To Observe Despair
Chapter One
Fainting
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Observation is key in my line of work…
Coffee stained the carpet at my feet and newspaper littered the floor, hardly anything important to a normal person.
But I'm not a normal person…
Annie Dillard said: "Seeing is of course a matter of verbalization. Unless I call my attention to what passes before my eyes, I simply won't see it."
Wise words in my opinion.
The dining room table was cleared of all clutter and congestion; the three chairs surrounding it were vacuumed clean. My eyes shifted to the floor again, taking note of the difference between the three surfaces so close to each other.
My life is anything but normal…
I stepped around the garbage, tiptoeing in order to save myself from making any noise, and headed down the hallway. My suitcase, which I had lifted up to my shoulder, banged loudly against the wall as I bumped into it. I clenched my teeth together and stood still…Did he hear me?
I have to live this way, to change myself…
I sighed softly as relaxed my tense shoulders. Outside the little apartment, a door slammed and footsteps echoed down the halls. Anxiety started to sink into my arms and legs, then my chest. Soon my whole body was shaking. What If I came at the wrong time? What if I don't get enough information? What if I fail my mission?
To connect myself…
Another door outside slammed and more footsteps stomped down the hallways. My heart hammered in my chest and my vision swam.
Details are important in my line of work, and I knew the signs…
My stomach burned and bubbled as my head got lighter and lighter. Soon the blackness was coming over me and soon I knew no more.
I knew the signs of a person in despair.