call me crazy. But this is the only way I know how to at least get my dad to compromise and for me to stall some more time before I make out some plan to set out my own life. For some reason, I feel compelled to do what my father has told me to do. Well for one, he's my dad, and although I'm technically an adult, I have no idea what the hell I'm doing with my life and he seizes that opportunity to still control me or "guide" me. And secondly, I'm kinda scared to completely be on my own. Charlie's the only family I really have, and my mom isn't exactly in the picture considering she's on the other side of the country living with her husband Phil. If I decide to go against his wishes and ditch my medical career before it even starts, I better know exactly what I'm going to be doing or else I'm fucked.
"Bella?! Hellooo? Are you okay?" Alice is practically jumping up and down in front of me to get my attention.
I suddenly shake myself out of my daze and nod. "Oh, um… yeah. Sorry I'm a little out of it. I don't know how your dad and brother did it. This has all just been my freshman year and I'm already ready to pass out."
She giggles and plops down onto the bed. "Well my dad is just… my dad. My brother's actually still in med school but don't worry, he goes insane sometimes too. You should meet him some time. Maybe he could help you or something. You guys can talk all sorts of smart stuff that's just way beyond my head. I think I'll stick to fashion and marketing," she smiles brightly and picks up a fashion magazine that she starts flipping through.
I roll my eyes at her but can't help but smile at the bubbly pixie roommate turned friend. I don't know how but we actually get along really well. She definitely pulls me out of my craze and insanity and snaps me back into a world that I can actually relax and enjoy.
"Alice, he's in med school, I highly doubt he has anytime for anything let alone having pity for a freshy in college because she decided to be an idiot and study something that is completely over her head. God what is wrong with me?!"
I cover my face with my hands and collapse onto the chair. Alice looks up from her magazine and grins. "Bella, I don't know what you're doing taking premed courses and letting it take over your life when you know exactly what you want. And it's not becoming a doctor. I know that, you don't even need to say it. Hell I bet everyone in your class knows that. You're an amazing writer, major in journalism or English! Screw that "become someone" shit your dad said, you ARE someone, an absolutely amazing someone. If you do what you're passionate about and you work hard and don't give up, you're gonna get a job somewhere, somehow. I may not know anything about medicine, but if there's one thing that I did learn from my dad and Edward, it's that you can't be a doctor if you don't have the passion for it. Or else it's not worth it and you won't be able to do it, I mean why put yourself through that fucking misery when you're just gonna end up in even more misery?"
I know she's right. It's what everyone that I've talked to has told me. But I just feel so trapped and lost. I wish someone could just tell me that my future is ensured with all things happy. I just need a break, a nice long break away from all this chaos so I can have time to think for myself. Thank goodness finals will be over soon and we all get to head home for summer vacation.
"Hey, I was going to talk to you about this earlier but with finals almost over and basically our freshmen year coming to an end, you have more time to think things over. And also, considering we're heading back to the same town, my mom so wants to have you over for dinner and stuff. She was really upset that you didn't come for Thanksgiving OR spring break. So no excuses this time. She might actually just want to have you at our house for the entire summer if she could or if you wanted. Oh that'd be so much fun! You'd fit right in Bells, my whole family's gonna be there for the summer but we have plenty of room. Or we could just have slumber parties every night in my room! Ok, you're just going to have to tell Charlie sorry and that you're staying with me. Oh! You can meet Edward then! And Emmett, I told him stories about you and he cracks jokes about you like all the time. Oh yeah, Jasper's coming with us too, I'm really excited. Although he's kind of just like family now." I swear she could've gone all day talking about this. I took the moment of her giggling to stop her.
"Woah there pixie! Slow down. Goodness how do you even talk that fast and that much! And I swear I'm beginning to hear your giggles in my sleep. How 'bout I crash at your place for the first weekend or so before I have to face Charlie. That sound good? We'll have plenty of time to chill and we can have stupid slumber parties like we're some high schoolers again. Okay?"
I nearly fall off my chair as Alice attacks me with a hug and squeals. "I can't wait! I'll call my mom and let her know. But I'm supposed to go meet up with Jasper again for breakfast so I'll see you in a little bit. Or do you want to come grab something to eat with us?"
I laugh, "Yeah right, like I'm gonna be able to keep my food down while you two are eating each other's faces off. I think I'll pass." I wink and tell her to go. She quickly changes her clothes and runs out the door.
"Later Bella! Just remember, one more week and you're going home with me!"
Just one more week. One more week of hell and then I'm free. God I can't wait. I look at the wall next to the door as Alice closes it shut behind her as she leaves. It's full of pictures that Alice decided to hang up. My eyes skim over them and land on the one of Alice and her family. Picture perfect. I stand up and walk towards the wall of pictures to take a closer look. Everyone in her family is just absolutely gorgeous, sparkling with good looks and charm. You can tell just by looking at the picture. But something catches my attention. A beautiful set of tangled, golden brunette hair draws my eyes. I look closely and see a stunning man staring back at me in the picture. Edward Cullen. Those two words need no description. In fact, there aren't words to describe how incredibly good looking this sex god like creature is. Ever since Alice hung up those pictures, I couldn't stop staring at the one of Edward. He was just… irresistible to look at, almost too good looking to be a real person. Good looking AND smart. He's halfway through medical school for Christ's sake and he's only 23!
Snap out of it Bella! Okay I need to get myself together. School may be over in a week but I still have a ton of studying to do. Just… god that picture! Alright, I need to get myself to a library. Somewhere where my attention span can last for more than five seconds! I gather my things into my bag and head out the door. Just one more week. Just one more week. Just one more week.
A/N (cont.) I have to say, I don't know what your reactions are yet but it was really fun writing this. So I'm hoping this story gets a warm reception, but if this isn't your thing it's totally cool. However, I think I may be interested in looking for a Beta so if anyone would be kind enough to offer to beta for me, please let me know about your experience and skills, perhaps send me a link to your own fanfic. I'd greatly appreciate it! As much as I'm writing to have people read and enjoy, I also do want to expand my abilities as a writer. Alright I'll shut up now and get started on the second chapter, so review and come back for more! =)